a house of prayer for the nations

God is interested in the Salvation of the World…

If you look about or read the news or watch what’s going on on the internet you might not catch this…

It might elude you…

But it doesn’t elude me…

I know that God is going to save the World…

How do I know this?

Because Jesus said so Himself…

“I do not ask on behalf of these alone, but for those also who believe in Me through their word; that they may all be one; even as You, Father, are in Me and I in You, that they also may be in Us, so that the world may believe that You sent Me.  The glory which You have given Me I have given to them, that they may be one, just as We are one;  I in them and You in Me, that they may be perfected in unity, so that the world may know that You sent Me, and loved them, even as You have loved Me. Father, I desire that they also, whom You have given Me, be with Me where I am, so that they may see My glory which You have given Me, for You loved Me before the foundation of the world. O righteous Father, although the world has not known You, yet I have known You; and these have known that You sent Me; and I have made Your name known to them, and will make it known, so that the love with which You loved Me may be in them, and I in them.” (John 17:20-25 NASB)

Jesus said that when the Church was perfected in unity that the entire world would be saved.

For anyone to know that the Father sent Jesus they need to have had His Name made known to them because no one can know these things without the Spirit of God making it known to them.  The way Jesus speaks of the world coming to know and believe that the Father sent Him is exactly the same way as He expressed the way the disciples have come to know the same thing – Divine Revelation through the Person of the Holy Spirit…

And that is the way the Church will be used – The Person of the Holy Spirit through the united Church – to show the World the Father and that He sent Jesus to be The Saviour of the World…

We have seen and testify that the Father has sent the Son to be the Savior of the world. (I John 4:14 NASB)

He knew, Jesus knew as He prayed this prayer how the end would unfold and that before the time of the end the entire world would worship Him as King of kings and Lord of lords…

That every knee would bow and every tongue would confess…

It was the highlight of human history and it was on His mind as He stared down the cross…

He knew that before the time of the end the whole earth would be covered by darkness and the hope and belief of many would be sorely tested…

He knew that the hearts of many would grow cold…

Given up hope…

And He told us in scripture that at this time of great and prevailing darkness He would arise…

“For behold, darkness will cover the earth And deep darkness the peoples; But the LORD will rise upon you And His glory will appear upon you. (Isaiah 60:2 NASB)

And it was at this time – when the Lord arises upon us – commencing with His People Israel – and the unity of the Church is made complete – one new man – from Israel and from the Gentiles – together – united – in unity for the sake of the Gospel – and loving each other as Jesus has loved them and as the Father has loved them – from all eternity – He has loved them – His own – His elect – at this time He would arise to take this world as His possession…

What is He interested in?

The hearts of every man, woman and child alive on this planet…

And He will get them – every single one of them – before the time of the end – to be His own – He will enable every single one of them – for a period in human history before His return and before the time of the end – to believe on His Name and be One with Him…

He will do this for He must reign from heaven until all His enemies are made a footstool for His feet…

And they will be…

He will hear the praise from earth as the prayer He prayed is answered…

‘Our Father who is in heaven, Hallowed be Your name. ‘Your kingdom come. Your will be done, On earth as it is in heaven. (Matthew 6:9b-10 NASB)

Who is sufficient for this task?

We proclaim Him, admonishing every man and teaching every man with all wisdom, so that we may present every man complete in Christ. (Colossians 1:28 NASB)

But this is the passion of our God, of His Holy Spirit within us and of His Apostles whom He has appointed to complete this task on earth…

They, His Apostles, will arise…

They will arise again to complete what was commenced years ago – they are coming – I see them – they are coming – do not be surprised – His Witnesses are coming and they will be pure and holy – He will make them pure and holy – He will make them devoted entirely to Himself – I feel it – I know it – I know it will happen – it is coming soon – He has been and will be preparing them in secret and they will arise in His time and in His bidding to exhibit – to lead by exhibiting – His life on earth to all they come into contact with – they will ‘rub off’ onto all the rest of the Church His life within them and they will ‘set the bar’ as to how He – the Lord Himself – will operate on earth until He comes again…

A change, a change is ahead of us…

The darkness is climaxing, the light is readying itself to shine…

“Arise, shine; for your light has come, And the glory of the LORD has risen upon you. (Isaiah 60:1 NASB)

He is going to save the world, in the power of our united witness He is going to save the world…

