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What is righteousness?

God is righteous…

So are we…

Righteousness…

What is it?

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The new man…

Having been created…

In righteousness…

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according to God…

“down from, i.e. from a higher to a lower plane, with special reference to the terminus (end-point)” (J. Thayer)…

God is righteous and so He created the new man to be in His likeness – righteous…

We don’t know how righteous we are in our new man – our new creation…

When I go through seasons or even seasons within a single day where I “swing” between the flesh and the Spirit, i.e. the Spirit filling my new man (my new self), I often hear myself saying things which are not righteous and are not in accordance with the holiness of the truth…

And at the time I think these things are me, I have to be honest with God – but they are not me and He continually reminds me of this…

They are not me…

They are being “shed”…

If we want to know the righteousness of Jesus Christ – surrender to the Holy Spirit…

He will live through us…

I struggled for a long time in my Christian life to try and focus on Jesus – to try and “see” Him with my “spiritual eyes” and imagine Him from what we’re told about in scripture and try to “make something happen” in that respect but I am seeing more and more that as He wants to He reveals Himself to me – I have nothing to do with it and can’t “prompt” it or “make it happen” – He controls this not me…

What He does do though is live through me – and I see Him as He lives through me…

If you want to see the righteousness of God surrender to the Holy Spirit – let Him live through you…

Righteousness puts its love for God above any other authority – above any other love…

Any other “pull” on us is subjugated to surrender to the Holy Spirit…

We may really want our wife or our husband to understand us – we may really want unity with our wife or our husband – but if the Lord hasn’t decreed this – we must submit to His timing…

If the Lord hasn’t decreed that our children “snap out” of whatever they’re doing which “drives us crazy” then we must submit to His timing…

Righteousness is a state of being…

It has nothing to do with what is happening around you it has everything to do with what is happening inside you…

Whatever is happening around you will only highlight your righteousness as you see the Lord covering you and responding in peace and “evenness” to whatever provocation you are receiving from the “outside”…

Even when you are being flattered righteousness will not allow you to take any glory – it will protect you from this – and the thing is the Lord wants us to see His righteousness shining through us – we just have to receive it as a free gift…

Not just the free gift of being called “righteous” – pronounced righteous – but also the free gift of living righteous through the Holy Spirit’s abiding power in our lives – when He moves to make us righteous – practically through His abiding presence…

For if by the transgression of the one, death reigned through the one, much more those who receive the abundance of grace and of the gift of righteousness will reign in life through the One, Jesus Christ. (Romans 5:17 NASB)

How do we reign in life?

Exactly how I am explaining above…

There is no striving in this…

We are seen by those around us (as the Lord enables) for what we still are in our flesh (sin which dwells in me) but we are also seen to be the righteousness of Christ (as the Lord enables) by those around us as He (the Holy Spirit) lives through our new man…

Where then is boasting? It is excluded. By what kind of law? Of works? No, but by a law of faith. (Romans 3:27 NASB)

I’ve found the hardest thing in my whole life to be to “stop” and let God complete what He has promised to me…

The hardest thing…

This is the law of faith…

Where you stop – sit in silence – and wait for God to do what He has said that He will do – without your “help” and without your “intervention”…

This is supernatural and this displays the righteousness of God…

For Jesus “stopped” and Jesus waited…

He waited for His Father to raise Him from the dead in the power of the Holy Spirit…

This is what we are called to do also…

To wait for the Anointing…

And to rise on wings as eagles as He enables us in His time – whoever is rising at a point in time is an encouragement to us all – it doesn’t matter who it is or whether we’re all rising together – we are all encouraged by the Anointing being released on any of our brothers and sisters…

All encouraged…

As we are the many-faceted display of the wisdom of God on earth…

Every piece doing its part – we make up His Body on earth and we display His Righteousness…

Every unique piece…

When we submit to the Holy Spirit He lives through our new self and every new self is unique – every new self is like a unique star shining in the reflected glory of the Sun of Righteousness…

We are all one in Christ Jesus – and His Righteousness will be displayed corporately – not in competition – by us all together in this “non-striving” fashion of waiting on the Holy Spirit…

You hide them in the secret place of Your presence from the conspiracies of man; You keep them secretly in a shelter from the strife of tongues. (Psalm 31:20 NASB)

Praise You Jesus…

I love You Lord…

You are my Rock, my Strong Tower, my Refuge which I lean on, my Dependable Strength – You protect me from the conspiracies of men…

You are Strong – and You are Dependable…

I am Safe in You and I love You…

You have become my Salvation…

And I am in Your Presence…

Love You Lord…

(Ps. This scripture answers Psalm 55:9 which the Lord gave me earlier, Thank You Lord… 🙂 You are the Winner in all things… 🙂 Thank You Jesus – I worship You)

Tarry in Jerusalem…

Waiting…

The Lord told me a few days (possibly even a week or more) back that waiting releases the Anointing…

The longer I wait on Him – and it has become a more natural (or is becoming a more natural) part of my life to wait for Him – anxiety leaves me…

Peace cloaks me…

The Presence of God is a place of Peace (not anxiety)…

As we wait He moves – it releases Him to move…

I still see anxiety in me – about things which I can’t control – but these things are diminishing as He (seemingly) continually tells me to wait…

I will fill you with joy in My Presence and Eternal Pleasures at My Right Hand…

This is what He’s saying to us through that scripture which David received in the Psalms…

I was having a shower at Brisbane Airport this morning – as I’m away from home for a couple of days on a business trip – and I saw very clearly that Eternity with the Lord is a state where we experience that quality of life continually – Peace in His Presence, Fullness of Joy and Eternal Pleasures…

Last night or earlier this morning on the plane I saw that that quality of life where we live to know God shields us from whatever happens in the natural – like we’re living in a spiritual cocoon – the scripture which came to mind was – the one about the secret place – the secret place of His Presence I believe…

That place is safe… A safe haven…

There is no other safe haven on this earth apart from the Lord…

Communing with the Lord in the secret place and communing with our brothers and sisters in this secret place with the Lord as He releases these opportunities to us…

I had a beautiful, unplanned and unexpected time of fellowship with a brother from New Zealand online last night as I went back to work to prepare for this trip…

We chatted and then he just started to pray…

The Anointing fell and we were both in the Presence of God – it continued as I arrived home – He – the Lord was still there…

