a house of prayer for the nations

“You will love, freely and without abandon – you will love freely for I will freely love you – I will freely love you and you will freely love My Church as I have told you – and yet you will love no one like you love Me – I will be your first love – no one else – no one else will have that title – I will be your first love”…

“No one else will compare to Me in your life – this is idolatry Andrew when someone else compares to Me in your life – no one else will compare to Me – they will all fall ‘beneath’ Me – I am the One who you love – no other – no other – no other like Me – I am the One whom you love and all other ‘loves’ will come beneath Me – they are ‘nothing’ to you – as My word says you need to hate them in comparison to your love for Me – they are fickle and they are friable – they are not to be trusted – but I am – all will forsake you Andrew – all at some point in their lives will forsake you – they cannot run with you – but you will not be forsaken by Me – I alone am the One running with you – running with you ‘all the way’ as you have said – and I will never let you down – never – I promise you this – those who put their trust in Me are never forsaken and I will not – ever – forsake you – for you have won My Heart and My Heart is yours forever”, declares the Lord who has mercy upon you and who chose you from birth to know Me – declares the Lord…

Being ‘in love’…

The Lord has told me today that I will never be ‘in love’ again…

That sounds strange you might say…

But I won’t because being ‘in love’ is carnal – this is what He told me…

What? What are you saying Andrew…

Being ‘in love’ is carnal – this is what He said and He gave me the understanding that when I was ‘in love’ with my wife – when we first met – ‘it’ was broken the first time she broke my heart…

This proves that it is carnal (it is conditional) – it is based on finding this ‘perfect’ human being who will never hurt you, always understand or ‘get’ you and never do anything to you that would not delight or thrill or whatever other word ( 🙂 ) you…

You get my point…

Love is from God…

Being ‘in love’ is carnal…

I will love my wife – I have chosen to do this – this has nothing to do with how many times she has broken my heart (I’m not saying I haven’t broken hers either – I’m just using that by way of example) – this is a choice which I have made in my will – controlled by the Holy Spirit – not in striving – to love my wife…

You get my point…

There is no ‘perfect person’ out there for you (if you are single) – there is a person out there for you who the Lord has chosen you to marry – if He has planned marriage for you – and if you wait for Him He will bring that person to you – but do not confuse the ‘in love’ feeling you have for that person with God’s Love – God’s Love will serve that person through you for the rest of your life (whatever happens to them – disfigurement, etc) irrespective of what they do to you…

That is God’s Love – if you don’t have that (or an assurance that you will have that in the case of disfigurement or loss of physical beauty) for that imperfect person then you shouldn’t marry them (I didn’t have it when I married my wife – the disfigurement thing – I believe I do now – in His grace alone – Thank You Jesus) – because ‘it’ the feeling of being ‘in love’ – won’t last – it won’t carry you – only God’s Love – His Unconditional (Forgiving) Love (nothing in it for you) – will…

Cos we all hurt each other – that’s life (after the fall) – and we all need to forgive each other to survive and not get ‘eaten up’ by the tormentors (the demons who go around and inhabit un-forgiveness and bitterness bringing disease and sickness with them)…

I know this to be true – I have been battling with this this morning…

And the Lord has pulled me through with some strong intervention…

It’s good when we don’t try – don’t try to help Him just ‘lay back’ and let Him overcome on our behalf…

This is what comes from it – revelation – revelation and freedom…

Being ‘in love’ is of the flesh…

The Lord showed me something today – this lunch hour in fact…

He is a Jealous God…

He told me that I would never have a Best Friend who wasn’t Him…

He told me – future – that I would have a friend who I could be one with – but that I would never have a friend who I would be best friends with – as this was His place…

I’ve always wanted a best friend…

I had one in primary school and then he left – he went to Cobham Intermediate and said he’d be back for High School – he never came back…

Then in Intermediate I had another one – he left at the beginning of High School…