“There are many things Andrew, which you do not understand”…

“This is understandable, you are not Me”, declares the Lord…

“I am God and you are not”…

“I know what I know and you do not know what only I know”…

“I reveal to you what you need to know – to know Me and to understand and complete your call on this earth – that is all”…

“I do not satisfy your ‘curiosity’ or your ‘desire to know'”…

“Knowledge is powerful Andrew and I do not ‘corrupt’ you with knowledge”…

“No knowledge is given where knowledge is not required”…

“I love you and I give you this indiscriminately – although I do withhold love from you to test the love I have established in your heart for Me – but only intermittently and not for prolonged periods of time – yes, I have withheld My love from you – think of that scripture, “for a short instant I hid My face from you but with loving-kindness I will establish you”, from Isaiah”…

“I am the One who will establish you – not on the basis of knowledge but on the basis of love – of your trust in Me that I love you and that I calculate everything for your ‘long term’ happiness – for your ‘long term’ good – I am not a cruel God and for a brief moment yes, I hid My face from you but with everlasting compassion I will have mercy on you”, declares the Lord…

“All is done for My Glory – I am the Other-Centered God – all is done for My Glory – you get the good from what I do in that all I do is to establish My Protection over you so that you can grow in My Love – My Glory is My Love to you – you are to Glory in My Glory for this is for your best interests – to know and to be established in My Love – you cannot lose My Love – My Love to you is Eternal – you and all My own will know Me fully – for all eternity you will grow in My Love and My Love will be equally given to each of you throughout eternity – throughout your entire lifetimes each of you as My children will be equally loved”…

“Go and ponder this – ponder My Love – ponder My In-fathomable Ways – ponder Me and be amazed”…

“I love you”…

Jesus…

What is fear?

It is anything we cannot control…

It is anything that is outside of our control…

Anything which is an unknown variable in our lives…

These unknown variables are the things which cause fear…

We isolate ourselves to avoid these unknown variables…

We protect ourselves to eliminate them but then we are surprised by a chance happening where our defenses are removed and we are exposed to our fears…

When Jesus lives through us He doesn’t need to know what is about to happen, like when He was struck and blindfolded and asked, “Who hit you?”…

He didn’t know when He was going to be hit and he didn’t need to…

He was trusting His Father…

Jesus doesn’t know when He’s coming back to earth to gather His Bride and establish His Kingdom, again He is trusting His Father…

So many things we fear – our inabilities – our failings – our weaknesses – but Jesus isn’t weak, He isn’t afraid – He is trusting His Father – all Judgement has been entrusted to Him and He is waiting until He is released by His Father’s Word to come back to earth to rule…

I’ve been seeing recently that as I say, “Take over” and allow Jesus to live through me in a situation that I am submitting to God in that situation to do whatever He has planned…

Waiting on the Lord means just that – letting the Lord act through you and if He doesn’t not to try and help Him but to continue to wait until He arises in you to defeat your enemies…

Jesus isn’t afraid and Jesus doesn’t need to know every aspect of His future in me – I struggle with both of those items so it’s better for me that Jesus lives through me cos then I’ll have His Peace…

This is what I want…

And it takes my focus off the unknown…

There is a protection in His Peace…

It is the antidote to fear…

The Lord is moving me to a place where I do nothing on my own initiative…

Like Jesus did when He was on earth…

This has been a difficult challenge for me as I’ve always felt that there was some secret ‘satisfaction’ or ‘fulfillment’ in ‘doing my own thing’…

He is showing me that there is no ‘pain’ for me in doing things His way at His initiation (the pain is in the flesh but this isn’t me and I don’t need to fear it – I’ve been fearing the pain of selflessness – not getting what I usually want – but I’ve realized that I don’t need to fear the unknown of the vacuum of selflessness as the Lord will fill it as I surrender to it – replacing selfishness and it’s ‘pleasures’ with selflessness and His pleasures – the joy of doing good to others – blessing others)…

I’m not perfect here, far from it, but I am seeing some progress in Him naturally taking over in areas and enabling me to follow – it is very peaceful and your stomach doesn’t feel like it’s tied up in knots – good for eliminating stomach ulcers I guess… 🙂

I have a friend who needs to hear this – let God naturally enable you to relinquish control to Him so that He naturally lives through you – that is my word to my friend… 🙂

When God lives through us we naturally focus on other’s well being and we have no conscience as there is nothing wrong with what we are doing – selfishness always gives us a bad or guilty conscience…

The Holy Spirit is holy and will make us holy – in His own time…

As we relinquish control to Him to do this – in His own time – He is able to work in us and vanquish sin within us…

This is a natural process…

We cannot help Him…

We must follow…

Love,

Andrew

Lord, I feel confused…

I have let go…

I have let go of everything You have ever told me…

I have let go…

Where to now?