He is so Awesome – and He must be first – He must be first in our lives – we can love others but we must know and surrender to the fact that only He through their new self is anything – they can give nothing to us – even in their new self they can give nothing to us because their new self is “inactive” until the Holy Spirit fills it like a Hand in a glove…

I saw this on the plane this morning and surrendered to it…

It helps a lot – it puts our longing onto the Lord – onto the Lord alone (this is what I’m learning to do)…

If the Lord releases fellowship with another brother or sister – as unexpectedly occurred last night – it is a real blessing…

He knew I needed it…

I can do nothing to “make it happen” (only He can “make it happen” in His time – if He’s not “making it happen” then we don’t need it – even though we think we do – He is Enough – that is what He is trying to teach us)…

Our relationship with the Lord is “predetermined” – He told me this also – that is such a comfort – to know that He has it all planned – all the sorrow we go through – just enough to expose and remove our flesh practically from us…

Painful but necessary…

As we wait, He works…

Love You Lord… 🙂

Release Your Anointing Lord as we wait…

As we wait before You…

Increase our waiting Lord – increase our waiting…

Until it is our entire life – to wait on You…

And to “breathe the air of Heaven” by basking in Your Presence throughout our days and nights (whatever else is going on around us)…

Love You Lord… 🙂

I guess this is a similar post to “Waiting on His Word”…

This is just what I’m “going through” at present…

My sheep hear My Voice…

Deep down we know…

We know when the Lord is speaking to us…

We know what He has promised us…

We wait…

We feel the pain in our waiting…

We give up…

We try harder…

We give up…

We realise we can’t believe…

We keep believing anyway – He does within us…

Sometimes it’s really hard to see the difference between ourselves and our flesh…

Him through us and our flesh…

Our new heart and our flesh…

That’s the crucible of waiting…

It’s in this place of death where what is us (what used to be us) – our flesh – is exposed…

When you can’t control you die – your flesh does…

When you can’t do anything to make something happen you die…

When you can’t do anything to make yourself understood you die…

When you can’t communicate you die…

You see in yourself a desire to do all these things – you know it is wrong – and you die…

Somehow the Lord “holds” you and you see yourself “going through” this pain and yet you can’t “take your life back” it is too late – you’ve already surrendered and it’s like you’re watching yourself go through rigor mortis as you feel the pain but don’t want to “go back” but at the same time can’t “go forward” – you are “trapped” in the process…

And yet you know God is carrying you…

Amazing place…

Good to talk about it…

I had “one of those weekends” (a long weekend over here in New Zealand) where the Lord was taking me “through” something and I had no control and couldn’t handle waiting…

I was eating a lot for no apparent reason…

Usually when I’m under stress I don’t eat (it’s been that way at work) but usually when there are unknowns or uncertainties or just things which I have no control over and I feel “helpless” – a complete loss of control – it is at those times that I eat for no particular reason…

I have no control over that either – I’m just “letting it happen” and letting the Lord “take it”…

Abraham “took matters into his own hands” with Hagar…

David “waited” with Saul – he knew that he was the Lord’s Anointed even though Saul was still the Lord’s Anointed (in position) although the favour of the Lord had already “shifted” to David – the Anointing Oil was on him – but he waited until the Lord’s timing…

God blessed them both but we all know that David delighted the Lord’s Heart with his submission in this instance just as Abraham did later on with “letting go” of his “promised” son…

We each learn from everything we go through – we just have to relax and be “real” with the Lord and everyone else about how “weak” we are in our flesh and just wait for the Lord to “come through”…

When the Lord spoke His word to you did it come with fear? No, it didn’t, did it…

That is your assurance that it will surely come to pass…

Did it come as a condition? Was it conditional? Was it dependent upon your performance? No, it wasn’t, was it…

That is your assurance that it will truly come to pass…

His free gift to you…

God is going up against the great world religions…

He woke me up a couple of morning’s back and told me that this was the next thing on His agenda for me…

To go up against the great world religions…

In this revival which is coming – a turning back to Him in the hearts of men, women, boys and girls all over the world – these great world religions will topple and fall – they – along with their gods – will be starved – as the scripture has said…

He was clear that this is my next “project” in prayer…

To topple them – to expose them with the truth – to live and proclaim the truth so vibrantly – so powerfully – that these world religions will be exposed and fall…

What are they?

I don’t know – I suppose they are Hinduism, Buddhism, Islam and Roman Catholicism and dare I say it ‘Christianity’ and to a lesser extent but very importantly Judaism…

I haven’t had revelation on all this yet but this lunch hour the Lord told me He wanted me to blog on it – so I am…

It is very clear that the enemy traps more people in deception through the great world religions than in any other way…

He has ‘come in’ like an angel of light in these areas – he is more ‘at home’ in the ‘Presence of God’ (so to speak) – a ‘religious’ setting – than not – hard to believe? but it’s the truth…

Think about it…

Think about where he came from…

The covering cherub…

Leading worship in heaven…

The Lord had been giving me Psalm 55:9 on and off for quite a while now (a few months perhaps)…

This morning I mentioned it to my wife as I’d just got it again and when I read it to her I started getting understanding…

This understanding is maturing now as I type…

Lord, confuse the wicked, confound their words, for I see violence and strife in the city. Day and night they prowl about on its walls; malice and abuse are within it. Destructive forces are at work in the city; threats and lies never leave its streets. (Psalm 55:9-11 NIV)

The version I read it in this morning was a children’s version of the NIV and seemed to make more sense to me – anyway – I will continue…

Lord, confuse the wicked…

Confound their words…

The streets of our lives are filled with lies…

Deception…

Disgrace…

These world religions have perpetrated lies…

Confuse them Lord – every false world religion – confuse them…

It is Your will to confuse them…

To confound their words…

Arise to Your Own Defence (and ours) and confuse them and confound their words – bring them to nought and starve their gods…

The spiritual entities behind them – unmask them and bring them to nothing…

Remove their power…

Bring reality…

Remove their power – the power of their lies…

It is all deception…

And disgrace…

It is time for the Lord to arise…

These things have ‘sat’ for too long…

Like great big ‘slobs’ sitting all over vast tracts of humanity…

I see one of them sitting over Asia like an oversized sumo wrestler…

I don’t even know which – Shinto Buddhism is what I’m getting as I type…

Destroy them all – they are ‘overdue’ – ‘overdue’ to be un-entrenched…

Overdue to be removed…

Your truth has conquered all – overthrow them Lord – and bring truth…

Your truth truly is the Gospel – the Good News is that we don’t have to strive – we don’t have to try and make ourselves better – we just admit that we’re not and trust You to credit righteousness to us and then wait for You to practically transform us into that righteousness without languishing under condemnation or striving…

We stop ‘pointing the finger’ and start helping those who are coming to salvation – pointing out what the Lord shows us yes, in love – and in humility – but not in condemnation and not what the Lord has not shown us to ‘point out’ – there is no condemnation in God for those who are in Christ Jesus…

This is Good News – who wouldn’t want to believe it if they saw it – saw it practically in action?  Who wouldn’t?  It’s perfect – you can’t fault it – God Himself found fault with the Law but He hasn’t found any fault with the Gospel of His Grace – no fault at all…

It is over…

The world religions have been exposed – the greatest opposition will come from those closest to the truth…

What?

