The Lord showed me something today – this lunch hour in fact…
He is a Jealous God…
He told me that I would never have a Best Friend who wasn’t Him…
He told me – future – that I would have a friend who I could be one with – but that I would never have a friend who I would be best friends with – as this was His place…
I’ve always wanted a best friend…
I had one in primary school and then he left – he went to Cobham Intermediate and said he’d be back for High School – he never came back…
Then in Intermediate I had another one – he left at the beginning of High School…
From then until now I haven’t had a best friend – I had a friend who I used to share really openly with and do worship together with but the Lord showed me that he was just a collision type of friend – we collided and came together for a while and then went our separate ways – which is exactly what happened…
I’ve been seeking this friend – this best friend…
And today the Lord tells me that I’ve been labouring under a misdirection…
There is no best friend for me – He is and always will be my Best Friend…
As I let this word soak over me – as He was typing it through me in our email conversations we have – just Him and me – and as I came back to my blog – as He told me to – to check the “Baptism of Fire” thread – as I read it I saw that the work – the work which He’s been doing in me is complete now…
I don’t have any needs…
All my needs are met in Him…
I love Him so much…
Anything else which He provides is a bonus – it is pleasure – for my pleasure – what He told me on Friday afternoon – but it is not a need – He has set me free – idolatry is wanting a best friend who is not the Lord…
He has set me free…
And I feel the freedom – I feel the ‘other things’ falling off me…
He will give me a friend – one who I can be one with – like David and Jonathan’s souls were knit together – but this friend will not be my best friend – the only one who I will ever obey and submit to unreservedly and without question is the Lord (and it’s the same for anyone who is friends with me – they must only submit unreservedly and without question to the Lord alone – everything I say or do must go through that sieve – we live unto the Lord and unto the Lord alone)…
Love you Lord…
Andrew
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I have surrendered to this too Lord but I am left feeling empty…
Surely when You were on earth You had better friends than others? What about Peter, James & John? What about John himself? If there was a pecking order wouldn’t John have been a better friend to You than Peter or James? Wouldn’t he? Isn’t it possible that we have better friends than others? I know in my own heart I have better friends than others – people who I just click with – should all my friends be at the same level under the category of friends or are there degrees here – as long as You are at the top – which You obviously must be…
What is the difference Lord between having a really good friend – like David had in Jonathan – and in being married? – David didn’t seem to have this really good friend in any of his wives but he did have it in Jonathan…
Is this normal Lord? Should our really good friend be our wife or our husband – or like David – will You give us someone else to fulfil this role for us? This is all new for me so I’ve got lots of questions – I’m trying to figure it all out…