a house of prayer for the nations

Why is this word in my head?

Lord, I don’t know…

A plantation conjures up very bad images for me of cotton fields and slavery…

Why have You given me this word Lord?

“The opposite of slavery is slavery to Me”…

“You are not oppressed by Me, you are set free by Me”, declares the Lord, “you are oppressed by your flesh and yet you think that it is freedom”…

“It is not freedom to indulge in your sin – it is not”…

“Freedom to Me is measured in how surrendered you are to be My slave in all things”, declares the Lord…

“This is freedom to Me – you know this – you are just opposing it as it comes practically to bear on your life – the dying is hard Andrew – the revelation is easy – you know what I mean”…

“I am carrying you – the plantation is you – you are the plantation – you are a plantation of My Spirit – you are to bear fruit for Me in all things – in all areas of your life – none will be missing – none of My fruit through you will be missing – you will bear fruit to Me in all things and you will love no one above Me – no one above Me and you will live to serve others – to serve others in all things looking for nothing in return for yourself – this is your lot – you chose this Andrew – do not complain to Me that I am giving you what you chose – you chose it and you are now living it – the death is painful but there is no turning back – there is nothing else for you – nothing else for you on this earth – you know this – surrender to it – it is already too late – you are too far through – it is nearly over – the death is painful but the life beyond it is to be enjoyed – when I naturally live through you for My Glory for the rest of your life – then there will be joy overflowing through you for the rest of My life in you – yes Andrew, My life in you – for I – Jesus – was anointed with the oil of joy above My fellows – and I will anoint you with this oil as I live through you until the end of time”…

Declares the Lord, declares the Lord who has mercy upon you…

I had a really interesting day yesterday…

Battling with self pity…

I went to bed at the end of it…

Trying to give it to the Lord…

Then during that time I had a vision…

This will be hard to explain but I’ll try…

I saw myself in a prison – it was a cage – it was square – a square box…

My cage was inter-related to other cages (but there was no one else in my cell – all the cells were singular in the vision last night).  All the bars were vertical like in prison cells on movies…

There were these forearm length metal boxes which were being transported between the cages – the prison cells (they definitely came from outside the prison cells and were from the Lord – independent they were) – and were somehow delivered through a chute or slot in the roof of the cell…

This is the weird part…

The cages were of the Lord…

Every one of us – who knew Him – were in one of these prisons and we couldn’t get out – it was our protection not to be able to get out – yes, weird, I know…

And these metal boxes which were delivered and we had no control over when they would be delivered or how often – these metal boxes which were about forearm long (slightly less) but quite narrow and skinny contained love – they contained love from the Lord but it was delivered through a human messenger…

Although in the vision no human entered the cell it was invisibly delivered like on a conveyor belt which you couldn’t see – there was no visible means that these metal boxes could be delivered but sure enough they were dropped into the cells randomly – like I said – when you didn’t know that they were coming…

I was in my cell – I knew exactly what He was telling me because of what I’d been going through…

I’ve chosen to be a slave of Christ but my flesh is still dying (practically)…

I’m readjusting to life His way…

He has complete control of my life…

I only get love from Him through other human beings when He choses to give it – not when I want it or when I need it – or think I need it – I am walking this now…

As I sat hopelessly in my cell – which He has ordained for my protection – I was completely alone…

This is the way it is meant to be in our walk with Him – completely alone with Him (on the inside)…

I wanted to have love given to me from others – but I had no control over when this would happen or even whether it would happen…

I saw that He – the Lord – had complete control of every life – of every experience which every life would ever experience – it was for our protection so our flesh could not get its way…

He controls us for His own Glory and for our good…

And what I learnt in my cage was that He was Sovereign – in complete control – and it enabled me – this morning – to submit…

There’s nothing I can do about it – any effort to solicit love for myself is control and He is resisting it – just as He resists pride…

He is resisting it…

He gives us our portions in the appointed or allotted time…

Only He does…

There were two significant people in my life…

In this vision…

I saw each of them as one of these metal boxes of love – I saw that they were each in their box and there was nothing they could each do to give love to me – nothing…

Only as enabled and empowered and liberated and freed and empowered (I’ve said that already) by the Lord could they minister love to me – only then – and only in His timing – anything else they would give me would not be from Him – it would be cajoled or forced and this would not benefit me or them – I saw that they both were released in their new selves only to the measure that He has released them – and that they were both pure in their new hearts and yet weren’t released to love me the way that I really wanted them to – in their time – they weren’t – and yet they were both pure – and I stood and watched this (or maybe I was sitting down in my cell – don’t know – I was actually lying in bed in reality) and saw that they were both pure and all my expectation towards them left…

I see now that in this place all is about the Lord – I saw this last night – no one can be a substitute for the Lord for me – yes, He will give me packets of joy – implosions of love – He will minister to me but it will always be Him – always be Him – I can love and appreciate others but it will always be Him – I saw that our new selves were useless – I don’t say that in a derogatory way – but they were useless in the fact that they could see things but couldn’t do things, “Apart from Me you can do nothing”, as Jesus said…

My new self could see all these things – as could these two other people (as the Lord released wisdom to them – they didn’t see some things which I could see – I saw that – and that was OK) but we couldn’t do them until He released it and that’s OK…

I feel released…

Self pity manifests where we feel hard done by, “woe is me” – I was feeling that last night…

I’m good again now…

Love You Lord…

Thank You…

Andrew

The Lord put it on my heart as I got to Auckland Airport this morning (early flight) to blog on this…

Since posting that post nearly four years ago I have seen how that light is shining forth…

I’ve reconnected with the Prophetic Intercessors group here in Christchurch and I can see clearly how through that group and an Indigenous Prayer Network over in Australia His light is shining forth – the unity between these two groups and other alliances which are occurring in prayer – is of the Lord…