Those in ‘Christianity’ who are closest to the truth will resist this – the message of His Grace – His Unconditional Acceptance – the strongest – they have the most to lose – pride is strongest in them…

The enemy has tried to occupy the Church – He has – but He can’t occupy faith – look for the Church where free, unsolicited giving is practiced – with no expectation of receiving anything in return – you won’t find him (the enemy) there – look for control – there you will find him…

As close to the truth as he can get but wanting to ‘control’ it…

That is what he does – he knows how dangerous the unadulterated pure undiluted truth of God’s Unconditional Acceptance in the Blood of Jesus is…

He knows…

And he trembles…

But he will not have the glory…

The Church will see her Soon and Coming King and drop control and rest in His Presence – allowing Him to transform them in community with each other – forgiving one another just as in Christ God forgave them…

We will do to each other what God does for us – forgive us – forgive each other and share our entire lives with each other – I am seeing an Other Centred Revolution – it can’t be counterfeited (think Ananias and Sapphira) and Satan can’t control or deceive it – it is faith – from first to last it is faith…

Look for works – that’s where he (the enemy) is…

Look for pressure – fear – control – anxiety – performance – striving…

That’s where he’ll be…

Look for a false peace that says we’re “OK” with God without the Blood of Jesus – that’s where he’ll be…

It’s time for us to take the truth to the nations – to literally take it in our bodies – to the nations – a practical demonstration through life – with words – of the truth of the Gospel…

It is time for all these ‘great’ world religions to be unmasked – and the masses – the deceived but now ‘enlightened’ masses to come flooding out of these ‘systems’ and into the simplicity of Christ – a relationship with the One who they were created to know…

It has begun…

And they sang a new song, saying, “Worthy are You to take the book and to break its seals; for You were slain, and purchased for God with Your blood men from every tribe and tongue and people and nation. (Revelation 5:9 NASB)

Purchased…

For God…

With Your Blood…

Men…

From every tribe and tongue and people and nation…

“You have made them to be a kingdom and priests to our God; and they will reign upon the earth.” (Revelation 5:10 NASB)

I am very emotional as I make this post…

He has done it all…

We had nothing to do with it…

We – His Chosen – are the objects of His Love…

When we turned our backs on Him – and we still do every day – He came looking for us – He found us – and He still finds us – wherever we are hiding (in our mind) – and He brings us back to Himself…

He owns us…

We were purchased for God…

With Jesus’ Blood…

All for the purpose that we could know Him and in knowing Him experience Eternal Life…

And we will reign on the earth…

And so we will be with the Lord forever…

Wherever Jesus goes we will go with Him…

Just like Gomer was purchased back by Hosea we (the Church) have been purchased back by Christ…

He has made us willing to come…

If He didn’t make us willing we would not have come…

And He has done this in love…

Not to get praise from us…

He will get His praise from all His creation before they are sent to the Lake of Fire & Brimstone…

He will get His praise from us (willingly and with no compulsion) for all eternity…

I’m amazed the more I see about the Lord and His Patience…

He waits…

He’s been telling me to wait…

Nothing can be forced…

He makes us willing…

Do you feel willing?

Good… 🙂

The Lord made you willing…

Let it come…

He purchased you – He’ll do everything else also…

You have a future – a future with Him…

He will do all to enable your future with Him…

There is nothing for you to do but wait for Him to work it in you…

Once He’s worked it you work…

That’s been my experience (it comes naturally)…

You go and go and go like an energiser bunny (an advert that used to be on TV over here in New Zealand)… 🙂

When you run out of energy you stop and wait for the Lord to fill you with His Energy again…

Love you,

Andrew

(Ps. And we shall reign on the earth – this is our destiny – we will achieve this – in Him we will achieve this – Thank You Jesus… 🙂 )

I’m feeling heavy of heart…

There’s a burden I’m feeling…

I’m feeling for those who have been waiting on His Word for a long time…

“For the vision is yet for the appointed time; It hastens toward the goal and it will not fail. Though it tarries, wait for it; For it will certainly come, it will not delay. (Habakkuk 2:3 NASB)

I’m going to cry…

Such pain…

Such pain…

“How long Lord”…

I hear the cries of the hearts…

“How long Lord?”…

We are all waiting for His Word…

We are all given portions at our appointed time…

“Who then is the faithful and sensible slave whom his master put in charge of his household to give them their food at the proper time? (Matthew 24:45 NASB)

Even Jesus was withheld from eating after starvation set in to prove that man shall not live on bread alone but on every word which proceeds from the Mouth of God…

It was submission…

Do we trust God?

It really is that simple…

We are stretched purposefully by God…

What?

We are stretched purposefully by God…

Yes, we are…

He wants to stretch us to remove our flesh from us…

Anything of the flesh cannot believe God…

It cannot please God and it cannot believe God…

Because without faith it is impossible to please God…

And faith is a gift of God…

So He stretches us…

We can’t “hold on”…

We feel like we’re going to “let go”…

We “give up”…

I’ve been through this (again I have to say) just recently…

Too hard…

Everything was too hard…

He brought me a lot of stress at work with a lot of deadlines – just too much work to handle – and then He brought into the mix a problem with the rental we’re in – too much – all at once – but that is His plan – to remove our flesh from us – so we see it…

So we have “no leg to stand on”…

So we admit that we (our flesh) can’t believe – we can’t remain “quiet” in faith – and we learn to trust Him even in our “giving up” and seeing Him “come through” and lift us up to that place of faith again…

Is this encouraging anyone (smiling) – I believe it will – it’s encouraging me just sharing it…

He showed me a picture…

I was standing – standing on His Word – the things which He has spoken to me…

And He showed me that faith was standing on His Word even in the face of failure…

Even as His Word appeared to have failed – to stand and as the ground was literally removed from underneath me so that it looked like I’d fall from my “high” (standing on faith) position and I looked down – I saw that as I “stood” with faith alone – no visible means of support it was as if He retained a small almost invisible piece of ground underneath me and it was almost as if I stood on air and turned the tide to bring back the rest of the land around and underneath me…

Even as the Word seems to have failed – believe…

To believe in the face of failure is faith…

That is what I believe He has shown me…

Unshakeable faith…

Our God is the God of the resurrection…

Remember this…

Did Jesus think He’d failed on the cross?