I have let go of the deepest secrets which You have told me to ‘hold’ before You…

The deepest promises which You have made me…

I have let them go…

I have not been able to hold on to them…

They are all gone…

I have nothing left…

I am a shell of who I used to be…

I have nothing left…

“I have emptied you Andrew and I will fill you”…

“You are not confused – you are experiencing My emptying of yourself”…

“Everything in you must be emptied”…

“Everything until there is nothing left”…

“Jesus did nothing of His own initiative”…

“He did nothing”…

“This is the position you will get to – naturally – where you desire to do nothing of your own initiative – nothing – because I gave you this desire to ‘arrive’ at this place”…

“The sister who is supporting you in prayer will continue to support you until you arrive at this place of ‘nothingness’ before Me – I will have My fulfillment of My word that I will have you all to Myself – no one will share you with Me – I shall have you all to Myself and you shall live for My glory alone – anyone whom I bring near to you will be blessed by you in this place – in this place which I will establish in you – continue to die, continue to let go – as I bring up the surrenders continue to make them – continue to let everything go – do not make for yourself a kingdom anywhere, in any manner, on earth – wait for Me, wait for Me, wait for Me and I will establish you in My will and in My purposes for your life – Jesus laid down His life that He might take it up again and I will raise you up in the appointed time – not yet Andrew – continue to lie in the dust – not yet – but you will have your time – your time when I shine through you – continue to wait and I will crucify you to the end – the end of yourself”…

“Love you”…

Jesus…

Father, I believe in Your promises to me…

Your specific promises to me which You have not made to me in testing (to test the quality of my heart) but in truth (Your promises which will not fail)…

I believe them all and I will wait for them patiently enjoying the present as You give it to me – the present versus living in the future as I have done for so much of my life…

I will enjoy my family now…

I will enjoy my job now…

I will enjoy my life now…

I will do what you have placed on my heart to do now and I will be at peace, I will relax about the future and all that You have planned for me there – in the future…

I love You Lord, and I trust You…

I trust You with my life and I am at peace…

I love You…

Andrew

God’s interest right now (apart from all the other things which He is interested in constantly with respect to our individual wellbeing) is in the salvation of Jerusalem…

I’ve been ‘quiet’ recently because He told me to be, I’ve ‘lain down’ my ‘blogging’ because this is what He told me to do…

But I am released today to continue ‘blogging’ whatever is on my heart to ‘blog’…

I have put my family first – their individual wellbeing – and now I am released to focus ‘out’ with whatever ‘spare’ time the Lord gives me (in my present circumstances and position) to what He is wanting to achieve world wide…

And Israel, Jerusalem specifically, is on His Heart…

I will keep speaking about this – I will not hold my tongue on this until He makes Jerusalem the praise of the earth as His scripture has said…

And give Him no rest until He establishes And makes Jerusalem a praise in the earth. (Isaiah 62:7 NASB)

It will be the praise of the earth – as people from all around the world will be able to look at Jerusalem and see the Glory of God shining forth from her people, from Jews and Gentiles alike – one new man – shining forth His Glory…

And there will be other cities which will also become a praise in the earth – where God’s Glory will dwell in the midst of all His People – but this city – Jerusalem will (I believe) be the first – a praise in all the earth…

This is why there is such resistance and such a fight against the peace of Jerusalem – which God has specifically commanded us in scripture to pray for – why? because Jerusalem’s peace is her salvation…

Not just physical peace but the peace of God which transcends all understanding…

When this peace fills the streets of Jerusalem her inhabitants will be saved – they will experience His Salvation…

For Zion’s sake I will not keep silent, And for Jerusalem’s sake I will not keep quiet, Until her righteousness goes forth like brightness, And her salvation like a torch that is burning. (Isaiah 62:2 NASB)

Pray for the peace of Jerusalem: “May they prosper who love you. (Psalm 122:6 NASB)

Why should we pray for the peace of Jerusalem?