The Lord is using this – and a light is shining forth to the ends of the earth from the ends of the earth…

I have been privileged to see this developing – I’ve also been privileged in these nearly four years to see an incredible deepening of His work in my heart – the picture He gave me last year at our Prayer Conference at Arthur’s Pass of the Lantern/Bier has been coming true in the nearly year since He gave it to me – without me doing anything to assist Him…

It has been messy at times but it is occurring…

And I’ve seen changes in my wife and in our children and their families…

We are blessed…

I also see a deepening in faith…

Those who come to Him have ceased from their work…

That scripture leapt out and hit me in the face the other night as I read a post which someone had stumbled across which I wrote quite some time back – it always blesses me to re-read a post that someone stumbles upon – when the Lord puts that on my heart…

My mind – my mind has been a battleground but I’m seeing that it is either Him or me…

Meaning either Him or me in my flesh…

My new self always supports, submits to and gives room and place to Him…

He is always offered the remaining seat by my new self…

He is the servant through me…

When I see that He – Eternal Life – wants to live through me – I am blessed…

Life becomes easy…

In the surrender to let Him – that is easy – once He’s got me to that place…

It’s messy before that – the flesh is fighting – the Holy Spirit fights back so that I can’t do what I want to in my flesh as His word says…

The light is shining forth – if God can bring order in my life He can bring order anywhere…

If He is beginning to bring order and submission in my family then He can bring order and submission anywhere – and I mean anywhere…

The light is shining forth in prayer and in the partnerships which God is creating here in Australasia – and wider afield…

The darkness seems dark but as His word says the light is shining – and the darkness cannot overpower the light…

The Lord shall arise – and already has – He has arisen and He will not sit down again – He will arise and He will complete the work which was on His Heart from the creation of the world – to have every tongue confessing and every knee bowing to Him – confessing Him as Lord and saying, “Only in the Lord are righteousness and strength” and “all my/our streams are in You”…

Praise Your Wonderful Name…

I woke up this morning with this phrase on my mind…

We are not limited by space and time…

The scripture which immediately came to mind was the following:

For even though I am absent in body, nevertheless I am with you in spirit, rejoicing to see your good discipline and the stability of your faith in Christ. (Colossians 2:5 NASB)

Paul was absent from the believers in body but present in spirit…

How was this possible?

Because he had them in his heart…

For it is only right for me to feel this way about you all, because I have you in my heart, since both in my imprisonment and in the defense and confirmation of the gospel, you all are partakers of grace with me. (Philippians 1:7 NASB)

And He carried the churches…

Apart from such external things, there is the daily pressure on me of concern for all the churches. (2 Corinthians 11:28 NASB)

So in that sense he was in their hearts and they were in his…

They were intertwined like we are one spirit with the Lord…

He couldn’t help but feel their pain and share their joy – he was bound up (in a good sense) with them and with their wellbeing – just as the Lord is bound up (in a good sense) with us…

Jacob’s life was bound up with the life of Benjamin his son (this wasn’t a good thing) but the bound up which I am talking about was a good thing…

I know it…

You can’t get rid of it…

It is with you continually…

Though you are separated by space and time you are not separated – you see what you need to see and know what you need to know…

As you let go – as you let go of wanting to know and wanting to fix the problems – He releases more insight into the problems…

You feel His feelings – you know His Heart…

Time…

The Lord speaks in the present things as having been completed when they haven’t even yet been created…

I have been ‘catching up’ (i.e. needing to ‘get with the programme’) with the Lord in my conversations with Him…

He will speak to me about things being completed and I get all excited but then see practically that they are not…

That is because the Lord speaks outside of time – He speaks in the present continuous across all of time…

He can stand with me in 2014 and say something for a hundred years from now as if it is happening right now and has already happened…

He has done this with me…

It marvels me…

It shocks me…

He is outside of time and not bound by time…

He is standing on the outside of time and speaking in to time whenever He wants to…

This is the prophetic…

The Prophets of old spoke of things which have yet to be accomplished…

So much of the word – the scripture – has yet to be accomplished…

Prophesy is written differently to written instruction…

Line upon line, precept upon precept for written instruction or teaching…

But prophecies in scripture are recorded as visions and the visions change and are not sequential – He has done this to stop man with his intellect trying to interpret prophecies…

But this has not helped…

Man in his wisdom has tried to interpret God’s prophecies even though some of them are sealed up until the time of the end – man has still tried…

Prophetic revelation is by the Spirit…

And it can come to the most unlearned…

By the Spirit…

We must hear the Voice of the Spirit – speaking outside of time – “Let there by Light” – and as we hear we will get revelation – trust the Voice of the Spirit – He is speaking to you – share what He tells you – it will be confirmed by others – this – prophesy – is a team sport – not an individual pursuit…

We know in part and we prophesy in part…

But God stands outside of space and time – He controls both – He orchestrates both…

You are not limited by your present location…

Right now – as led by the Spirit – you can change events all over the world right from your desk at work – or your sink bench in your kitchen…

You can…

And you do…

Every time you pray in tongues you change the course of history…

Any words in your native tongue which you receive as you pray in tongues – speak them out – they will surely come to pass – don’t strive – don’t try to speak in tongues – just let it happen as He does it inside you – and then trust the words He gives you – you are – right from where you are – changing the world…

You are not limited by space and time…

Love you,

Andrew

What an amazing revelation…

I sat working from home this morning completing our monthly invoicing and all of a sudden I knew – like an inner knowing – that there was no such thing as a bad experience…

All the days ordained for me…

For we know that God causes all things to work together for good, to those who are called by His Purpose…

Wow…

Every experience I have ever had or will ever have – even David’s sin with Bathsheba (it comes to mind) – everything God works together for good to those who love Him, i.e. those who are called according to His Purpose…

I have had some pretty tough experiences in my life to date but all of them vanish in this revelation…

God would not have let a single one of these things happen to me unless it had been necessary to develop His Character in me…

And it will always be the same…

Whether I behave poorly or badly or very well – every experience no matter how gruesome will be necessary…

Even my rebellion…

Like David in Psalm 139 – where can I go from Your Spirit? where can I flee from Your Presence?