He held on like I described above – all the way through God’s wrath…

He held on…

So can we – and so will we because everyone who is born of God overcomes the world – and this is the victory that has overcome the world – our faith…

God delights to test our faith…

We should not be surprised…

If it’s easy and it’s something we can believe then most likely it’s not of God…

If it’s impossible and something which we could never achieve and don’t even know how God will achieve it – then it’s more likely to be of God…

Faith overcomes obstacles…

God gives faith…

God gives us His Holy Spirit…

Faith – trusting God – delights the Heart of God…

Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego delighted the Heart of God in the fiery furnace…

Whether He delivers us or not we will not bow down to your idol and we know He can deliver us…

That’s good…

That’s really good…

Doesn’t matter if things go well for me – I will trust God – whether I see Him soon or later I will trust Him…

Whatever He does – I will trust Him – this delights the Heart of God…

Wait for His Word – wait for the fulfilment…

Desire accomplished is sweet to the soul…

Love you,

Andrew

(Ps. Go with it – if you want to “give up” then “give up” – He will carry you – He cannot deny Himself and His Spirit within you will create faith in your heart which will carry you, Love you, Andrew – trust Him in this and “give up” – He has been faithful to me when I’ve done this, Love, Andrew… 🙂 )

It’s hard being God…

He’s got to be fair and impartial – kind of like Engineers are meant to be in Contracts…

At university they taught us about the role of the Engineer in a Contract as a fair and impartial representative between the Contractor and the Client…

But at the same time He also always wants to be loving and kind – this is His desire…

He is Other-Centred in nature…

He is not “in it” for Himself…

For what He can get out of it…

But He will not share His Glory – what is rightfully His Glory – with another…

Just like I don’t like sharing what is rightfully my dinner with my youngest son (I had to get that out)… 🙂

Anyway, back on topic…

God wants to be loving and kind to everyone all the time but there are times in His Sovereignty – in His capacity as the Blessed and Only Potentate – where He has to administer justice also…

He has to be fair and impartial…

The soul who sins will die…

That’s fair and impartial…

God isn’t going to turn a blind eye to sin…

God tells us to glorify Him because He is worthy of receiving Glory for the Other-Centred God that He is…

When someone does a random act of kindness to us the appropriate emotion which we should feel is gratitude and when this is not expected (i.e. no gun to our head, no crippling or crushing expectation on us from God to give Him His gratitude – God is not controlling, He is not “needy” in that sense – that overbearing sense) but then withheld from God, He needs to act (He is not acting out of some “self serving”, “offended”, “got His nose out of joint”, “knee jerk” reaction – He is reacting calmly and evenly in “controlled aggression” with as much “force” as He needs to exert to execute His Judgement – His Righteous Judgement)…

If we spend our entire life withholding from God the Glory He deserves for all His undeserved (on our part) goodness to us then we will spend eternity in the lake of fire and brimstone (we are free to refuse God but He is also free to refuse us)…

The act of salvation – receiving God’s gift of eternal life in Jesus Christ – is actually just an act of gratitude, “Thank You Lord for dying for me”…

That’s all it is…

Accompanied by faith…

“Thank You Lord for dying for me (You took my place), Thank You Lord”…

I used to get really confused with the Lord and think that He was a megalomaniac wanting all this glory and only last weekend He kind of “took me through it” and explained that He did everything He did in an Other-Centred manner – that is His “modus operandi” and it is only His prerogative as Lawgiver and Judge that He has to “bring to order” un-repented of sin (it cannot remain unpunished) – He is Righteous and He is Just – we understand this – at a base level we understand this – we know this as we were created in His Image – and our conscience – which He gave us – testifies to the truth – that He is right – all of the time and that we (in our flesh) are wrong – all of the time…

He really did give us the very best…

We really weren’t “pushed”…

He was really sad when we turned away from Him (in the Garden) – it broke His Heart…

I am feeling it…

I’ve never felt it before…

His Heart Broken sorrow over our defection from Him and also He felt it when Lucifer defected – which is what he did – and a third of the angels followed him in his defection…

He is so sad…

Still…

And yet He cannot leave the guilty unpunished…

He visits the iniquities onto the children and grandchildren to the third and fourth generation so we see what we were in Adam – so we see the pain our sin is causing our children – all this motivates us to pray for deliverance – just like the weeds in our gardens – every time we see them it reminds us of what we did in Adam and we are led into prayer for deliverance – everything is leading us into prayer – reminders to pray – reminders of our state in Adam and reminders of what we have become in Christ…

Everything is for our good – every curse which the Lord has subjected us or this earth to is for our good – even child bearing reminds us of our sin and of the pain which Jesus went through in travail for our souls…

I honestly with all my heart believe God to be an Other-Centred God – this is new for me at a deep level – He had me up about this this over the weekend – I’ve paid lip service to this for a number of years but not believed it at a deep level…

At a level deep enough to do it – all the time with no exceptions – myself…

Now I’m in a place where this is all that I can do…

I can’t do (permanently) anything else because I have been won by His love…

To not think about yourself but to only think of others and to only act in justice and righteousness not personal vendettas or pay backs or treating people badly because they’ve treated you badly – but to treat all people evenly – as the Lord is instructing you to do…

He gave me a definition of love…

Specific acts of selflessness completed in submission to the word and will of God…

Love is selflessness…

Other-centred-ness…

It’s specific acts…

An act of the will (our new will) in submission to the word of God (the scripture) and also specifically in submission to the specific will of God…

i.e. God will tell us to go and do something specific which is other-centred towards a specific person or people group at a specific time or for a specific period of time…

It is not random…

In the fullness of time God sent His Son…

At the appointed time Jesus set His Face as flint to go to Jerusalem…

It is not just following a “cook book” – the bible (the scripture) isn’t given to us as a “cook book” – the Holy Spirit is given to us to lead us into all truth – and there is no greater truth than the Other-Centred Nature of God – what greater priviledge is there for us to learn of this right here on this earth?

