For as truly as I live…

This song came into my head today while I was doing the dishes…

It’s based on a scripture,

But as truly as I live, all the earth shall be filled with the glory of theΒ Lord. (Numbers 14:21 KJV)

I was on my long hill run yesterday and the Lord said something to me,

“The Holy Spirit is My Glory, When you seek My Glory you seek My Holy Spirit to live through you so that the world can see My Glory, for He is My Glory”…

And just now as I read that scripture above, it clicked,

“It will come about after this That I will pour out My Spirit on all mankind; And your sons and daughters will prophesy, Your old men will dream dreams, Your young men will see visions. (Joel 2:28 NASB)

For the earth shall be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the LORD, as the waters cover the sea. (Habakkuk 2:14 KJV)

“… He will glorify Me…” (John 16:5-15 NASB)

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“Look after those who no one else will look after and I will be with you forever”…

I was just at the supermarket buying some groceries and as I got back into my car the Lord told me the above in the context of the new business which I’ve recently started…

I’ve never been into competition in the workplace, i.e. trying to outdo others and ‘shine’ because it goes against my ‘nice’ nature…

I’ve seen in the industry that I’m in that there’s a lot of striving and to strive means that you have to overexert yourself and keep up that image…

It’s a treadmill of epic proportions…

You naturally end up serving the rich, those with money and completing work which doesn’t really benefit the majority…

I told our team (at the previous company I was with) at a planning day we had late last year that I’d had enough of this and wanted to do something different…

A vision has been formulating as to what that might be…

This word from the Lord is the confirmation for that vision…

I am very excited…

It is the Lord who gives us our ‘place’ in any industry in which we are involved…

He will give the company I’ve started its place…

It’s a counter-intuitive place as we will be serving those who aren’t the rich but He will be with us…

πŸ™‚

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What we don’t know doesn’t matter…

I torment myself about what I don’t know…

I really do, there are some subjects which just go round and round in my mind and I find myself talking to the Lord about them over and over again…

Whenever I head out on my runs (which is six days per week) and I have that freedom to actually think without having anything else to do (starting your own business is really full on), I find my mind gravitating back to these topics, really just one topic with other options branching out from it and I just can’t seem to get it off my mind…

I ask the Lord about it and He answers me but then when I get back from my run what He says (or what I believe He has said) just doesn’t stick and I don’t know again what’s going on and then I seem to repeat this cycle over and over and over again every day…

It’s like Groundhog Day for me every day to the point where I actually dread going on my runs now because the same process will happen again and again and again…

When I talk to the Lord and ask Him to speak to me (which is all the time for me, I want Him to speak directly to me) I ask Him for three things, faith, absolute assurance, and peace…

I say to the Lord, “If You give me faith, absolute assurance and peace then I’ll believe anything You tell me”…

It seems during the runs that He gives me faith as I find myself believing and surrendering to what He is telling me (which is all according to His word, by the way, He never tells me anything contrary to His word) but then when I get home and by the time I’m hopping into the shower it’s gone and I’ve never had that assurance (that absolute knowing), the peace is gone too…

On the runs I feel good, I have no doubts, no nagging suspicions, I know what He has told me is true (or at least there is nothing saying it isn’t) but it just doesn’t stick…

While I was in Manila I had an experience where He told me something was going to happen and again I asked Him for those three things and He gave me that and even though there was doubt I had it and it was a miracle that He’d told me but it happened just like He’d said it would – He held me in that instance…

But in this present instance, it doesn’t seem like He’s holding me, it comes and then it goes…

And then we repeat the cycle over and over and over again (it’s actually getting boring now)..

Of late I’ve been telling the Lord, “Please don’t speak to me anymore unless You’re going to give me those three things”, cos it’s just torture for me to be given and then have it snatched away…

I’ll be heading off on my long hill run in less than an hour and I’m not sure where my mind is going to go or what He will tell me but the other night or morning as I was getting ready for bed (I’ve been working nights quite a bit and just sleep whenever I can) I felt He told me something, just whispered it to me, which really made sense out of what I’ve been going through…

If you don’t know something it doesn’t matter…

If He really wanted me to know what He was telling me then He’d give me that absolute assurance, faith, and peace that I’m pleading for Him to give me, He’d keep me even all through the day and night and I wouldn’t need to keep coming back begging for more information…

If He really wanted me to know and if I really needed to know then He’d tell me but if I’m just begging because there’s something in me that can’t handle the unknown of that issue ‘dangling’ and not being ‘concluded’ or ‘finalized’ or ‘closed out’ then that’s on me and maybe that’s why I can’t make what He tells me to stick…

I realise that I can’t make what He tells me to stick anyway, faith is a gift from God and so is the full assurance of faith and so is His peace – all these things are from God – perhaps He has let this happen to me to show me that there’s an anxiety or an untrust in me of Him looking after me and being enough, perhaps that’s what He’s trying to surface in me, perhaps…

I’ll head off on this run and see what happens… πŸ™‚

Love You, Lord…

“I love you Andrew and I will never leave you nor forsake you”…

“Everything which you go through is for My Glory”…

“I will glorify you in your time”…

“It is for My Glory that you are humble and contrite of heart – that you are open about your faults and shortcomings”…

“I receive glory in your admitting of your inabilities and ‘unableness’ to do what I put in front of you”…