No where…

Hallelujah!!!

No where…

He is all around me…

Underneath are the Everlasting Arms…

No matter how many times I resist Him…

He always keeps coming back…

He always keeps initiating…

But sometimes like the father with the prodigal son – He waits…

He has to wait – on the outside – but the Holy Spirit is still working on the inside – as He is one spirit with us – to move us back towards Jesus and the Father on the outside (so to speak – you get my drift)…

I have a friend – I feel that my friend is resisting me – deep within them they know what they should do but are just unable to do it – I see it…

I try to reach out but can’t reach in (so to speak) to their heart to show them what I mean…

Only the Lord can – we stand back and we wait…

But even this – all that the prodigal son went through – was not a bad experience…

There is no shame for a son or daughter of God…

Why?

Because scripture says, “those who put their trust in Him (Jesus) will never be put to shame”…

Hallelujah!!!

All shame goes…

All condemnation goes…

All striving goes…

All rejection goes…

All fear goes…

Perfect Love casts out fear…

Right now I speak to you – you mountains in the lives of God’s People – and I command you – in Jesus Name – to leave – let them go…

Open their eyes Lord to see Your Truth…

Your Truth will (and is right now) set (setting) them free…

Hallelujah!!!

All the prisons which the devil has created are opened – they are – in Christ…

Now…

They are opened…

The prisoners are now – right now – set free…

They are free…

Nothing can hold them…

There is no condemnation left…

Nothing left to make them cower…

Nothing…

Hallelujah!!!

Jezebel is defeated…

Lucifer is defeated…

Why?

Because Jesus dis-keyed him on the cross – He dis-armed him – He took away his weapon of condemnation – commandments which were contrary to us – on the cross – and we are free…

Satan has no legal rights to our lives…

Whether flesh remains in us or not – he has no legal rights to us – our grace is the covering which we are under…

Our grace – the grace we have been shown by Jesus – and the forgiveness we have in Him…

His Blood is forever all over us…

And has cleansed and released us…

His Blood is continually washing us…

Hallelujah!!!

There is nothing to fear…

There is no striving…

All is perfect peace – as He said…

Hallelujah!!!

Come Lord Jesus and rule in the hearts of Your children on earth – come and rule and dispel the darkness – let him leave – he must leave – he will leave – he is leaving – the Blood is taking its place – it is washing away the sin of God’s people – it is gone – it is practically gone from our memories, from our consciousness – it is gone…

We are not bound but free…

Praise His Name…

Hallelujah!!!

I feel to post on this today…

I have been walking through it…

It appears never ending…

The fall was a terrible thing…

We just don’t realise how terrible it was until the Lord starts undoing it in us…

We are all control freaks…

I used to think that it was just certain individuals who were control freaks – the ones who you feel so strongly when they come into contact with you – you feel their vibe…

But it’s not just them – it’s me too…

It’s everyone…

Everyone who hasn’t been completely crucified and doesn’t have Christ living through them 100% of the time…

Think about that…

That’s everyone in the world today…

So the world is filled – to varying degrees – with control…

The opposite of being filled with the Spirit…

Freedom and letting go in the Spirit…

Taking control, worry, fear, anxiety, depression, despondency in the flesh…

Depressing – even mentioning those words is depressing – it makes me feel heavy in my spirit…

I feel the joy returning…

Submission to Christ – submission to Christ brings freedom from control…

Yes it does…

I’m starting to smile…

As we submit He floods in His joy…

As we let go of trying to make happen the things He tells us – yes, the things He tells us – we start to experience Him living through us – and we see that everything happens in His time…

He waits for us to be ready – He told me this in Fiji last year and again earlier this year when I was up North in Palmerston North…

And because He is patiently waiting for me I can patiently wait for others…

I’m thinking of someone in particular as I type – it is only loving that I wait for this person to be ready – Christ is waiting for me…

And so we see that all control must die…

Any effort which we are making to make happen what the Lord has told us He will do must die…

Why?

Because the arm of flesh will always fail…

Yes, but there’s more…

Because only His way is Eternal Life…

There is no Eternal Life in trying to figure it out and make it happen…

Nothing but stress and unrest and striving and – it is tormenting…

I’ve just started to see that…

We weren’t made to live under that continual pressure…

We just weren’t…

We were made to be free…

To trust…

To just accept God’s word for it…

Not to check up on Him and make sure He’s on track…

Just to accept God’s word for it and get on…

Not to second guess…

Not to have a plan B…

Nothing…

Just accept and live…

Even if that living is completely blind…

Even if it feels that you’ve locked yourself away in a world where there is no return…

Just to believe Him and trust Him and let Him bring to you the answer which He has promised you…

He will – and you will rejoice and you will know that it is supernatural and you will see His Hand and you will marvel and this will fulfil you like nothing else can…

Nothing – there is no joy when you cajole and then get what you want…

None – I’ve experienced it over and over – there is no joy in manipulation – even in seduction there is no joy – in manipulation or flattery – nothing like this works…

It really doesn’t…

It is empty…

None of us can wait in our flesh…

We are incapable…

We sacrificed this joy when we rebelled at the fall…

We can only get it back when we give up our stolen lives…

Yes, stolen…

None of us has a right to live on this earth…

Did you know that?