When people hate us for loving them what do we do?

We keep right on loving them…

How?

It’s a miracle…

God does it in us…

Wow…

Is there anything better than that?

Seeing God do something which we clearly can’t do (in our flesh) right in-front of our very eyes?

Why would we ever want to be delivered from the evil treatment which we receive from our fellow man when we get this revelation of the Other-Centred Nature of God?

Why?

Because our suffering shows the long-suffering nature of God – it shows us how much He loves us – because He is never asking us to do anything which He has not already done Himself towards us (specifically)…

It’s all a learning curve…

I’m seeing this so clearly…

No one can “help” themselves…

They are what they are because of their choice in the Garden and they are hopelessly lost without the Lord…

Even those of us who have been “born again” are incapable of doing anything without the moving of the Holy Spirit in our lives…

We don’t get ourselves revelation, we don’t get ourselves deliverance – we are completely dependent on the Lord – even for whether we remain alive on this planet or are taken home to be with Him – we really have no control…

We can’t even make one hair white or black…

It really is that bad (so to speak) – or that good (if you look at it from another perspective)… 🙂

We’re encouraged to get to know the Lord while we’re on planet earth – and that is what I (because He has made me to see this) want to do (this wisdom) – it really is all about Him and He really is Other-Centred…

I see Him as so Humble…

So quiet…

Not blowing His own trumpet…

So “head bowed” (so humble)…

I love You Jesus…

And yet You have all power, all authority – all power and all authority – I worship You Jesus – You are God and You are my Lord…

I worship You and I want to reflect You…

You are my Lord…

My Master and I worship You – I do not want to go free – I want to be Your slave for life – You are a good Master and Your Yoke is easy and Your Burden is light – I’ve never seen it like this before – You told me that You would overwhelm me or overcome or over power (I can’t remember the exact word) me with Your love and You have – You are – You are coming closer and I am seeing You and You are Beautiful…

You are everything I ever hoped that You would be – and You are the Lifter of my head – You are lifting my head – You are not leaving me downcast and You are teaching me that it is more blessed to give than to receive and that to give without expecting anything in return is life – it truly is – and You are re-directing my life so that I am starting (in Your Sovereignty and in accordance with Your predetermined purpose for my life) to walk in Your ways and find that You are the Way – the true source of happiness in mundane situations – nothing is mundane when You are involved – so counter-intuitive and yet it makes so much sense now – Praise You Jesus – You are Worthy – and I worship You – You waited for twenty years after you turned twelve before Your Father said it was time to commence Your earthly ministry – the ministry which culminated in Your death, burial and resurrection from the dead – Praise You Jesus – You were obedient until death and You never doubted (as that vision You gave me through brother Ken as a parable) right until death (the betrothed following the Prince) – You never doubted the heart of Your Father – and I will never doubt Your Heart for me because You have won my heart – I am in love (spiritually) with You and You are (spiritually) my One True Love…

God is no man’s debtor…

He has told me this…

I have let go of certain things in my life and He has come back in very strong terms promising me that He will give me what He has promised me because He is no man’s debtor…

He is very strong and passionate when He has said this – twice so far to me about the same subject (something which He’d promised me) – and He is defending His Honour when He has said this – and I’ve been left quite “taken aback” and “shocked” at the passion which He is showing in keeping His Promise…

God has told me certain things and then changed His Mind…

Yes, that has happened…

But every time He has done this – like with Abraham and Isaac – He has reverted back to His original plan after I have trusted Him with the “disappointment” of not getting what He initially promised me…

I have “surrendered” (genuinely) to the “loss” of the promise which He has previously made me and then He has given it back again once He has seen my heart – that it is surrendered – and willing to take – to accept – anything which He gives me…

Anything which He gives me from His Hand…

Which is my life – His Hand – what He gives me from His Hand – is my life…

I have no other life…

None…

What He gives me – from His Hand – is my life…

I have suffered the loss of all things…

This is what Paul said…

About Christ…

For whose sake he had suffered the loss of all things…

And this is what I am experiencing – the suffering of the loss of all things…

But as I surrender them He gives them back…

“I am no man’s debtor”, declares the Lord, “I am faithful and I am true to perform every promise which I have ever promised you – every promise which I have ever promised you in truth”, declares the Lord, “I test you and I try you but you will come through as gold for I have predetermined that you will come through as gold – you will be married to a woman who will be totally surrendered to Me”, declares the Lord, “and she will walk with you in the purity which I create in you”, declares the Lord, “there will be nothing which will stop you in that day”, declares the Lord, “as My presence fills this earth and I take it for My glory”, declares the Lord, “the promises are all sure – they are faithful because I have made them to you – I promised you that I would meet all your sexual needs through your wife and I will – on that day – I will”, declares the Lord, “I will be faithful to every promise which I have made you – none of them will be missing – and I will fulfil every good word which I have spoken to you”, declares the Lord, “which I have spoken to you in truth – not in testing – not in trial – not to see the substance of your heart – but in truth – the words which I have promised to you – about this and about all other issues which I’m not addressing at present – will surely come to pass”, declares the Lord, “for I have spoken it in truth – in truth and not in error – and I have promised it in My own Name – My own Name – that of the Lord – I am speaking to you Andrew and I am saying that in measure to your sacrifice you shall have your reward – in measure to your submission – you shall have your reward – your reward right here and now and on into eternity shall be in My Presence – My Presence will give you rest and you will receive love through your wife – through your wife in that day”, declares the Lord, declares the Lord who has mercy on you and who speaks in advance things which have not yet come to pass…

I woke up this morning with a clear understanding brought to my mind by the Holy Spirit…

and from Jesus Christ, the faithful witness, the firstborn of the dead, and the ruler of the kings of the earth. To Him who loves us and released us from our sins by His blood– (Revelation 1:5 NASB)

Released…

Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may be healed. The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much. (James 1:5 NASB)

Healed…

Then I came in to work and saw some of the posts which had been viewed on this blog over the weekend…

Someone had viewed something I wrote on 1 John 1:7 – that really brought the whole thing together for me – gave me that “extra witness” that I needed to really solidify this for me…

but if we walk in the Light as He Himself is in the Light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all sin. (1 John 1:7 NASB)

