Waiting for God on a park bench…

The Lord gave me a picture a few weeks back which has really crystallized where I am at presently…

I was sitting alone on a park bench…

I was waiting…

Waiting for Him to act…

Life was going on around me, people passing me in the park and I had a good attitude towards them but remained silent as they passed by with a pleasant expression on my face and a contented feeling in my heart…

I was powerless to do anything, I was just a watcher and He showed me that on the inside this would never change…

He was offering me a permanent place on that park bench where all I did for the rest of my life on the inside was to worship Him and wait upon Him…

He showed me that as I did this I was proclaiming His Victory and experiencing His rest…

All good things would flow to me from this position and that in time He would bring someone to sit with me on that park bench who would share my call to worship and wait on Him and to trust Him to do everything which He has said He will do in His world…

I realized the powerlessness of this position, the vulnerability of this position, the public nature of this position and yet the peace and freedom of this position…

When we worship we proclaim His Victory and in so choosing we are proclaiming that we are not worried about ourselves or our futures but are content with Him…

He has absolute control and we are trusting Him to provide…

Prior to the park bench vision when I was on one of my long hill runs recently He showed me that the prayer which He taught us to pray was – every time we prayed it – bringing the entire Family of God on earth before Him – there was nothing individualistic about it – it was corporate…

Waiting, worshipping, interceding…

And this is what Jesus does in heaven…

On the inside as we live from this place we experience His peace and His unity with His Body all the way around the world…

We are one with Him and submitting to His agenda for His Body at this point in time on earth…

So this is a time of realignment for me, getting used to my park bench, realizing that my ‘worry prayers’ are not necessary and that He really does have everything under control…

Love You Lord… 😊

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All Nations…

There is no one like You among the gods, O Lord, Nor are there any works like Yours.  All nations whom You have made shall come and worship before You, O Lord, And they shall glorify Your name. 

(Psalm 86:8-9 NASB)

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Worship…

Worship is a beautiful thing…

When the Lord’s anointing is upon us to worship Him it is a beautiful thing…

I love You Lord…

Although You don’t make a lot of sense to me much of the time, I love You…

I know You are Faithful and I know that you are True…

You are Faithful to Your Word and You fulfil all things which are in accordance with Your Will…

When we look at the overall thread of our lives and watch the progress You make in them over time we see that You have been faithful…

When we take a close snapshot view of our most recent painful experience we may take another view but the long view is more realistic…

I love You Lord, as I said, I don’t understand You for much of the time but I know the things You have done in my life are real…

Thank You for being Faithful to me and putting me through the circumstances which You have to bring me closer to Yourself…

I love You…

Thank You,

Andrew

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To the Lord belongs escapes from death…

God is to us a God of deliverances; And to GOD the Lord belong escapes from death. (Psalm 68:20 NASB)

I am happy at this point of today… 🙂

I’ve been going through some pretty ‘dark’ times over the last few days…

Some of that ‘storm’ and it has been a really challenging time for me on the ‘inside’…

Waking up this morning and seeking the Lord and He has provided some clarity on the situation…

Waiting on the Lord means getting used to not ‘pulling any strings’ to orchestrate what He has said He will do…

Letting go of that innate desire to ‘assist’ God in bringing to pass what He has said…

I am glad that I’ve gone through these past few ‘dark’ days…

When I go through these times He seems to remind me of things I’ve blogged previously and I go back and again go, “Ahhaa…” and remember that I already knew this but have somehow seemed to practically forget it in the intervening time… 🙂

Shows there’s more deliverance to come…

Torment…

Think about your life and think about whether there are certain strands of it which torment you, things which go over and over and over in your mind…

These are the things which we haven’t surrendered to the Lord…

My latest ‘dark’ experiences clearly showed me this…

Torment is not from the Lord but from the enemy of our souls, the devil…

King Saul was tormented by an evil spirit after he refused to submit to the Lord’s word…

The Lord uses these experiences, for those of us who know Him, to bring out in us our new self which just ‘knows’ (after a while) – it just senses or perceives – that these patterns are not life-giving – they are actually death-giving…

This was the giveaway for me in this latest episode – the Lord sort of said, “Hold on a minute, this isn’t healthy”, through my new self and then I saw it…

Anything which we do to try and make anything happen, even if it is God’s will, is control…

Anything we try and do to manipulate or coerce someone into doing something, even if it is God’s will, is witchcraft…

Anything which the Lord has told us which we’ve believed but there’s been a part of our ‘sin which is within me’ which has also agreed with it because it just happens to look like that will benefit ‘sin which is within me’ also and then ‘sin which is within me’ goes about to try and make it happen for itself – keeping it on the ‘down low’ so our new self doesn’t notice – eventually we see it surfacing during one of these ‘dark’ times when everything seems to be falling apart and it is ‘exposed’ for what it is really trying to do…

The hardest thing in the world is to have heard from God that He is going to do something through you and someone else together, i.e. use you together to achieve something for His Glory, and then stand by powerlessly watching as this other person remains unwilling to participate in this activity, being unable to ‘touch’ them to try and ‘enlighten’ them…

The reason it’s hard is because there’s still a selfish motive in there for ‘sin which is within me’…