Because of our sin we are all born objects of wrath…

Deserving hell…

But He saved us – those of us who know Him – but this means that we are no longer our own…

Practically this means that we have no say in what happens to us – we are His – we are not to defend ourselves – we are not to protect ourselves – we are to let it all go and trust Him…

This is the loss of control – He honours this…

I am doing this – I am going to the end of it in my life – for I have seen that at the end of it is freedom – freedom for the rest of my life and on into eternity…

Join me in this journey – to the end of control and on into freedom…

Love you,

Andrew

I have watched this video a number of times…

This encapsulates my heart…

This is what I’m living for…

Whether I’m alone or whether I’m in a group – whatever my personal situation is – this is where my focus is – whoever will go with me is up to the Lord – I am going – alone if necessary…

I am going…

Love You Lord…

Andrew

Here’s the thing…

We all want to get our own way…

That was a result of the fall…

Here’s the thing…

Self pity hides in all of us…

All fallen human beings…

Not Jesus – but the rest of us – yes…

So here’s the thing…

For God to be Lord of our hearts and to cause His Kingdom to come and His will to be done in our hearts – guess what? – He needs to remove self pity…

Self pity?

Is this really such a big deal?

Yes it is…

It is a deal breaker – a game breaker…

God can tell us all sorts of amazing things which He’s going to do through us but if we have self pity ruling in our hearts – this is the cause of the blockage between us being able to believe the word of the Lord and not…

Why?

Because self pity tells us that we never get what we deserve…

Don’t trust God, He’ll let you down…

Better just to remain with me – in self pity…

It will hurt less in the long run – don’t get your hopes up – it would crush you if it didn’t happen…

Self pity speaks to us in our hearts thus…

How do I know?

It has spoken to me…

Deep unbelief – deep reticence to believe the word of God through unbelief – but behind unbelief is self pity…

This has been the hidden one – the one which I haven’t seen – but when the Lord has tested me severely – then I’ve seen it – I’ve seen it’s ugly face so to speak…

Full of victim mentality…

I’ve seen it in others also – two in particular – three in fact – who I am thinking about at present…

Oh, woe is me – things are so hard for me – I couldn’t dare to believe that things will improve – I’d be crushed if they didn’t…

I’m going to sound quite harsh in this post tonight but it is only because I am going to unmask this spirit so we don’t feel sorry for it anymore but instead see that it is robbing us of our joy in the Lord – we can’t be nice to it – or feel sorry for it – we must confront it – and with vigour – or it will sap all our spiritual energy – in a never ending chase of human compassion – which gets no where…

Self pity…

We all have things which we want…

These things are things which our flesh wants – we believe though that we are justified to expect these things from God – even if these are things God has promised us – the problem is here that our flesh wants them – sometimes our flesh can want the things God tells our new self which He is going to give us – but the flesh wants these things from a very different aspect or reason than our new self…

This is the problem…

It doesn’t please God…

Because those in the flesh cannot please God – only faith pleases God…

Sometimes we need to take a firm hand to ourselves and others whom the Lord has placed under our care – if led by the Lord – and address these issues…

We can’t beat about the bush…

This can be scary – upsetting this apple cart can be scary – very scary – I am feeling it as I type – it’s so easy to believe woe is me and expunge ourselves of responsibility and protect ourselves in a blanket of self pity…

But the Lord doesn’t allow us to do that…

He comes along and rips the blanket off us…

Really?

Yes really…

He doesn’t want us wearing that covering – that blanket – as it only leads to sickness and death – the flesh profits nothing and the wages of sin is death – everything which is not done in faith is sin…

Self pity will not believe the promises of God because it lies and believes that God will let us down – He won’t keep His promises – and we’ll be so devastated when He does (break His promises) that we’re better off not believing them in the first place…

Even though there is a place in our heart which knows they – His promises which we’ve heard Him utter to us – are true…

We know this but the self pity is powerful because we have given it – the demon of self pity – power in our lives…

We need deliverance…

We need to repent from self pity…

Lord I’m sorry that I don’t trust You…

I’m sorry that I’m scared of You…

I’m sorry that I don’t want to surrender to You…

I’m sorry that I can’t let this go because of what You might do with it, i.e. take it away from me…

I’m sorry…

The flesh can never believe – it will make excuses that it can’t believe – but in reality that is true – but it is a façade – a ruse – an excuse to hide the blame – the reality is that it’s not poor flesh but that it’s rebellious flesh…

The new self on the other hand is free…

It is full of faith…

The Holy Spirit inhabits it…

The repentance is from our desire to be in control of our own lives and use the Lord to get what we – our flesh – wants…

This doesn’t work…

We end up getting very angry with the Lord…

Because we can’t get what we want – and we swear and curse at Him – in our flesh – and then He brings us to that ah ha moment…

That ah ha moment  where we see this whole thing has been about us and not Him…

Even things which He has told us – which aren’t actually wrong and we have actually believed in our new selves – the flesh will get in and have a pity party about why it hasn’t been released to us yet and how much that is hurting us and the pain which that is causing us – it will – I’ve seen it – and I’ve been released – just recently to understand it…

It is all a ruse to get it’s own way…

We’re not even aware that this is going on…

It’s going on underneath the radar – this spirit is so hidden you just don’t see it immediately – although on reflection you see it…

You see it clearly and it becomes more and more and more clear…

We’re all guilty here – except Jesus – only He is not…

I’m owning it…

I’m taking responsibility for it…

I’m owning self pity…

I’ve been full of this Lord – it has been the cause of all my pain – misunderstandings about Your will because of the remains of my flesh…

Pain in not getting what You have promised – mistrust of You due to these broken promises – these assumed broken promises – always being let down – no one being trustworthy – always being betrayed – never being understood – I have lived this and I have kept myself from getting close to people because of this fear – the fear fed by my self pity…

God says to trust others…

If we are hurt He tells us to forgive…

Who does this?