Cleansed…

The Blood released (past tense) us, that’s all of us who have been born again, from our sins, that’s “a given”, those sins are no longer ours (Praise the Lord), we are a new creation… 🙂

The Blood will cleanse us (present tense) from all sin as we confess our sins to one another and pray for one another (present tense), i.e. the Blood will heal us as we walk in the light with our brothers and sisters – this is practical (this is something we get to experience the joy of as it practically occurs for us – being practically healed from the practice of, the slavery to, sin – in our daily lives – moment by moment)…

This is the “missing link” in Christianity… 🙂

We have one group today who would say, “we are new creations we don’t need to confess our sins at all”…

We have another group who would say, “unless you confess your sins to the priest you aren’t saved at all or can lose your salvation”…

Jesus, when He washed His disciples feet, covered both of the above beautifully…

Then He poured water into the basin, and began to wash the disciples’ feet and to wipe them with the towel with which He was girded. So He came to Simon Peter. He said to Him, “Lord, do You wash my feet?” Jesus answered and said to him, “What I do you do not realize now, but you will understand hereafter.” Peter said to Him, “Never shall You wash my feet!” Jesus answered him, “If I do not wash you, you have no part with Me.” Simon Peter said to Him, “Lord, then wash not only my feet, but also my hands and my head.” Jesus said to him, “He who has bathed needs only to wash his feet, but is completely clean; and you are clean, but not all of you.” For He knew the one who was betraying Him; for this reason He said, “Not all of you are clean.” So when He had washed their feet, and taken His garments and reclined at the table again, He said to them, “Do you know what I have done to you? “You call Me Teacher and Lord; and you are right, for so I am. “If I then, the Lord and the Teacher, washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another’s feet. “For I gave you an example that you also should do as I did to you. “Truly, truly, I say to you, a slave is not greater than his master, nor is one who is sent greater than the one who sent him. “If you know these things, you are blessed if you do them. “I do not speak of all of you. I know the ones I have chosen; but it is that the Scripture may be fulfilled, ‘HE WHO EATS MY BREAD HAS LIFTED UP HIS HEEL AGAINST ME.’ “From now on I am telling you before it comes to pass, so that when it does occur, you may believe that I am He. “Truly, truly, I say to you, he who receives whomever I send receives Me; and he who receives Me receives Him who sent Me.” (John 13:5-20 NASB)

You are already clean…

As we are…

But still He needs to wash our feet and He’s leaving us an example to be ministers – servants – who can be available to wash our brother and sister’s feet – to see removed from them – practically – what has been practically removed from us…

Nothing more…

We have no authority in anything more than what we’ve had practically removed from ourselves…

We’re all in this “level playing field”…

But the Scripture has shut up everyone under sin, so that the promise by faith in Jesus Christ might be given to those who believe. (Galatians 3:22 NASB)

We all have sins – besetting sins – which we need to confess to our brothers and sisters – so that we can be healed – we just need to confess them – that’s all – we don’t need to try and “sort them out”, “try harder”, “resist harder”, “forget about them”, “focus on something else”, “fast them”, “practice self control”, “avoid them” – when they are in our hearts they are still functioning – there’s no fooling God – He knows when they are still functioning…

The only thing is to completely “give up” and admit defeat…

But the good thing is when we do this – in front of our brothers and sisters – we are released…

We are healed…

And the Blood of Jesus – God’s Son – cleanses us from all sin…

There isn’t any other way…

God doesn’t want any “prima donnas” in the Kingdom…

He puts things exactly as they are…

He choses us…

He makes us what we are…

There is nothing in us which makes us what we are…

He created our new selves…

He gave us all the gifts we have…

We are nothing without Him…

Nothing…

We can’t even breathe without Him…

We can’t even stop ourselves having a heart attack without Him…

We really are nothing without Him…

He raises us up…

Just like Bezalel and Oholiab…

Now the Lord spoke to Moses, saying, “See, I have called by name Bezalel, the son of Uri, the son of Hur, of the tribe of Judah. I have filled him with the Spirit of God in wisdom, in understanding, in knowledge, and in all kinds of craftsmanship, to make artistic designs for work in gold, in silver, and in bronze, and in the cutting of stones for settings, and in the carving of wood, that he may work in all kinds of craftsmanship. And behold, I Myself have appointed with him Oholiab, the son of Ahisamach, of the tribe of Dan; and in the hearts of all who are skillful I have put skill, that they may make all that I have commanded you: (Exodus 31:1-6 NASB)

I have filled him with the Spirit of God…

And in the hearts of all who are skilful I have put skill…

He gave some to be…

So whatever our place is we are nothing without Him…

He doesn’t care about our sin in that sense…

Our callings and our giftings are set by His Grace…

Doesn’t mean we haven’t got a lot of sin which needs confessing to our brothers and sisters…

But we see how Jesus gets down on His Hands and Knees and wipes our feet…

Every time the Lord has called me to confess He has enabled me with His Peace…

He has carried me in my confession…

What will people think of me?

But my question is now becoming, “What will God think of me?”…

If I resist His Holy Spirit I resist His will for my life – why would I want to do this?

It is easier to surrender to His will – and it will be less messy to do so…

He really does have the right to do with us – His People – whatever He wants to – He bought us – we are His slaves – we are slaves to Righteousness – to Him – He owns us – if we refuse to do what He commands us to do then there really isn’t any point for us to be here – this is where it’s at for me at present – we are just to wait for Him to create in us the desire to confess or the desire to obey or the desire to do this or that and as we wait we see Him “coming through” for us to create these desires – these motivations which have “legs” – to actually complete what He’s wanting us to do – His commands are not burdensome – because we’re waiting on Him – if His commands are burdensome then I suggest that you are trying in your own strength to fulfil them and not “resting” in His and awaiting His timing – if you can’t do it right now – wait…

He will come through – He is Sovereign in all things…

Moses went up the mountain to meet with God – he waited in the cloud for six days for God to speak to him…

Would we have gotten bored by then?

Moses didn’t…

The first thing God told him (after six days of waiting) was…

Then the Lord spoke to Moses, saying, “Tell the sons of Israel to raise a contribution for Me; from every man whose heart moves him you shall raise My contribution. (Exodus 25:1-2 NASB)

Every man whose heart moves him…

Does your heart move you?  Not your conscience, not guilt, not knowing that you should or feeling terrible that you don’t…

Does your heart move you?