From then until now I haven’t had a best friend – I had a friend who I used to share really openly with and do worship together with but the Lord showed me that he was just a collision type of friend – we collided and came together for a while and then went our separate ways – which is exactly what happened…

I’ve been seeking this friend – this best friend…

And today the Lord tells me that I’ve been labouring under a misdirection…

There is no best friend for me – He is and always will be my Best Friend…

As I let this word soak over me – as He was typing it through me in our email conversations we have – just Him and me – and as I came back to my blog – as He told me to – to check the “Baptism of Fire” thread – as I read it I saw that the work – the work which He’s been doing in me is complete now…

I don’t have any needs…

All my needs are met in Him…

I love Him so much…

Anything else which He provides is a bonus – it is pleasure – for my pleasure – what He told me on Friday afternoon – but it is not a need – He has set me free – idolatry is wanting a best friend who is not the Lord…

He has set me free…

And I feel the freedom – I feel the ‘other things’ falling off me…

He will give me a friend – one who I can be one with – like David and Jonathan’s souls were knit together – but this friend will not be my best friend – the only one who I will ever obey and submit to unreservedly and without question is the Lord (and it’s the same for anyone who is friends with me – they must only submit unreservedly and without question to the Lord alone – everything I say or do must go through that sieve – we live unto the Lord and unto the Lord alone)…

Love you Lord…

Andrew

“My Church is resisting Me Andrew”…

“They are resisting Me”…

“You saw that picture which I gave you last night”…

“You saw it”…

“The emergency room and your ‘wife’ being ‘wheeled away’, ‘cloistered away’ to deeply serious surgery – you saw it – and the ‘doctor’ held up his hand and said you were not permitted to enter”…

“Your ‘wife’ in that picture is My Church – this is now out of your hands Andrew – it is in My Hands – I will heal her – there is nothing more that you can do”…

“You have done well in your intercession – there is nothing more that you can do – wait now – wait now for My Church to ‘go through’ the surgery – the desperate surgery which She so desperately needs – I use that word deliberately Andrew – desperate – for it is desperate”…

“I am in you Andrew and I have chosen you to go ‘all the way’ – there will be others who will also go ‘all the way’ – they will be added to you over time – but now – plough – plough on – do not be discouraged – plough on – the ground might be mirey and boggy but plough on – lift up your dinghy as the sister had the word for you – lift up your dinghy and ‘change lakes’ – you know what this means – ‘change lakes’ and I will give My ‘release’ to you to fly in the Presence of My Spirit – you will soar in the Presence of My Spirit – worship Me Andrew – and I will reveal to you the future”…

“The work which I do through you will change the world – receive My word – speak My word – live My word – model My word – deliver My word – no pride Andrew – there is no pride which will remain in you – I will do all things through you – receive My word and set your face like flint to go to Jerusalem”…

“I will be with you there – I will never leave you nor forsake you – I will be with you there – worship Me and see the salvation of the world”…

There is a link between faith and pain…

We do not try to put ourselves through pain…

I want to make that quite clear – but as we endure pain – pain which has been initiated by the Lord – we find our faith ‘coming to the fore’…

‘Coming out of us’ – ‘rising to the surface’ so to speak and being solidified…

Deep held beliefs are hard to shake except in the presence of pain…

So the Lord allows pain…

If we say, ‘I’ll put myself through some pain so my faith will grow stronger’, then that won’t work…

But if He allows things to happen so that we go through pain then He will make our faith grow stronger as we surrender to Him…

Whether we surrender to Him or whether we don’t is really up to Him…

He has a plan for each of our lives – but we know one thing – that if we surrender to Him He exercises His Authority over us…

And part of His Authority exercised over our lives is to remove everything from us which inhibits faith…

For faith is our life…

So the pain that we endure is necessary to establish faith – the rule of faith – in our hearts…

We are beings who live believing what we cannot see…

We believe the future before it happens…

We are not ‘positive thinkers’ – we are ‘positive knowers’ – when He releases the fulfilment of His word to us – and we know – we know that we know – when we have that gift of knowledge – knowing His will – then we cannot be shaken…