He does…

He forgives…

Through us…

Self pity can’t forgive – so it has to isolate itself from conflict and from potential pain…

Only the rebellious live in a parched desert…

This is the way I’ve been in my heart…

Living in a parched desert – because of my self pity…

Building my walls – protecting myself…

Not willing to step out and trust – to be real – too scared of the response – the response of others…

Better to share and be misunderstood than not to share at all – I have been willing to share but I have still been afraid – afraid of the response – self pity has been binding me…

There should be nothing in us to stop the flow of His Spirit through us – nothing…

Against myself I speak – against my closest friends I speak – it shouldn’t matter who I speak to I should be willing to speak His word and never be ashamed of Him or what He makes me look like – even when I’m walking through my flesh, i.e. walking it out, i.e. letting it be exposed and removed from me, I shouldn’t be afraid – I shouldn’t think, what does such and such think of me…

Every longing must be surrendered…

Over and over and over I have found…

Even the ones He tells you are from Him – even these need to be surrendered over and over and over…

Nothing can remain un-surrendered…

Even things which seem small and unimportant which you’ve always longed would happen – even these need to be surrendered…

Nothing is left out – cos even the good stuff – the God stuff – the flesh latches on from it’s own perspective and fools us into thinking it’s being hard done by when it doesn’t get what it wants – it twists God’s word and then makes Him out to be a liar and untrustworthy…

It does…

I’ve seen it – and I know it…

Expose me Lord…

Expose all self pity in me…

All of it…

And let Your Fire burn it all away – and in everyone who is close to me – everyone…

Let us all reflect you – with no distractions from our flesh – remove self pity from us all Lord so that it can’t hurt us – any of us who know You – any more…

Set us free to love You and to see Your Love extended to us…

Love You Lord,

Andrew

The Lord’s been speaking to me about this verse – or part verse…

It is so powerful…

I don’t know if I can do it justice…

He will help me…

When we believe we are something or that something is really important to us then it is…

Even if it’s not…

If that makes sense…

If I believe that I must have a best friend or experience being ‘in love’ – then I must – I will be crushed if I don’t…

But if I don’t believe this – say the Lord tells me that He alone is my best friend and that I’ll never be ‘in love’ (like I’ve wanted to be and thought was absolutely critical to make my life ‘work’) again but that I will love my wife and only my wife, in that way – then I am free – in my heart I don’t need this and so I don’t – practically I don’t…

It’s all about what we think in our heart – not in our head – not what we know to be true in our head but what we think – deep down – really deep down – as far deep down as it can get – in our hearts – this is the tipping point – what do we truly believe in our hearts?

This is the question – what do we truly believe in our hearts? what do we truly want – deep down – in our hearts? – what are the gnawing pains in our heart – of the things we so deeply desire…

When I started to see that Jesus could – and wanted to – literally live through me then everything became so easy – I’ve known this in my mind – but it sunk to my heart – only a day or so ago – it really sunk – I guess it will sink again – we are always going deeper…

So what do I think about myself in my heart?

All fear is of the flesh…

When I am afraid I will put my trust in Him – this is what David said – I’ve been admitting to the Lord that I’m afraid when I feel afraid, “I’m afraid Lord”…

And as I’ve been doing this He’s been making me aware that it is my flesh – the remnants of my flesh – which are afraid not me – “God has not given us a spirit of fear but of power, of love and of a sound mind”…

So, I begin to be aware that I’m not afraid…

It is my flesh which is afraid…

So there’s no problem with me – I’m OK…

And as I see that I’m OK in my heart then I begin to act OK – to actually be OK – not deficient – not always ‘without’ – but with – because Jesus is living through me…

Praise You Jesus…

You are Awesome…

Open our eyes that we may see the truth about ourselves – our new selves in You – and be freed from all deception and lies about our adequacy and worth and potential in You…

Love you Lord,

Andrew

The Fire tests the quality of each man’s work…

I am experiencing the Fire…

It is raining down on me…

Not heavy, hurting rain…

It is gentle but it is burning me up…

It is protecting me…

It is forming a barrier around me from everything else…

There is the Blood and there is the Fire…

Like the sacrifices – a pleasing aroma unto the Lord…

The Blood and the Fire…

It all started when I let go of having a best friend…

And then let go of the ‘in love’ lie…

I then found that I was able to surrender to be a eunuch for the sake of the Kingdom…

And then I saw what it meant to have Christ living in me…

And that I live by the faith of the Son of God…

This is awesome for me…

But it is for a reason…

His Mind in mine – so peaceful…

It had something to do with the decision I made to let Him make every decision in my life from here on out…

That all I wanted was to see Him living through me from here on out…

That seeing Him living through me is my life…

Thus all of a sudden I didn’t care what happened anymore – none of the specifics mattered – amazing…

Nothing is binding me or causing me to worry…

You see how powerful this is?

None of the specifics matter so you are just led…

This is what I have been experiencing…

Literally led by the Holy Spirit…

You’re not thinking…

You’re just following the peace and following the flow of His Spirit and because there aren’t any blockages it is a constant or continuous flow…

I never knew life could be so easy…

Nothing effects you…

Nothing seems to phase you…

I forgave someone – a difficult Client this morning – I’ve forgiven him before – but it comes back – I forgave him again this morning and watched the tone of his next email change…

Amazing…

The Gentle Rain of His Fire…

Awesome…

And Peaceful…

He really is all He says He is…

He really is Awesome…

I love You Lord…

You are my meditation all the day because You are the object of my focus – seeing You living through me – not striving – not trying – just watching – and learning…

So free – Praise You – what You showed me a while back about “hanging limp” and “relaxing” is so true…

You are Awesome…

Thank You Lord…

And You will take more and more and more people and do to them what You have been doing to me…

Thank You Jesus…

Love You Lord…

🙂

Taking the form of a slave…

This is what Jesus did scripture tells us…

The Lord has been showing me that there is great freedom in this position of slavery…

Jesus tells us so Himself – He says, “Take My yoke upon you and learn of Me… and you shall find rest for your souls”…

Imagine never again making a single decision for your life – imagine allowing Jesus to make them all for you…

Imagine that…

What does it feel like?