The nations will see your righteousness, And all kings your glory; And you will be called by a new name Which the mouth of the LORD will designate. (Isaiah 62:2 NASB)

So that the nations will see her glory and be saved…

For I am not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes, to the Jew first and also to the Greek. (Romans 1:16 NASB)

For if their rejection is the reconciliation of the world, what will their acceptance be but life from the dead? (Romans 11:15 NASB)

This is the revival which we have all been waiting for and it will spark other revivals which have been prophesied from of old…

that they may all be one; even as You, Father, are in Me and I in You, that they also may be in Us, so that the world may believe that You sent Me. (John 17:21 NASB)

I came to a breakthrough this morning…

The Lord had asked me to lay something down and now I feel released from that…

I know what I am to do…

A certain set of circumstances will come to pass and when they do I know what I am to do…

He has released me – once these certain set of circumstances come to pass – to act…

I am so excited…

I feel released…

Even though it hasn’t happened yet – I feel released…

I am free…

And I am happy on the inside…

I came to that place where I was comfortable – not completely happy but comfortable – with never knowing the answer to a question which I’d asked Him – which was on my heart and wouldn’t go away – and after coming to that place where I saw that I couldn’t force Him to answer me on this and that if He didn’t it was for my good – He has now answered me…

I am so happy…

It was a similar answer to the answer Abraham gave to his faithful servant when he was sent to find a bride for Isaac, it was a ‘do this and if you receive an unwilling response you are released and I have something better for you’ type of response…

I am so released right now…

So released to wait…

Love You Lord…

Andrew

What we treasure in our hearts is what we love…

What is our deepest longing?

What do we really treasure?

Do we treasure or love our lives?

Or do we treasure and love our relationship with the Lord – which is Eternal?

Any other thing which we treasure or love is unsatisfying to us and so falls below or short of the glory of God – the glory which God wanted us to enjoy in His Presence…

We are so far short of the glory of God because we have placed our own happiness – the pursuit of our own happiness – above the pursuit of the happiness of others…

He has given it to us to serve others…

This is what He does…

And when we place our own happiness above the happiness of others we fall into selfishness…

When we receive what He freely gives we enjoy His free gifts…

Every good and perfect gift is from above and is freely given to us by God – not on the basis of our performance but on the basis of His Grace…

When we treat others in this manner we reflect the glory of God and do not fall short of it…

We shine with His Glory for this is what He is – Other centred…

When we are freely given things by God we do not make them idols in our hearts because we know they have been freely given by God and can be taken away by God just as easily when they are no longer beneficial to us – this is what it means to be in God’s will – to be surrendered to Him choosing our pleasure and our pain and to trust Him for either – even if we don’t understand it – don’t understand why it is happening to us – and to be unflinching in the treatment we get from our fellowman knowing that it has been allowed by our God to shape us the way He wants us to be shaped – remembering eternity…

That we will be with Him and continue to get to know Him forever…

There is no shortage of time in this relationship…

It helps you to relax knowing that, doesn’t it?

It does me…

Love you all,

Andrew

To lay down your life is the ultimate act of trust…

It is letting go…

It is letting go of your future…

It is letting go of your present…

It is letting go of all control…

It is allowing God to guide your life in whatever manner He sees fit…

He – the Lord – told me something over the weekend as I went on my run which really settled me…

I had been praying for someone – someone who needs to come to know the Lord – someone linked to someone I know – and the Lord had told me that this person would come to know Him but also that this person didn’t have long to live…

I was thinking of this person’s life – it was a sad life – and the Lord had previously told me that He loved this person more than He loved me but I couldn’t understand how this was possible as I was looking at this person’s ‘sorry life’…

Then He explained to me as I was on my run that over the space of eternity He would love all of His own to exactly the same amount – each would receive exactly the same amount of His Love – and now I see as I type that He will perfect all of His own in His Love…

Suddenly as He told me this my burden for this one and another one in the same sort of situation – one who has had a ‘sorry life’ and knows the Lord and will be removed soon from earth to be with Him – were lifted and I saw that it was ‘fair’…

He is in control of our experience of life on this earth, how much our flesh is practically removed from us and He will wipe away every tear from our eyes once we get to our place with Him, once our flesh is removed from us and we grow in Him, with Him, forever…

The rooms which He has prepared for us in His Father’s House…

This is our abode forever and we are safe there – we still have our privacy there and He will meet us there but even there our knowledge of His Love will be at His discretion…

He will decide the portion which He allots to us for all eternity and it will be fair…

I saw this on my run…

I saw that the amount of love we each receive on earth is based on our call – our effectiveness in our call depends on the amount of love ‘released’ to us by the Lord…

Why am I sharing this?