Anything of flesh will fold…

If it’s not faith we’ll soon know about it – it will ‘fall off’ – it can’t stand the heat…

There is nothing to be scared of in going through this process…

We can be absolutely honest like little children…

Like little children with their Daddy…

I have a picture of the Lord – and it’s only fairly recently that this has been really ‘growing on me’ – of the Lord – probably the last couple of years in a deeply practical way – as a Daddy just waiting to listen to me – I don’t think, ‘but He wouldn’t want to speak to me again’ – I think, ‘I can’t wait to talk to Him about this’ – because He’s said I can cast my anxiety on Him because He cares for me – in fact He’s even commanded me to do this – so I can come to Him in any state and ask Him my questions knowing that He’ll answer me or even if He doesn’t that there’s a very good reason and knowing that I’ll ask again (I’m cheeky with the Lord 🙂 ) – until His Peace comes…

So when you have this attitude towards God as your Daddy – who will listen to you and loves you – then you see that you can inquire of Him about anything…

This builds your faith…

What He shares with you – in this place of trust – builds your faith…

If you come to God in a place of unbelief then no matter what ‘sweet’ things He says to you, you will not be able to receive them – you will only be able to receive ‘negative’ things – things which have not been spoken by His Voice but by another voice…

Faith inhabits trust…

But Andrew faith and trust are the same thing I can hear you saying…

No, I don’t believe they are…

Trust is the backbone of faith…

Confidence in the Goodness of God is the backbone of faith…

When you believe that God is Good and come into His Presence and hear words from His Mouth you have your faith activated to believe those words which you have heard…

Faith comes from hearing…

God speaks directly to you in that place – not a bitter place, not a resentful place, not a place of rejection – but in a place of acceptance – like a little daughter with her Daddy…

Like a little son with his Father…

In this place of trust – faith can speak…

God can speak faith into our hearts…

Why do we doubt God?

Rebellion, yes, rebellion but there is another reason…

Another lie…

Disappointments…

We blame God for the times when we listened and He ‘didn’t come through’ – ‘let us down’ – ‘left us ‘high and dry” – but these times are not His fault – He is Faithful…

If we define Him as anything but Faithful – we are wrong – He – by definition – is Faithful…

Any ‘unfaithfulness’ which we are attributing to Him is a diminution of His Character…

I am speaking in His Authority when I say that He is Faithful…

He is…

We cannot limit Him to our experience or even to our ‘supposed’ experience of Him…

So many voices…

So many voices…

Even when we are sincere…

So many voices – and He will let us go through seasons of being deceived – even though we don’t want to be – or don’t think we want to be – because of the ‘remains’ in us – to expose them through the pain of being deceived and fed ‘false promises’ by the evil one…

‘False promises’ are things which we want but which God has not spoken…

They are empty…

They will not come to pass…

We cannot decide God’s will for Him – He needs to do this ‘all by Himself’…

And He does…

When we don’t like this and ask for ‘alternatives’ we open up ourselves to a world of pain and hurt…

Other voices…

Harder voices…

‘Try harder’ voices…

The only place of safety is in that childlike rest with your Father – your Daddy…

You can learn this with the Lord…

You don’t have to have had a perfect earthly father…

You do need however to have forgiven your earthly father (He will help you with this 🙂 )…

Bitterness blocks faith…

Resentment blocks faith…

Come as you are and come as a little child before your Perfect Heavenly Father and receive from Him what He has to offer you…

Know in advance that He is not on trial…

He is Faithful…

Whatever happens keep coming… 🙂

Love you,

Andrew

“You have sought Me – corporately – there is enough desire in My Church – for Me to bring Fire to this earth”…

“It is kindled”…

“It is kindled in My Wrath and it is kindled in My Love – My Wrath and My Love will accomplish this for Me – you – corporately – have sought Me sufficiently for My Wrath and My Love to be expressed in your world”…