Do you feel peace?

Do you feel disappointed?

Do you feel sad?

Do you feel affronted?

Do you feel ripped off?

What does it do to you?

I’ve felt all of the above – with the various surrenders which I’ve made to the Lord – and I believe it is a natural part of the process of taking on His yoke – the yoke is not immediately fitting or agreeable – and you are literally yoked to Christ so when He moves whether you move or not you are literally dragged along with Him – after you’ve first made that free will decision to take His yoke upon you – once you take it you don’t take it off…

It’s made forever – “I love My Master – I will not go free”…

It’s that sort of decision…

It’s the difference between salvation and discipleship…

At every turn we have decisions…

The only right decision is to surrender completely to Christ…

Why?

I bet you’re thinking I’m going to give some trite answer which you’ll all nod your heads to and say, “Amen”, well you’re wrong…

The reason which we should surrender to Christ is that only in surrender to Christ do we know Him more…

We can never be satisfied – our new self can never be satisfied – with the level it has attained to in the knowledge of God and the only way to go deeper is to surrender deeper – which means slavery…

Every decision is made by Christ – you are not in control of any decision which you make – and the peace which comes with this is that you know that you’re doing what He wants you to do and because you trust Him you trust that what He is leading you into is causing you to know Him more…

I’m not going to go into the other reason – the Glory of God – this just randomly comes out of us – but it brings Glory to the Lord to take the form of a slave like Jesus did – us doing this displays Jesus’ Glory to the world – they get to see Him through us over and over again…

Like He’d never left…

And that glorifies God – but God tells us to come and take His yoke not so that He’ll get glory but because He can see that we are weary and heavy laden and He wants to give us rest to our souls…

That’s a very nice God… 🙂

Slavery to God brings rest to our souls…

Why is that?

Because God is the only Master who is more interested in our wellbeing than we are in our own…

We don’t even know what is good for us or necessary – but He does – thus He is the only one who can be trusted with our lives – thus every submission is actually a calculated gamble – you could say (if you were a cynic) – at getting more peace into your life – a scary but rewarding, risky but such a sense of release, type decision…

God knows us – He doesn’t ask for the impossible – He didn’t create us to make life a huge struggle – He didn’t – He wanted us to enjoy Him and the only way was to be slaves to Him…

Sounds strange – but makes a whole lot of sense – once you have been won by His love – you see that His slavery is freedom…

Even Paul – on behalf of Jesus – says this, “It is for freedom that Christ set you free – stand firm therefore and do not let yourselves be entangled again with a yoke of bondage (the word in the Greek is slavery)”…

A yoke of bondage was the try hard approach…

A yoke a freedom is Christ’s…

Choose this day whom you will serve…

🙂

Love,

Andrew

(Ps. The Holy Spirit inside you does all the work – you just have to surrender to Him and even in this He does the surrendering through you – He does – I have experienced this – so everything truly is done in rest – it really is – it just keeps getting better and better… 🙂 Love you, Andrew)

The Lord has placed it on my heart to make this post tonight…

This has been a long time coming for me…

That verse, that eunuch verse used to haunt me when I was younger – I knew it applied to me but I just couldn’t receive it – and yet it haunted me – I knew somehow I should be receiving it but just couldn’t – had too many demons in me as I look back I can now see that – the Baptism of the Holy Spirit really stirred up that hornet’s nest…

Anyway, as I look back I see the Anointing extended to me to accept this way of life…

A eunuch for the sake of the Kingdom…

What does this mean?

Does it mean that you have to be single for life?

No…

What it means is that you’ve yielded your sexuality – and any expression of it – to the Lord…

It is His – not yours…

Your focus is on the extension of His Kingdom – alone…

The salvation of souls and His Glory…

It means that there is no desire in you for sexual pleasure – no uneven desire, no have to have, no effort in you to have…

You are happy without it, you can live without it for the rest of your life – you don’t have to have it…

Jesus had this – He was a eunuch for the sake of the Kingdom – I know this…

If you are married that means that when He chooses to serve your wife sexually through you – that you are at His disposal – you enjoy serving and giving sexual pleasure to your wife – but you do not demand or need or prod for any for yourself…

If she doesn’t want to receive your offer you stand down – and this isn’t difficult because your offer was genuine and prompted by the Lord…

You are not in control…

If you are single then yes, to be a eunuch for the sake of the Kingdom means that you are not looking for any sexual pleasure from anywhere…

If the Lord ever does give you any then you are grateful – by way of giving you a wife or a husband – depending on your gender…

It is an evenness and a yieldedness…

You are a slave of Christ – and He is enough for you…

Enough…

Only He can do this…

I never could…

But He has done it in me – in the removal of the ‘best friend’ and ‘in love’ lies in the last week or so (or whatever it is now) He has done this for me…

He told me that when He gives me sexual pleasure in marriage it will be for my pleasure not a need – I am not unfulfilled – or empty – or needy – I am not waiting and longing – I am free…

Thank You Jesus…

Set us free to be empty for You – to love, yes, to deeply love – but to love with Your Love – only You can do this – do this through more and more and more of us…

