I’ve decided to go all the way with the Lord…

What does this mean?

It means that I will let Him “bring me up” to whatever level He sets before me…

It means that I have no right to resist Him in any claim which He places on my life…

It means that no matter what pain He brings me I will surrender to allow Him to carry me through it and endure it through me…

It means that no matter how much pleasure He gives me I will surrender to let go of it when He causes it to stop and not demand its continuation…

I have no right in either pain or pleasure…

I have no right to choose either – just to accept what He gives me – step by step – no matter how many times this changes over the course of my life…

I have no right to take my life into my own hands any more…

None…

He is to live through me…

This is not to be in my own effort – I am just surrendering to Him to allow Him to live through me…

If He is not – this is not a prompt to “take matters into my own hands” and “get the ship back on track” – it is an opportunity to die – especially to my reputation and allow Him to carry me through that place of failure and learn humility underneath His Hand – His powerful Right Hand (is what I’m getting as I type)…

Humility is a way of life…

It is a choice…

I have chosen humility…

I have chosen to come underneath…

I have chosen to lift others up – but not as I wish – but as He leads me…

Every prayer which I pray must be at His initiation – I cannot pray my own desires – and when I find myself doing so I must stop and give them to Him – only at His initiation must I pray – only these prayers will be heard and answered by Him…

Only His will is done – nothing else…

He is firm on this – He has started to tell me, “You can do this Andrew but I will not be with you”…

He has started to “close the door” on all the other “pursuits” which I’ve followed after for my life to date…

There is only one pursuit left…

The pursuit of Himself…

To know Him and the desire comes in me to make Him known as I learn more and more and more about Him…

It is a natural by product…

I’ve shared on this before (I’m just remembering)…

I have chosen to go all the way with God…

I am not striving…

But I am more serious than I’ve ever been – and yet as I type I feel a steady presence of His joy – deep down – not overwhelming – there is a joy – a deep sense of His joy – covering this surrender…

I made it (in a preliminary “nodding the head” type way) when He challenged me on this in Fiji in late October last year but He is calling it in now – I am ready – He has been patiently waiting – I am ready to die – and let Him live through me…

I am not pushing this but I know that it is happening – and I am surrendering to it…