“My Wrath will destroy the devil’s operations in this earth – he will be removed from this earth as I take this earth for My Glory”…

“My Love will establish My Presence on this earth in the hearts and souls and minds of those who I choose as My own possession”…

“Those who side with the devil will be removed with the devil – with the devil and his works”…

“I have spoken and I will not change My Mind – there is sufficient unity with My Prophets to perform this”…

“I will come and I will not be silent”…

“Nigeria will be the first nation saved”…

“The first nation to know My Presence in Fullness”…

“Jerusalem shall be My City and I shall reign from there in the Spirit”, declares the Lord…

“The House of Prayer which I establish there – in My City – will see the world saved”…

“That City – My City – will become a House of Prayer for All Nations – as My word has said – this is what I longed for when I was on earth – this is what I was looking for – and now – at the climax of the ages – I will bring this to pass”, declares the Lord, “for My Name is Holy – and I will be reverenced – in My Holy Name – among the Nations – as I have stated in My Word – My Word – My Holy Word – will come to pass in this generation – and nothing will stop it – nothing will stand in It’s way – My Word – to bring fulfilment to every dream and vision and revelation which I have given to My Prophets from the foundation of the world”…

“All will be fulfilled – all will be fulfilled – all will be fulfilled before I come again to reign”…

“The Mouth of the Lord has spoken it”…

“My Church will know Me – in this chosen generation My Church will know Me – My Church will ‘go through’ the Fire – they will ‘go through’ the Fire together – there will not be a single member of My Church remaining on this earth who does not ‘go through’ the Fire – the Fire will ‘destroy’ them in the sense that It will leave them completely surrendered to Me – completely submitted to Me and to My timing in their lives – It – My Fire – will remove striving from My Church and bring submission to My Will in all things – Waiting – will become a ‘way of life’ for My Church – My Spirit will lift them up – on wings as eagles – My Spirit will ‘soar’ in them as they corporately Glorify My Name in all the earth”…

“The gates of their enemies will be possessed by My Church in this generation”, declares the Lord, “and there is no demon, no devil, no principality, no demonic entity – no arm of flesh – who can stand against Me in this”, declares the Lord, “for I have spoken and I will not change My Mind – I will have a pure Bride – a submitted Bride – a surrendered Bride – and I will march victorious in front of My Bride as she marches – in My Love and in My Joy – in dancing – to take this world for My Glory – My Love will win”…

“My Love will win – and no one will stand against Her – My Love – as she marches to take this earth for My Glory”, declares the Lord, “My Glory is My Passion – My Church is My Glory – and My Church is My Passion – I love her with an undying love and I will show Her and this world the full expression of this Love in this chosen generation”…

“Believe Me Andrew – I will do it”…

“Believe Me and live”…

“I will complete every word which I have ever spoken to you – every word which I have spoken to you in truth – not in testing but in truth”…

“I love you – remain in My Love – that is My Word to you – remain in My Love”…

“And Love My Church as I have Loved you”…

For a child of God, failure is never final… 🙂

“There are phases of My Glory coming upon this earth”…

“This earth shall know My Glory before I return”…

“I spoke while I was on earth and I said that there were some standing among you who would not taste death until they saw the Kingdom of Heaven coming with power”…

“This shall be fulfilled in your lifetime”…

“There will be those in your lifetime who will not taste death until they see the Kingdom of Heaven coming with power and there will be those who will still be alive when I physically return to reign from Jerusalem”…

“You are one of those Andrew – you will endure until I return to reign from Jerusalem – no one can touch you and no one can touch those I choose to remain on earth until I come again to reign – you will be protected by Me – protected in the desert as My word says”…

“I will have a remnant on this earth right until the end – many will die for Me but many will be spared right until the end – I will have a presence on earth right until I come again to take you to Myself before descending to earth to reign”…

“The days ahead will be momentous”…

“You will see great healings and miracles”…

“You will see great salvation”…

“Salvations will be common place all over the earth”…

“You will see great destruction”…

“An outpouring of My wrath towards the end”…

“Great worship – an outpouring of Anointed Praise from My People”…

“And worship which is unaffected by time or position – a ‘time stops’ type of worship in which all focus turns upon Me – a very intimate form of worship where it truly is between Me and the individual worshipper”..