Worship You Lord…

Soul ties are broken in the presence of the Lord – broken – no more need – He is enough…

He is standing and He is beckoning us to Him – He is Enough – He is Enough…

Love You Lord…

Hosanna, Hosanna, Hosanna in the Highest…

Blessed is He who comes in the Name of the Lord…

Let us come in the Name of the Lord – let us – Your Church – come in Your Name – raise up a generation of eunuchs for the sake of the Kingdom and let us take this world by force for the Glory of Your Name – in power and in purity – in the purity of Christ Jesus – nothing else – let the fire burn – let the fire burn – let the fire burn – and let it consume everything in it’s wake…

Praise You Jesus – consume with Your Zeal – let the world know that there is a God in His Church – Jesus – Jesus Christ – Jesus Christ the Righteous – and let His Church – us – be Righteous in this chosen generation – this chosen generation – which will go the roots of all that has plagued His Church from it’s inception (I’ve said that before – He is reminding me) – and be free (He has given me a similar word before)…

Let it be so and let all the Glory go to Him…

Hold us Lord – and display Your Purity through us…

Love You Lord…

Andrew

And He answered them and said, “O unbelieving generation, how long shall I be with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring him to Me!” (Mark 9:19 NASB)

The Lord is impatient with our unbelief…

This is – I believe – the only time in scripture where Jesus truly shows His feelings about being on earth surrounded by us – fallen human beings (even in this case redeemed human beings who still have a lot of unbelief)…

This is a sad scripture – but a necessary one…

Where would Jesus have rather been?

In heaven with His Father and the Holy Spirit in the presence of faith – because the angels – the elect angels – believe Him – they always do what He says…

Jesus always does what the Father says and the Holy Spirit always does what Jesus and the Father say…

They – amongst Them – have perfect faith – because They (the Godhead) do what the Other says…

But us – not so much…

And Jesus hated being here – for that reason – He was vexed to be here – let’s be real – He was – and it was because of our unbelief…

This is a very challenging word…

How many of us have had God tell us something over and over and over and then we complain because it isn’t happening and yet when we look closely at it we say, “I’m actually not believing what God said”…

“I’m actually making excuses why this hasn’t happened”…

“But actually I’m not believing what God said”…

If only we would believe what God said…

When God finally “lost it” with the children of Israel in the wilderness – He told them that they had opposed Him these ten times – or words to that effect – and then the writer of Hebrews tells us that they failed to enter in because of unbelief…

They were in the presence of Joshua and Caleb who brought back a good report but they chose to believe the other ten who – spuriously – brought back a bad report about the good land which the Lord was wanting to give them…

The Promised Land for us today is life in the Holy Spirit…

Inheriting the Promises of God…

Full, abundant and free…

And yet we make excuses…

The giants are too big…

The risks are too great…

God is looking for Joshua’s and Caleb’s who will take the land…

Take what has been given to us in Christ through the power of the Holy Spirit and live pure in our hearts – effortlessly live pure in our hearts…

Enjoy the land flowing with milk and honey in our hearts…

As more and more enter into the Righteousness, Peace and Joy in the Holy Spirit – the Kingdom of God – in their hearts – more and more and more are going to see the difference – the different species which we, the sons and daughters of God, are – and the greater things will be achieved in our generation…

We have no excuse – we have the prophetic word made more sure – we are the end of the ages – we have had a lot of witnesses before us paving the way – and we are the end of days – we are the end of days Church – the promises are to be fulfilled by us – not by someone else – there is no next generation to default to and to pass the buck to – it is us…

We are it…

Who will rise up and take the land?

Who will go with me?

I will – but who will go with me?

Who will go all the way with God?

To the very depths of their soul…

“The Kingdom of God is within you Andrew – you – once you are fully yielded to Me – are My Kingdom”…

“Your heart is My Kingdom – this is My focus – My focus is not an outward focus – helping everyone else through you – but an inward focus – setting you free so that you can set others free”…

“My Kingdom is within you – remember when you were in Manila and I told you that you were the House of Prayer for all nations? remember this? – I told you this because it is you – it is every one of My Saints individually who from their hearts – their new and redeemed hearts – make up My Kingdom on this earth – for Me to be King on this earth – I need your hearts to be Mine”…

“That is My focus – My Kingdom in your hearts”…

“How can My Kingdom be expressed when there remains sin in your hearts?”…

“Does ignoring this sin help Andrew? Does it? No, it does not – it must be expressed, it must be confessed and then it can be forgiven – practically forgiven by the removal of it and the expression of My Love in its place – I am removing – practically removing – sin from you Andrew – and I am doing this in My Church – through your submission and through others in My Church’s submission I am building My Kingdom in you and as you live it others will see it and believe it and live it – do not concern yourself with who believes it or sees it – I will see to this – accept all who believe it and see it – don’t care about what is in it for you – accept them and run – run with them – they will see it – they will be set free and they will run”…

“Practical holiness Andrew is to be ‘in love’ – in a pure spiritual sense – with Me – when you are in that place – realising that I will never let you down – yes, I will offend your pride – your desires – your ambitions, yes, I will offend your flesh – you will not be ‘in love’ with Me in your flesh – but from a true spiritual perspective when you are won by My love – when My Love has won you and overwhelmed you – you will perfect holiness in the fear of God – you will respect Me so strongly that you will not want to do anything which would bring dishonour to My Name – you will not – you will not be ‘holding yourself back’ – you will not – you will be naturally fulfilling My will on earth – no second thoughts – no second guessing – when you are doing this My Kingdom is being expressed through you – and you will do this – you and all like you who have died to their own ambitions and plans and realised that only I can do this – along for the ride – only I can do this – and I will do this – and you will see the exponential expansion of My Kingdom in more and more and more hearts all throughout this world until this entire world is saved – in My time”, declares the Lord..