“Never fear, all will become clear – whatever you have to go through in your journey – all your unknowns – all your lonely valleys – all these things are for your glory and Mine and they will all bring You closer to Me for I have walked through all those valleys alone before, My Son has been there – He has experienced everything which you are going through – nothing is new in this my son, nothing is new – you are following a path to Me – closer and closer and closer you are coming to Me – I am drawing you closer and closer and closer to My heart – and you will need none other, none other but Me – in this place which I create for you there will be fellowship with Me and none other – the secret place of My Presence is open to you and none other with you at this point in time – come, come close to Me – as close as you desire to come and I will meet you there”…

“Love you”…

Jesus…

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The will is sacred…

I’ve been thinking quite a bit about this lately…

The sacredness of the will…

Jesus wants everybody to come to Him and spend the rest of their lives with Him…

He really does…

He died to make that possible…

He rose again proving that He had the power to make that possible…

He now sits at the Right Hand of God the Father making that relationship possible…

But however, if you are not keen to spend the rest of your life with Jesus (including eternity), He will not force you to, He will honour your decision…

It will cause Him pain to honour your decision but He will honour your decision…

There are also consequences for your decision, eternal consequences but even so, He will honour your decision…

That is how sacred your will is to Him…

God will never force Himself on you against your will…

You have the choice…

Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. (James 4:8a NASB)

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There is no Goodbye in the Lord…

I’ve been thinking about this over the last few days…

I had a friend who said Goodbye to me…

It was a final Goodbye…

I understand why my friend did this…

It made me extremely sad…

There was nothing that I could do, nothing that I could say, I just had to let them go…

I had to be true to what I believed and they had to be true to what they believed…

It tore me up inside…

But that is what I had to do…

I had to respect their wishes and let them go…

And I did…

And yet, in the last few days, I now realize that in the Lord we never let each other go…

Our new selves are linked forever in the Lord, we will spend eternity together…

It is only our flesh (or what we used to be before we came to know the Lord) which says Goodbye and it does so to protect itself from more pain…

So yes, we have to respect it when our friend says Goodbye and doesn’t want to have anything to do with us anymore because we respect what they actually say to us and honour that but in the spirit their new heart is not saying Goodbye to our new self (they might be saying Goodbye to our flesh) and there will be a restoration of that relationship, either in the Lord’s presence when we go to be with the Lord or before in His timing…

There is no Goodbye in the Lord…

We are members of one another…

And that is a comforting thought…

Love,

Andrew

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Start Over…

I ran my third marathon in Rotorua in early May…

At about the 8km mark my left calf tore (pretty much exactly what happened in my first marathon in Christchurch last year) but I kept going (as you do)…

I did a personal best in Rotorua by a long way (He told me 3 hours 30 minutes before I ran my first marathon but this didn’t happen in the first two) in 3 hours, 29 minutes and 16 seconds (mat time)…

I was so grateful to the Lord but as soon as I finished I could hardly walk…

It’s been taking a long time to heal, I tried one short run but it wasn’t good…

So I’ve had to let my training go until it is completely healed…

I asked Him about it and He said He did it to me…

So I know there’s a point…

I’ve been asking Him, “What are You trying to show me through this?”…

He gave me the word, “Start Over”…

And today my left back tire of my car went flat and my oldest son and youngest daughter and I needed to stop by the side of the road and change the tire, it was completely like my left calf, completely flat, unusable…

Again, I asked Him, “What are You trying to show me?”…

Again, I got, “Start over” and had the sense to look up that phrase on the internet…

I just have and the first link I came to was the below…

I don’t know what that means for someone but I know for myself that my life is about to start over…

I’ve started my own company in the last few months and lost most of my team from my previous work and so I’ve already been walking through the “Start Over” message in this context although I do have some of the existing Clients from the previous company which is good (God is Good)…

I know there is more “Start Over” coming for me, the Lord gave me the “Storm Song” (Your Love for me) in November last year and I know in my personal life there are “Start Over” moments coming, I just don’t know exactly what or when but I am ready to trust Him, although I feel uncomfortable with the pending change…

But I know He is in it…

The next marathon I am to run is in Auckland in late October. Β He has told me that I will run it and told me the time I will do, He has also told me that He will heal my calf and I will run healthy in this next marathon…

Trusting God is hard, it doesn’t come naturally to me but He is helping me to look to Him and rest on His Strength in the uncertainty, it is the relationship which is important – not the facts…

For me running is my ‘escape time’ with God…

When I train I am completely alone, I am not interrupted…

I speak to the Lord and hear Him speaking to me…

I know His Voice and gain confidence…

This carries me…

Not to be able to run every weekday (as I have been before Rotorua) and do my long run on the weekend up the hills has been hard for me as I haven’t had this time with Him…

And yet He is in it, shaking it up, teaching me new things… πŸ™‚

Love,

Andrew

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The Name above all names…

This song is a continuation of my previous song, No Other Name, I think it’s complete now… πŸ™‚

New lyrics:

March out for Righteousness and Truth
Conquer Your enemies and soon (x2)
Jesus, the Name above all names (x2)

Every knee shall bow before You
Every tongue declare Your praise
You are Lord, You are Lord (x2)

Thank You Lord… πŸ™‚

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