“I love you Andrew and I have shown you many great things”…

“But there are greater things – greater Glories – that I have not yet shown you”…

“Wait in My Presence and I will show you the Greater Glories that are to come”…

“My People shall be One”…

 “No Glory is greater than that – no plan is fuller – no proposition gives Me greater Glory than to see My People as One…

“Oneness Andrew – I speak oneness over My People – My People are One – right until the end My People are One – Shepherd them Andrew – Shepherd My People in Oneness – do not let anything get in your way – lift them up – place them before yourself – support them from underneath and Shepherd them in Oneness”…

“Teach them to know the importance of Oneness”…

“Come underneath them and serve them – lift them up – serve them and let them – all of them – express their love for Me in their own unique ways – each voice must be heard”…

“This is the symphony I desire – to hear every voice of My People worshipping Me in the way I created them – naturally – to worship Me from their redeemed heart”…

“I love you Andrew and I have chosen you to endure – endure and share My love with My People – from your wife to your children to your grandchildren to every single one of My People who you come across – show them My Love – and I will be with you always”…

“There is no greater expression of My Glory than in My Love – I call you to serve – elevate others more highly than yourself – to allow gift and Anointing to flourish – to be ‘permission giving’ – not as you have experienced in your life but as you have experienced from Me – My Gentleness – My Humility has made you great”…

“And it makes all of My People great in unity as I release it – receive it Andrew – the Anointing for unity – the Anointing for bringing My People  together – receive it as I pour it out to you now – receive it and   you shall live –  you shall live in unity with all My People – all of My People who remain on earth to serve Me – I will take you to Myself – right at the end – but endure – until then endure – and lead in unity – as I said to you previously to lead in confession I now say, ‘Lead in unity – there is no pride in unity – all have something to offer – wait for all to provide their part – even if it takes some time – it is worth it – it is worth it – wait for the unity to come with My People – receive My Joy – wait for the unity to come with My People – I will separate all from Myself who do not wait for this unity – they will come home to be with Me – wait for My unity – wait for My unity to engulf this world – they shall see and they shall believe – they shall see My People as one – they shall – and so shall you'”…

“Love you”…

Jesus…

We live by faith…

I’ve been experiencing over the last day the reality of living by faith…

When the Lord speaks to you He fills you with faith…

You don’t even respond – you just feel the faith filling you…

His word bring life…

He is life…

Faith is what gives us life…

The flesh falls off as He gives us life…

He told me not to struggle to repress my flesh…

My flesh will fall off in the Presence of His Love…

It will – and it is…

There can be no suppression or repression of our flesh…

No inner fight with our will trying to resist the advances of the flesh – it must be His will through us  – His Spirit through us – rising up in us – to resist the flesh and to shut it down…

He isolates it, i.e. makes it inoperable, and then He removes it by injecting us with faith…

His word – His inner ear or audible voice word – I hear it inside my head speaking to me – gives me life…

When I get prophetic words, either for myself or for others, it is a constant flow of words, I hear the words and I write them down…

It brings life – just even the writing down of the words brings life – although  sometimes we’re out driving or something and can’t write the words down – but He reminds us of the words which He has spoken to us – he brings back the experience – the memory – of what He has said to us – He has done this to me – and He is always encouraging me – sure sometimes He really puts me on the spot and asks me very pointed questions – when He is trying to get at my heart – but (apart from this) He is always encouraging me – encouraging me to look ahead – speaking faith into me for the next (or upcoming) season (or seasons) in my life – preparing me for what is ahead – forewarning me and fore-encouraging me…

I am indebted to Him – without His continual encouraging Voice – I would not be able to continue…

The just shall live by faith – and I’ve also been seeing that the faith He speaks actually rejuvenates our bodies…