“I have more to say but you are not ready to hear it – digest it Andrew – what I have said – digest it – and I will speak to you further”…

“I have more to say, lead Andrew – lead in your confession and lead in the unity which I create in My Church”…

“There is no unity in the flesh – there is only opposition – there is resentment and retaliation in the flesh – there is no unity – except in evil – I have not called you to be one with anyone’s flesh – only their born again spirit – only their righteous soul – nothing else – where you are opposed Andrew – know that it is their flesh and the demonic presences in their flesh – that is opposing you – let it go”…

“Let them oppose you – don’t take it personally – they love you in their new creation – just not in their flesh – and they never will – love you in their flesh – keep appealing to their new creation – keep appealing to what I possess – their new creation – in them – I possess their new creation – keep appealing to this – keep appealing to this – keep appealing to this – their new creation knows the truth – it just doesn’t realise it yet – when it – their new creation – hears the truth it will believe it – keep sharing it – the truth – with their new creation and know that any opposition you receive – any resistance – any rebellion – is their flesh and the demonic expressing itself through their flesh – and not Me – and it is not focused at you but at Me – it is focused at you because you are My Representative – but it is not personal in that it is not them – the real them – focusing that at you but it is their flesh – which is no longer them – as they are My Children”…

“When I call you to speak to those who do not yet know Me – they have no new creation – they are completely dead – they cannot understand you unless I enliven them by My Spirit – only by this will they hear – don’t expect them to hear – tell them but know that only by the miracle of the new birth will they be able to hear – don’t expect them to believe but tell them like you really want them to know – but know that only I save – I alone am a Saviour – you are not a Saviour – you cannot make them believe – they will believe as I release faith to them – they will believe as your word will speak life and I will open their eyes – spiritually – to see – when this happens rejoice – but do not be disheartened – for all who do not believe there are other opportunities for them to hear – other opportunities for them to believe – leave them and continue on with those who do”…

“I am taking you to the nations – I will be with you there – you will see remarkable things – be there Andrew – be there – all there – in every experience – be there – completely there – and experience what I want to show you – remember that it is I through you – it is not you, you are not responsible for doing anything – you are just responsible for letting Me live through you and observing what I do through you – an open channel – that is all – an open channel – nothing more – an open channel – you are watching and you are observing and I am leading – you are not leading – you don’t even need to know where you are going – I am leading and I am completing all through you for the Glory of My Kingdom – write this Andrew – write it all – remember it – it will be your life – emptiness – emptiness is what I am calling you to – emptiness of yourself – and an open heart for Me to fill you – as I fill you My Kingdom comes in you – as My Kingdom comes in you it comes in this earth – this is what I have been looking for – a dead human being who will let Me live through them – this is where My power falls – Jesus lived this when He was on earth – not in pride but in humility – this is what you will live – this is what you will experience – I am taking you to the nations – and you will see marvellous things there – marvellous things will be experienced by you there as you have chosen to know Me – to know Me in your heart – to know Me living through you – to experience Me and My actions through you – this is your life – nothing more , nothing less, nothing else – this is My Kingdom within you – this is what will redeem this world and save it from its woes – the Saints living dead in My Presence – expressing My reality to the world – and doing it in rest – not in striving – finding their life in My expression of My Own through them – yes, Andrew you are a slave but do you see now how beautiful this slavery is? do you? I believe you do”…

“Love you”…

Jesus…

Yes Lord, I see it and I believe, Thank You…

Love You…

Andrew

Thank You Lord that I am forgiven by You…

Thank You Lord that Your Blood has covered all my sin…

Thank You that my sin has been removed from me as far as the East is removed from the West – Thank You Lord…

Thank You Lord that I will never have to give an account of my life to you with respect to my sin – as You have already carried it away from me for me…

Thank You that I am accepted in the Beloved…

Thank You that I am pure and irreproachable in Your Sight…

Thank You that You have accepted me – and all my brothers and sisters in You…

Thank You that the acceptance of Jesus is also the acceptance of each one of us…

Thank You that You are a Friend who sticketh closer than a brother and that You – as  a Friend – love at all times and Thank You that as a brother you were also born for adversity as Your word says – and that You support us in adversity…

I worship You that You are my Lord and my God…

I worship You that You have a bright future for me and my brothers and sisters in You in this world – I worship You that Your Kingdom is like a mustard seed which grew into an entire bush which the birds of the air and creatures of the land came to find shelter under and in – I worship You for the unhindered growth and increase of Your Kingdom on earth until the time – the permitted time – of the end where the enemy is given another “hour” and “power of darkness” to do his darnedest to “wreck” things before You come again to reign…

I worship You that You are about to pour out on the house of Judah – specifically on the inhabitants of Jerusalem – the spirit of Grace and supplication so that they will look upon You whom they have pierced and mourn for You as for an only child – as Your word has said – Thank You that You are looking out for them – and that they – soon – will be saved – we worship You Lord – we worship You – that Your forgiveness – Your Intercession – will break through – You will have the forgiveness which You prayed for on the cross – You will have the forgiveness of an entire nations sin – You will – on that day – when the fountain is opened for the forgiveness of sins – then – on that day – there will be life from the dead – and life forevermore – the whole world will be saved – because You prayed, “Father forgive them” – and on that day – practically – Your word will be fulfilled in the salvation of the world – in our lifetime – the salvation of the world – You are the Saviour of the World – and will become this practically in this chosen generation – You are Worthy – and we give You Glory – the whole world will worship – every family from their place – as Your word has said – and no one will doubt Your reality – the Power of the Saints will be strong – throughout the earth – before the time of the end – when it is broken…