The Lord’s been speaking to me about this verse – or part verse…

It is so powerful…

I don’t know if I can do it justice…

He will help me…

When we believe we are something or that something is really important to us then it is…

Even if it’s not…

If that makes sense…

If I believe that I must have a best friend or experience being ‘in love’ – then I must – I will be crushed if I don’t…

But if I don’t believe this – say the Lord tells me that He alone is my best friend and that I’ll never be ‘in love’ (like I’ve wanted to be and thought was absolutely critical to make my life ‘work’) again but that I will love my wife and only my wife, in that way – then I am free – in my heart I don’t need this and so I don’t – practically I don’t…

It’s all about what we think in our heart – not in our head – not what we know to be true in our head but what we think – deep down – really deep down – as far deep down as it can get – in our hearts – this is the tipping point – what do we truly believe in our hearts?

This is the question – what do we truly believe in our hearts? what do we truly want – deep down – in our hearts? – what are the gnawing pains in our heart – of the things we so deeply desire…

When I started to see that Jesus could – and wanted to – literally live through me then everything became so easy – I’ve known this in my mind – but it sunk to my heart – only a day or so ago – it really sunk – I guess it will sink again – we are always going deeper…

So what do I think about myself in my heart?

All fear is of the flesh…

When I am afraid I will put my trust in Him – this is what David said – I’ve been admitting to the Lord that I’m afraid when I feel afraid, “I’m afraid Lord”…

And as I’ve been doing this He’s been making me aware that it is my flesh – the remnants of my flesh – which are afraid not me – “God has not given us a spirit of fear but of power, of love and of a sound mind”…

So, I begin to be aware that I’m not afraid…

It is my flesh which is afraid…

So there’s no problem with me – I’m OK…

And as I see that I’m OK in my heart then I begin to act OK – to actually be OK – not deficient – not always ‘without’ – but with – because Jesus is living through me…

Praise You Jesus…

You are Awesome…

Open our eyes that we may see the truth about ourselves – our new selves in You – and be freed from all deception and lies about our adequacy and worth and potential in You…

Love you Lord,

Andrew