He literally is our life – control sucks life out of us…

It destroys us and ages us…

Faith reinvigorates us – it makes us young again…

We rise up on wings as eagles…

When the Lord speaks to me sometimes something He has said causes fear to be exposed in me – this stops the flow of His word – I have to pause and wait for the fear to leave and then continue on…

If I try and “squash down” the fear then what I write will not be His word – I have to wait for that fear to be surrendered and then He can continue to speak – you know when this is happening – He is teaching me this…

Fear is mutually exclusive to faith…

Both cannot co-exist together…

One has to leave…

Faith must win in a child of God – because everyone who is born of God overcomes the world – and we overcome the world with our faith…

Receive the Faith of God…

Receive the Faith of God…

Receive the Faith of God as it is offered you…

Receive it and live…

Receive it and live…

Receive it and live…

Thrive…

Enjoy life…

Overcome the world…

Receive the faith of God…

Hear His Voice…

Answer His Call…

Overcome your fears…

Believe Him and live…

Believe Him and live…

Express His flow through you…

The rivers of living water flowing through you…

Believe Him – He will carry you…

He will carry you…

He will carry you…

His life through you – carrying you…

Believe Him and live…

Receive His Anointing…

Receive His Anointing…

Receive His Anointing and live…

And let go of fear – it cripples you – throw it away and receive His Voice speaking to you…

Overcome the world – let His love fill you…

Overcome the world…

He is speaking to you…

Come…

Awesome song… 🙂

There is such strength in the Promises of God…

He makes promises – He tests us – and then we let them go…

He gives them back and sometimes He takes them away – but when He returns them we see that His Word has not returned unto Him void…

People may come and people may go but His word never returns unto Him void…

He is a Mysterious God…

As you come to Him in pain He meets you…

He tears at your heart…

He does…

He wants to rip your heart in pieces…

He does…

What?

What are you on about Andrew?

He wants to do this so your flesh is removed – whatever you treasure most He will rip at in your heart…

There is no point in trying to protect yourself from Him and He will use the promises which He has made you as the bait to tear your heart apart…

As He tears your heart apart you see that He is discerning between spirit and soul – cutting a clean line – and discerning the thoughts and intents of your heart…

You feel bare before Him and you feel trapped…

I know – I’ve experienced this…

There have been conversations I’ve had with the Lord where I try to hide…

I try to avoid answering His questions and He continues to corner me…

Why?

Because He put it on my heart that I would ask Him that no matter whatever happened that I would never finally say, “No!” to Him…

I asked Him this and He has kept me to it – it came out of my heart – more than once – that I would never finally say, “No!” to Him…

So I gave Him permission to hound me – in a good sense 🙂 – although its painful and I have told Him to “get lost” (not in such nice language) a few times when it is particularly painful as He is exposing the deep roots of what I’ve been…

It is really painful – He initiates it…

That’s the hardest thing – you never know when it is going to happen – you don’t control it – you are at His disposal – and He initiates it – and you see yourself as you are (or as you were 🙂 ) and then He delivers you (He also lets others see you as you were – what’s been going on deep down in your heart – it all comes out)…

The Promises of God are Rock Solid in their intent…

What God has promised you will surely come to pass…

He may have mentioned a name it might be fulfilled through another name – it doesn’t matter – the intent – the spirit – the deep need which He has promised to meet – that deep desire which He planted in your heart – which you think isn’t planted by Him and struggle with and struggle with until you’ve gone through this process – when you come through – you come through as gold…

He is so Strong…

So Mighty…

Nothing is too hard for Him…

Nothing is Impossible for Him…

All the Promises of God – which He has specifically made to you – are Yes and Amen in Christ Jesus…

His ways are not our ways and His thoughts are not our thoughts – but when He brings you through and you’ve let go and let it die and admitted defeat and lain down and died in defeat – I’ve been there and then felt that feeling that this is “beneath me” it’s not as good as I can be and suddenly I’ve felt that “gush” of His Presence lifting me up to trust Him again – to believe – not to try again so much – that has then gone when that happens (or at least lost its power) – but to trust – to believe…