Surrendering to the Lord in all things is surrendering to His timing in our lives…

He looks at the Eternal Perspective and He sees that the way He is treating us is fair…

Once we see this we can stop ‘looking over our shoulder’ at the way He appears to be treating others and submit to Him in our intercession where we reach ‘brick walls’ where He says, “No!” as we pray for release to certain ones, understanding that He will release His love to these ones in His presence for eternity if not right now on earth…

He is Sovereign…

If He gives desire to these ones to be free then they will be free…

If He gives faith to these ones that they will be free on earth then they will be free on earth…

Otherwise they will be free with Him in His Presence for eternity and grow in their knowledge of Him for eternity…

When the Lord releases revelation to me I flourish, when He doesn’t I can’t ‘get any’ for myself, I just have to ‘live up’ to the amount which He has already released and wait for further revelation…

Revelation brings life, it just naturally brings life…

I love it when the Lord releases revelation…

Love You Lord…

Andrew

If we could be in constant communication with those that we love and if we and they could perfectly describe the way we and they felt about what was happening to us individually then misunderstanding would be minimised…

This is however not the way things are in the ‘real world’…

God allows misunderstandings…

We cannot live in each other’s pockets…

God calls us to do things on our own at times…

And no one else may understand…

And we so want everyone else to understand – or especially those closest to us – or those who we long to be closest to us…

Sometimes God gives us what we’re longing for but not through the person who we long to receive that comfort or support from and we do not understand…

When we do not understand it is God’s way of pulling us into His Presence to seek Him and He, after drawing us further and further in, will then draw out of our hearts the reason behind why we are experiencing that misunderstanding…

“My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?”…

Even Jesus experienced this…

And I believe Jesus was given an answer – that possibly only He and God the Father and God the Holy Spirit know…

He was heard because of His piety as the scripture has said…

When we are placed in confusing circumstances or suffer misunderstandings or uncertainty with respect to those we love and care for we are ushered into God’s waiting room…

In God’s waiting room are many treasures and these treasures and given to us through our pain…

There are many lies which we believe in our hearts and we don’t know how many of them there are until we are ushered into God’s waiting room…

God’s waiting room is just like a hospital waiting room – in the waiting room you know you are about to meet the Doctor…

And He will ask you questions about your health, how you have been feeling, where your pain is, what other symptoms you have and how long has this been a problem to you…

As you sit in the waiting room there is fear and anxiety and uncertainty…

But then it is your turn and He speaks…

And as He speaks the clouds break over you and you know – you begin to understand why you have been through what you have been through – and the peace returns and the confusion falls away…

The sun comes out and you relax and start to feel alive again…

Summer has come…

I love You Lord…

Andrew

Live to give…

Whatever is freely given to you receive with gratitude…

Hi Everyone,

I’ve felt that the Lord wants me to stop blogging during this next season of my life.

Love you all,

Andrew

(Ps. If you need to get in touch with me you can still use the information provided in the ‘About’ tab)

I was sitting in bed this morning (enjoying my break from work) and talking to the Lord and got the above revelation…

He told me that as I loved a certain person unconditionally that they would love me in response…

I had this out with Him as to me this appeared to be conditional, i.e. I love this person and then they’ll love me, but He reminded me as to what He’d just said…

If I loved them unconditionally then they would love me and I thought about ‘love is not self seeking’ – so I was to love this particular person unconditionally expecting nothing in response and not expecting them to love me and I was to keep doing this for the rest of my life and then they would love me – it was counterintuitive…

That was when He said Unconditional Love reproduces…

And that made sense to me, that released me…

Just like physical love reproduces Unconditional Love reproduces – either 30, 60 or 100 fold depending on the Lord’s will (and in His timing)…

I am to keep loving this particular person no matter what the response is or is not…

The joy is that my act towards them will reap a harvest in their life according to the will of God…

Why?