Only God can do this…

Only God can put on the heart of his Bezalel’s and Oholiab’s what He wants to do so that our hearts move us to act as He is leading us…

It’s either there or its not…

This is all that God requires…

Standing ready and then performing when He releases His Anointing – His Motivation – His Divine Motivation – to us…

Love you all,

Andrew

What would be so right at the wrong time can be so wrong…

Things that are pure in their time if rushed or pushed can be so wrong…

Everything in its season…

One thing always leads to another…

I am going through something at present where I am learning the blessing of waiting…

Waiting is beautiful…

What? you say…

Yes, waiting is beautiful…

I read something at one of our local malls yesterday (where people go to shop) which said something like, “rather than trying to get to the end of the storm, dance in the rain”…

I liked that and I smiled on the inside – it gave me courage…

Dance in the rain – only in the Holy Spirit though… 🙂

Only He can make us able to do this… 🙂

One thing leads to another…

In life God puts us – those who know Him – through experiences because He is preparing us for other experiences – one thing leads to another…

If we “camp” on the future God has promised us and try to “live it now” then we will be permanently unfulfilled…

If we “let go” of the future God has promised us and live the present now then we find Him adjusting our present to suit or prepare us for our future which He has promised us…

Let go to get what God has promised us in the future – counter intuitive…

But it works…

We start to see the focus we have (in the present) preparing us for the future…

We can never forget our future and God won’t let us – He will keep reminding us – but in that place where we’re focused on the present time goes by quickly and we enjoy our present and find all these blessings “popping up” in our present which we never expected to find…

Never…

God told me to submit to a “black hole” type experience where I let go of everything I wanted and did what I didn’t want to do – I see this experience spiralling downwards to a “black hole” where there is no way out and I’ll never “have a life” again – it really is a voyage of “no return” and not what my flesh wants – but as I’ve been travelling down this path – guided by an Unseen Hand (the Holy Spirit) enabling me – I’ve felt a strange peace and in this “nothingness” – this “abandoned” state – I’ve found such unexpected blessing…

When we expect nothing we get more than we expected… 🙂

That’s funny… 🙂

But it’s true…

Surrender to the “black hole”…

I have…

And am…

Surrender to the “black hole”…

I know that as I’m sucked down into it finally that life will really begin for me…

I say that with a smile…

Surrender to God’s “deaths” in your life, surrender to His “black holes” – don’t be afraid – surrender to His Timing – surrender to being “left on the shelf”… 🙂

I’m smiling again – He is so keen to enable us to do this and to show us how blessed it is to leave our lives in His Hands – He is so capable of bringing the resurrection to our lives – I’m really smiling now – He loves to do this as we lose control – lose control of our lives…

Love you,

Andrew

I have been being delivered from this spirit for quite some time now…

It’s like an onion with its layers and layers of skin…

I get excited when I see progress and then the Lord shows me that there is still more…

I see more and more and more through what He reveals to me and what I see “within me” expressing itself through me – or wanting to (depending on whether the Holy Spirit stops it or not) – that truly as Paul says, “there is nothing good in me that is within my flesh”…

After making the confessions of the last few posts I felt quite good about myself (rolling my eyes) and I actually believed that it was “over” now but no, I see that there is yet more…

The Lord took me back to a time where I was growing up – teenage years – where I wasn’t given freedom to “date” by my parents but was expected – because that was what they did – to wait until the Lord showed me who I was to marry and then just “propose” to them basically avoiding any “temptation” or “flirting” or “playing the field”, etc…

Unfortunately that desire as a teenage boy to have “girlfriends” was “blocked” inside me and now as a man I see that that desire is still in there – nothing that we “repress” ever goes away – it stays and it trys to express itself when you least expect it…

I’m really grateful to the Lord that He brings understanding – sometimes it is so depressing to see still more sin – especially in this area of lust for me – still in there needing to be confessed…

I actually felt proud after confessing the other things and when this came up over the weekend I thought, “Oh, no, not another one – what will people think of me?”…

Which showed that I still feared men and wanted their approved – goodness me – what a mess…

I struggled with the Lord yesterday not wanting to have to make this post but sure enough He always wins and here I am making it…

Whatever your struggle with lust is – if you are reading this I believe you will have a story to tell – know that He will deliver you completely – He will – He is delivering me – but it may be a painful process – an iterative process – a layer upon layer process – but you will be free – in His Presence – in His Timing – you can’t “rush” this – I have tried to and it is futile – but in His Timing – the grace is there to confess and the desire leaves to practice lust and the pain and the hatred for it and the sadness when you commit it grows to the point where your new self “spews it out” it just doesn’t want it anymore (not that it ever wanted it) but the truth grows so strong in your new self that it – lust – just can’t remain…

That is in the world through lust is a piece of a verse He gave me last week – it’s such a mess…

I am nothing but what He has made me – I will never be anything other than what He has made me…

I put what my parents thought of me and wanting their praise and worship before exploring relationships with females in my teenage years – I see that now as I share this this morning – I’m sorry Lord for doing this – set me free from all lust – and let me glorify You with my life…

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He came to set us free…

He set us free and He is setting us free…

He released us from our sins by His Blood and He is releasing us from our sins by His Blood…

We are being practically cleansed in His Presence…

I just had an amazing experience with God – most times I have to go away from home on business (work) He meets me in my breaks in between conference sessions (or whatever) as I’m enjoying right now…

I saw that as I “let it all hang out” and this is also in a group of His People (as He led me) that His Presence would be “all there” and His Presence would actually give me the freedom to model to everyone else there how to be real and how to get freedom in not caring what anyone else thought of us…

God protects His word – and He protects our surrender to His word – to be without wax before our brothers and sisters is a scary thing and yet – He is showing me – it is a place – the only place – of safety on this planet…

The Lord chose not to bring the greatest revival which the world will ever see until His Church was one…

How will His Church become one?