Not that I get there immediately or permanently – but He is heading me up…

Praise You Jesus…

The Promises of God release motivation – they release hope – they release joy…

The Promises of God are secure…

Cast your burden upon the Lord and He will sustain you He will never let the righteous be shaken…

As His word says…

If you don’t know what God has specifically promised you or you just don’t seem to be able to make what He has promised you “stick” – you’re going “in and out” – then confront Him on this – ask Him, “Why?”…

He will speak to you – He will expose the hidden recesses of your heart – He will show you why…

And in His Strength – in the Presence of His Strength – you will submit and allow Him to achieve this through you – faith or trust is submission – allowing Him to complete His will through you – not trying to help Him – just allowing Him – giving Him permission – He carries you and He enflames your faith – His “enflamation” of your faith creates motivation to continue – it lifts you up…

We live by faith… Faith (or trust) literally is our life…

And the Promises of God are the ignition – the fuel – the rocket fuel – of our faith…

Without a Promise we cannot move…

Without a Promise we cannot breathe…

Without a Promise we cannot see…

We have no vision where there is no Promise…

Who makes the Promises?

God does…

He makes them specifically to each of us as His children – each child receives a different set of promises…

They are our life…

This command I entrust to you, Timothy, my son, in accordance with the prophecies previously made concerning you, that by them you fight the good fight, (1 Timothy 1:18 NASB)

What are the prophecies which God has given you?

Believe them and live – don’t believe what others have told you – believe what He has told you – either through others or directly – not what you “should believe” or feel pressured to believe – but what you know in your deepest heart to be true…

“Because My Sheep hear My Voice”, says the Lord, “and I will bring assurance to your heart that I am speaking to you – I will assure you and you will know – and feel – in your heart – with a rising sense of anticipation and knowing and strength and fortitude in your heart – that I Myself am speaking to you and you will know what I will achieve through you for I AM the Lord your God and I take you from your useless wasted life into a place where I am pre-eminent and I translate everything into My Glory”, declares the Lord, “a place where time and materialism cease to be a reality – all is relationship – relationship with Me”, declares the Lord, “and with My children whom I love – let go – let go of everything else – Choose Me and you will live – Choose Me and you will live – I have come to give you life – Choose Me and you will live”…

God is better than ever I thought Him to be…

He is also harder than ever I thought Him to be…

What do I mean harder?

Am I saying that He is a ‘hard man’?

No…

What I’m saying is that He always gets His man (or woman)… 🙂

In all seriousness He will do whatever He needs to do to get us to the place of surrender…

It is through these hard experiences which He speaks so tenderly to us – on the other side of the hard experience – but during the hard experience it is as if He has become our enemy…

And yet He is our enemy because He is confronting our flesh…

Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God – God is at enmity with our flesh…

And He will confront us until we ‘get the point’…

He told me that He had something to tell me today…

“I will be with you always”…

“There will never be a time that I will not be with you”…

“I will stand with you through thick and through thin because you have believed Me”, declares the Lord, “through thick and through thin I will be with you”…

“You have won My Heart because you have surrendered yourself to Me”, declares the Lord, “and I delight in you because you have chosen to find all your delight in Me”, declares the Lord, “all your delight – for you now know that all your delight comes from My Hand – My Hand is the Hand which feeds you and My Hand is the Hand which delights you and provides for all your needs – you know this because I have revealed it to you – no other reason – other than that I have revealed it to you”, declares the Lord, “do not forget this Andrew – do not forget the reason for your knowledge – the reason for your knowledge is Me – I am your satisfaction – no other reason – you are ‘even’ because I have made you ‘even’ – no other reason – no one is ‘even’ until I make them ‘even’ – I am the God of all flesh and you will bow before Me and do Me homage – for I am worthy”, declares the Lord, “and there is no one else who is worthy – no one”, declares the Lord, “and you will bow before Me and do Me homage in your ‘peaceful frame of mind’ you will do Me homage and you will remember that I – I Myself – am your peace – you have no peace without Me”, declares the Lord, “and you will have no peace without Me”, declares the Lord, “without being in submission to My Will in all things”…