Once that selfish motive is removed and this is a pure submission thing where we trust the Lord explicitly that everything He puts us through is in love and for our good – then truly we are ‘all good’ and see that His timing is perfect and that He is enabling us to wait but that in our waiting He is preparing us to be ready to play our part in this partnership and He frees us from the delusion that we’re already ‘perfectly’ ready but the other party is not… 🙂

No matter what happens God still loves us, He is using everything to bring us into His likeness…

We must surrender to His truth because in aligning with His truth we practically experience His peace and are protected by His power to have our youth renewed and to live more and more and more escaping from death and experiencing His abundant life as we know Him on this earth – which is the greatest testimony to His Glory which we can give…

As we are enabled by the Holy Spirit let’s glorify the Lord by trusting Him with every sadness and anger, every disappointment and betrayal, every heartbreak and unfulfilled longing, let’s trust Him with all our ‘unknowables’ and let’s let His truth set us free on the inside… 🙂

And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28 NASB)

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Standing Tall on God’s Word…

The Lord doesn’t make it easy for those who believe in Him…

Why is this?

He is bringing us closer to Himself…

He wants us to go through the disappointments of not getting what we thought He’d told us so that we can understand the lesson behind what He was using that conversation to teach us…

God is more interested in understanding than knowledge…

God can tell us facts but sometimes when God tells us facts it is actually only to challenge our mindset and help us to see something deeper about ourselves…

When God told Hezekiah that he should put his house in order for he would surely die Hezekiah could have taken this as a fact and said, “Amen!” and he would have missed the lesson which the Lord was trying to teach him to pour out his heart before the Lord…

Hezekiah learnt from that experience that deep down in his heart he wasn’t ready to go home yet, he had more to do on earth…

Sure, he made some mistakes with his extra 15 years but I believe he was still better for it – he had an encounter with God where God very personally ministered to him as an individual and I am sure that his life and experience with the Lord was all the richer for it…

Abraham heard facts from the Lord, that he was to go to a certain mountain and offer his only son up as a sacrifice to the Lord and did take this as fact and went about doing it but the Lord didn’t speak it as fact – although He did – but He actually spoke it to teach Abraham about what Jesus would do for us all those years later so that Abraham could see ahead the sacrifice of Jesus and believe…

So we see that not everything which the Lord tells us – as those who believe in Him – as facts actually are facts – they are actually the beginning of a conversation which helps us to deepen our understanding of who the Lord is…

The Lord wants to know us…

He isn’t interested in our performance…

He has already accepted us in Jesus…

The Lord wants us to know Him…

He wants a relationship with us…

He wants to walk through life together with us where we know Him intimately in every aspect of our lives…

Where we know Him so well that we surrender – outright – to whatever He says to do and trust Him implicitly even if in so doing we look stupid or He changes His Mind or what He said doesn’t happen because He was actually telling us that to start a conversation with us about what we – deep down – still believe, to endeavour to change what we believe – to deepen what we believe – so it is reflective of what He believes – so we can know what makes Him tick…

Nothing is a test to break us, everything is a test to strengthen us and draw us closer to Himself  – remember that for all of us who know Him, we are already His children, we are already His Bride, He already loves us and just wants to deepen that relationship with us by removing our preconceived ideas about who He is…

He will smash down our preconceived ideas so that all we have left is childlike faith…

Childlike trust…

Childlike dependence…

This is what He wants…

And He is unscrupulous to get it…

Why?

Because He loves us…

This is what discipline looks like…

It’s not, struggle and try harder…

It’s not, punish yourself when you fail or fall short…

It’s the discipline of having your security blankets ripped out from underneath you and being left very exposed and very aware that you are standing in a place where you have no physical or practical means of support – where all the natural props are removed and you realise that God is your only support and that there is no other way than the way He said, the way He promised, that the thing which He has been telling you can come to pass…

And in this place, which you have been prepared for by all these preceding experiences or journeys or relationships with the Lord, you are able to stand tall on His Word – His Word to you and His Word about His Purpose for His Earth…

His Purpose for all who live in His Universe…

Even for those who have traveled to space and are not presently living on planet earth – He has a purpose for all – for every single human being to whom He has given the breath of life…

So embrace your sorrowful circumstances, your continued unanswered questions, the things which bring you pain in your heart, your quandaries and uncertainties and things which just don’t make any sense to you – give them all to the Lord and watch Him give you in return a deeper knowledge of and surrender to Him as Your Sovereign Father…

For He is our Sovereign Father – He has a Sovereign will – He makes ultimate decisions for each of our lives – and these decisions – these ultimate decisions – which He makes, cannot be changed…

We can talk to Him about them over and over and over but if He has made one of these ultimate decisions then we can rest assured that He will accomplish it and that the accomplishing of it is for our good – in fact that there is nothing better than Him accomplishing this decision because He is our Sovereign Father and everything He does for us is calculated to bring us closer to Him and the closer to Him we are the happier and freer we are and the more liberated we are and the closer we are to His image and likeness, the more we experience His Eternal, stress free approach to life…

Basically, as David said, who knew this journey,

But as for me, the nearness of God is my good;
I have made the Lord God my refuge,
That I may tell of all Your works. (Psalm 73:28 NASB)

Love,

Andrew

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When I look into Your Holiness…

My new fav at the moment… 😊

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Draw Me Close to You – Michael W Smith…

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