Through this process of raw honesty – in His Presence – together…

Where there is no condemnation…

The spirit of condemnation is held at bay – it is not there – I’ve seen it in the future – it is future – but I have seen it and I have rejoiced…

Where we are there to “pick each other up” and pray the prayer of agreement with our brother or our sister – or me or you – when we or they “bare their soul” and let it all hang out as the Lord is leading them – not being a “try hard” or trying to whip up some false humility or crocodile tears – although that’s not the right word – but fake (sincere in motivation – well not really actually) sadness over sin that hasn’t yet been birthed in their hearts by the Holy Spirit – but when it is there and there is that cloud of witnesses right there surrounding it – there His Presence is and there is the deliverance – and there the world will see that we – His Church – brothers and sisters – all one in Christ Jesus – truly love each other and there the world will see the community and the belonging and the oneness which they have always wanted – as they were made in the Image of God and have known in their hearts that this is what they have always needed – and those who have been appointed to eternal life will believe – and the world will believe that the Father sent Jesus – they will experience His Salvation – first hand and personally for themselves… Hallelujah Lord!!! Nothing can stop this process – nothing…

It has already begun…

I am filled with joy right now…

My joy is bubbling over and I am grinning from ear to ear in my motel room and have been laughing out loud…

What a weird process…

The opposite of what we’ve seen…

A fake – religious – got it all together – type of presentation of Christianity to the world – it is so fake – and that’s what He’s going to change – there will be messy public deliverance sessions when the Holy Spirit shows up at a stadium or public place where we have gathered and open, spontaneous, Spirit led confession will take place in His Presence and Healing and Deliverance from demonic bondage will break out over that Stadium and all there will be saved…

Deliverance will flow throughout the world and it will flow quickly because this principle – this levelling principle of humility – genuine humility – and the confession of sin – in the Presence and under the Anointing – the Peaceful Anointing – of the Holy Spirit – will take the world by storm…

Not big I and little you as I believe Tommy Hicks said in his vision…

Just all one in Christ Jesus – all brothers and sisters – a level playing field – in the Lord…

Thank You Jesus…

Hallelujah!!!

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I want to shout for joy…

(Clapping)

I’ve been reading through Genesis with my two sons…

It’s been so obvious to me – we’re all having a crack at the reading – so obvious to me just how real God is…

He says things exactly as they are – He knows no shame in saying it exactly how it is…

Scripture is amazingly real isn’t it?

Why did God love Abraham so much?

Why did God remain faithful to Isaac and Jacob?

Jacob was such a rat bag wasn’t he?

No worse than me…

I see a lot of myself (my “old self”) in Jacob…

But there were times when God spoke where He enabled them to believe – and to believe “big things” – huge things – extremely huge things – things which even to this day have yet to come to pass – and yet they believed them – they struggled on the “every day living” things or waiting for God’s promises at times – and Jacob especially seemed to have quite a “lean” and “sad” life – but they believed at the important times…

We’ve just started Exodus last night – I’m away on a business trip for the rest of the week so we didn’t read tonight – but we see Moses told amazing things at the burning bush and not believing God and God’s anger burning against Moses even though God loved Moses…

Love does not delight in evil…

Everything that is not of faith is sin…

God’s anger falls on unbelief…

That’s a good thing…

It burns it away from us…

We can’t strive to believe more – if we can’t believe, we can’t believe – we need to wait for God to establish faith in us…

Love covers a multitude of sins…

When we’re in that place of humility whatever remains of sin in us is covered by the Lord…

Whatever effect that has on those around us is also covered by the Lord…

We have nothing to fear…

Fear leads only to evil doing as the scripture says…

This is very releasing…

Very releasing…

When the Lord releases faith to you know that it is not you and know something else – that it will surely come to pass – all those knowings which you have where you just know that you know that you know – you might be on the toilet and all of a sudden you know – that is the gift of faith and that is the Lord releasing it to you – you can’t add to that – I try to when He releases it – I try to make it better but I never do… 🙂

He makes it better by releasing the faith to us in the first place… 🙂

And when He does something is established and something else is gone…

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The Lord is really dealing with my heart – every hidden thing will be exposed…

He is coming to clean house – nothing will stand in His Presence…

I have been experiencing an intensifying of His Presence in my life – things which were “OK” before are not OK anymore…

As His Presence intensifies the desire within me to “come clean” intensifies…

When I come clean I stand as I am in His Presence – whatever my fellow man thinks of that is not actually my problem – it is His Problem…

And to Him – amazingly – I am not a problem but a solution – amazing isn’t it? We are all solutions to Him – those of us who know Him – Praise You Jesus…

So the spirit of rape – I have seen this so clearly in me – in my flesh – in my “sin which dwells in me”…

The desire to get what I want sexually no matter the cost…

When I can’t “get what I want” I look towards masturbation to “give me what I want” – but I can’t do masturbation anymore because the Lord has already delivered me from it so I (sin which dwells in me) gets “trapped”…

It can’t express itself through me but it desperately wants to…

And the Lord has been telling me to wait for His deliverance…

Whenever we “use” others (in any way, not just sexually) we rape them spiritually…

I see this in myself – I see that I have “used” people – used them to give me information – used who they know to give me contact with who I want to know – used them because I know they are kind or will support me – all of this is rape – it is taking from others – often through seduction – what they don’t actually want to freely give us – or actually more directly what the Lord has not called them to give us or enabled them to give us at this point in time…

The Lord has told me something which I’m really struggling to accept – I know its true but I just can’t accept it – He knows this – we’ve discussed this – I’ve told Him I just can’t accept it – but it makes me want to rape this person – to take from them by force what they can’t give me freely – I know it is wrong – but I see it so strongly in me – but it can’t express itself, it’s being held back from being able to fully and freely express itself by the Holy Spirit – and He has promised me deliverance…

My confession will set me free…

The deep feeling inside me – inside sin which dwells in me – this is not my new self – this is not me – my new creation – but what used to be me before He saved me – old things have gone behold new things have come (Hallelujah Lord!!!) – is a feeling of right or entitlement to grab what should be mine – this is the way it feels and even though I know this is wrong I feel powerless to resist it – it is only the Holy Spirit within me who restrains me from acting on that urge and gratifying my desire to indulge my “rights” – which I don’t really have – well I don’t – my flesh is dead – it doesn’t have any rights – and my new creation doesn’t grab anything – it just freely receives with joy what the Lord freely gives it – Hallelujah!!! – I’m feeling the joy – I’m being set free in my confession – the spirit of rape is broken over me – the spirit which grabs and forces itself on people is broken over me – I will not force myself on anyone again…

I will be free to give and to love with nothing else in between – Hallelujah Jesus!!! – You are Worthy!!! – You are Worthy!!! – the fear is gone, the joy has come – I delight to confess and I am protected by His Feathers in my confession – the spirit of rape is broken over me and I am free…

Hallelujah Lord!!!