“I am your delight”, declares the Lord, “you are to have no other gods before Me”…

“This includes your wife, your children and any other human being whom you love”…

“You are to have no other gods before Me”…

“I am to decide your pleasure and your pain”…

“When you receive your portion in this life”…

“I am to decide your future and I am to orchestrate every event in your life – for My Glory and for your good”…

“You are to trust Me”…

“That is all that you are to do – to trust Me”…

“Nothing else is required – only your trust”…

“Your trust in My plan for your life – which is now My own”…

“I am in you and through you until the end of time”…

I’ve decided to go all the way with the Lord…

What does this mean?

It means that I will let Him “bring me up” to whatever level He sets before me…

It means that I have no right to resist Him in any claim which He places on my life…

It means that no matter what pain He brings me I will surrender to allow Him to carry me through it and endure it through me…

It means that no matter how much pleasure He gives me I will surrender to let go of it when He causes it to stop and not demand its continuation…

I have no right in either pain or pleasure…

I have no right to choose either – just to accept what He gives me – step by step – no matter how many times this changes over the course of my life…

I have no right to take my life into my own hands any more…

None…

He is to live through me…

This is not to be in my own effort – I am just surrendering to Him to allow Him to live through me…

If He is not – this is not a prompt to “take matters into my own hands” and “get the ship back on track” – it is an opportunity to die – especially to my reputation and allow Him to carry me through that place of failure and learn humility underneath His Hand – His powerful Right Hand (is what I’m getting as I type)…

Humility is a way of life…

It is a choice…

I have chosen humility…

I have chosen to come underneath…

I have chosen to lift others up – but not as I wish – but as He leads me…

Every prayer which I pray must be at His initiation – I cannot pray my own desires – and when I find myself doing so I must stop and give them to Him – only at His initiation must I pray – only these prayers will be heard and answered by Him…

Only His will is done – nothing else…

He is firm on this – He has started to tell me, “You can do this Andrew but I will not be with you”…

He has started to “close the door” on all the other “pursuits” which I’ve followed after for my life to date…

There is only one pursuit left…

The pursuit of Himself…

To know Him and the desire comes in me to make Him known as I learn more and more and more about Him…

It is a natural by product…

I’ve shared on this before (I’m just remembering)…

I have chosen to go all the way with God…

I am not striving…

But I am more serious than I’ve ever been – and yet as I type I feel a steady presence of His joy – deep down – not overwhelming – there is a joy – a deep sense of His joy – covering this surrender…

I made it (in a preliminary “nodding the head” type way) when He challenged me on this in Fiji in late October last year but He is calling it in now – I am ready – He has been patiently waiting – I am ready to die – and let Him live through me…

I am not pushing this but I know that it is happening – and I am surrendering to it…

Give me understanding that I may live. Qoph. (Psalm 119:144b NASB)

This is my hearts cry Lord, give me understanding that I may live…

You have said, “You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free”…

Show me the truth Lord, give me understanding that I may live…

Above everything else Lord I desire understanding…

And yet as I write this You remind me, “and the peace of God which transcends all understanding”…

Wow…

I so long for understanding that I may live and yet You say, “Wait”…

“Let My Peace garrison your heart – wait”…

“Even above your desire to have understanding is My desire to teach you to trust Me in the unknowns in your life”…

“The unknowns in your life are the crucible by which I teach you trust”…

“Trust in Me – let My Peace garrison you and let Me embrace you with My Peace”…

“I know your comings and goings Andrew – I know all things about you”…

“You have nothing to fear – I know everything about you and I have chosen to love you until the end of time”…

“I am in you and through you until the end of time”…

“There is nothing else to say – wait for My timing and for My Anointing”, declares the Lord…