Because this is what He’s told me to do and this is what He’s promised me…

‘Love never fails’ (or falls over) – I understand this more fully now – Unconditional Love reproduces…

I was having a shower yesterday morning and then the Lord suddenly said to me, “lust is sexual anger”…

It made sense…

When we grab sexual fulfilment for ourselves we do so because of anger of not being given the sexual fulfilment we believe we deserve…

I asked the Lord a question, “What is the sexual fulfilment which my new self ‘deserves’?” and the Lord’s response was that every good and perfect gift is from above coming down from the Father of lights who does not change like shifting shadows…

If the Lord gives us something then it is something which our new self ‘deserves’ – deserves isn’t a good word with respect to our new self – we get what He gives us and we can’t get any more or any less than He has decided to give us and everything which He does decide to give us has nothing to do with what we do or do not do – He has decided to give it and it is His prerogative to give it…

But everything He decides to give we need to be able to ‘move on’ to the next thing which He gives us…

The good works which He prepared beforehand for us to walk in are released by His good works which He performs in our lives as “we love because He first loved us”…

Our flesh believes that it deserves things and our flesh is deceived as all it deserves is to burn in the lake of fire and brimstone for eternity…

Fortunately for us our flesh died with Christ – those who have been enabled to appropriate this for ourselves – and has already suffered God’s wrath over its behaviour in Jesus on the cross when He was made sin on our account…

That is why God can’t punish us now for our acts of sin in our flesh as we’ve already been punished and fled for mercy under His Blood…

Trust is the anecdote to lust, the truth will set you free…

When we know that God holds our happiness (in this area) in His Hand and will release true love to us in the sexual area in His timing we see that no one (other than the person He has chosen to meet this need in us) has anything to offer us there…

No one…

God is very particular about who He chooses to love us – His own…

No one who does not know Him can offer us anything in this sexual area…

He wants us to know unconditional love inside of marriage…

This extends and is climaxed in the sexual area where He wants husbands and wives to experience sexual intimacy in a ‘love is not self seeking’ fashion which only they know about – in exclusivity, i.e. not blogged about or discussed in some ‘reality TV’ type way but just between those two unique human beings – a very exclusive relationship or given-ness and love – which is not self seeking…

Our new self is created to receive love and to give love…

This is its purpose…

God pours in His love either directly or through others and then once received that love stimulates us to pour out love to others and also back to the Lord…

The Lord told me a few weeks ago that He doesn’t pour out love on me so that I will love Him in return but so that I will be able to receive more and more and more of His love…

He also told me that He doesn’t pour out love on me because of my call – but because He loves me…

He just loves…

My heart hasn’t been able to receive this yet – I’ve been blinded in this area of understanding – I know it’s true but I haven’t been able to receive it in my heart – He loves me because He loves me not because of my gifts or abilities – which in my experience on a human level is always why people have loved me and wanted to be my friend – but because He genuinely loves me and has chosen to be my friend even though there is nothing about me (my flesh) which is lovable and I find in myself no shortage of disbelief towards His love – the love which He has offered me is unconditional – according to His Word He will deliver to me everything He has promised – whether I believe it or not He will do it – He has told me this and it comforts my heart – left to me nothing would happen – I am so slow to believe His Word to me – yes, when I’m under the Anointing I’m fine – but after that ‘wears off’ and I’m left in ‘silence’ for awhile then I begin to doubt…

I really related to the disciples who went back to their fishing instead of going to the mountain which Jesus told them to go to…

I’ve ‘been there’ – just recently…

When the Lord told me that there was nothing left to do and all I had to do was wait something died in me – my control died – I felt like there was nothing more that I could do to progress things and I didn’t know what to do – I found myself ‘kicking back’ into what I used to do – I just couldn’t ‘stop’ completely – the ‘silence’ and the ‘waiting’ were deafening…

It was then that He reminded me of something which He’d said to me while I was in Manila…

“There is nothing you can do to make it happen and nothing you can do to stop it happening”…

He then reminded me of something else He’d said to me after this in Manila…

“Do not strive in My Presence, do not resist My Holy Spirit”…

And I admitted to Him – just last night – that I couldn’t do this either – I couldn’t stop striving in His Presence and I couldn’t help but to resist His Holy Spirit…

That broke something in me – a deeper rest is now being experienced by me – deeper and deeper rest is my birth right because He has promised this to me – nothing to do with me – everything to do with His promise…

In Manila He also told me, through my new self, “covetousness is wanting anything which the Lord hasn’t given me”…

This links to His definition of lust, “lust is sexual anger” as wanting sex when the Lord hasn’t given it to us is covetousness and has with it anger that it can’t have what it wants…

It will do all it can to ‘earn’ what it wants but when it’s told it can’t earn it – it just does not know what to do…

That’s what I’ve been going through…

A loss of control…

A deeper loss of control…

And a ‘learning’ to trust God at a deeper level – all we have is His Word to us…

Love You Lord…

Andrew