The Lord is really dealing with my heart – every hidden thing will be exposed…

He is coming to clean house – nothing will stand in His Presence…

I have been experiencing an intensifying of His Presence in my life – things which were “OK” before are not OK anymore…

As His Presence intensifies the desire within me to “come clean” intensifies…

When I come clean I stand as I am in His Presence – whatever my fellow man thinks of that is not actually my problem – it is His Problem…

And to Him – amazingly – I am not a problem but a solution – amazing isn’t it? We are all solutions to Him – those of us who know Him – Praise You Jesus…

So the spirit of rape – I have seen this so clearly in me – in my flesh – in my “sin which dwells in me”…

The desire to get what I want sexually no matter the cost…

When I can’t “get what I want” I look towards masturbation to “give me what I want” – but I can’t do masturbation anymore because the Lord has already delivered me from it so I (sin which dwells in me) gets “trapped”…

It can’t express itself through me but it desperately wants to…

And the Lord has been telling me to wait for His deliverance…

Whenever we “use” others (in any way, not just sexually) we rape them spiritually…

I see this in myself – I see that I have “used” people – used them to give me information – used who they know to give me contact with who I want to know – used them because I know they are kind or will support me – all of this is rape – it is taking from others – often through seduction – what they don’t actually want to freely give us – or actually more directly what the Lord has not called them to give us or enabled them to give us at this point in time…

The Lord has told me something which I’m really struggling to accept – I know its true but I just can’t accept it – He knows this – we’ve discussed this – I’ve told Him I just can’t accept it – but it makes me want to rape this person – to take from them by force what they can’t give me freely – I know it is wrong – but I see it so strongly in me – but it can’t express itself, it’s being held back from being able to fully and freely express itself by the Holy Spirit – and He has promised me deliverance…

My confession will set me free…

The deep feeling inside me – inside sin which dwells in me – this is not my new self – this is not me – my new creation – but what used to be me before He saved me – old things have gone behold new things have come (Hallelujah Lord!!!) – is a feeling of right or entitlement to grab what should be mine – this is the way it feels and even though I know this is wrong I feel powerless to resist it – it is only the Holy Spirit within me who restrains me from acting on that urge and gratifying my desire to indulge my “rights” – which I don’t really have – well I don’t – my flesh is dead – it doesn’t have any rights – and my new creation doesn’t grab anything – it just freely receives with joy what the Lord freely gives it – Hallelujah!!! – I’m feeling the joy – I’m being set free in my confession – the spirit of rape is broken over me – the spirit which grabs and forces itself on people is broken over me – I will not force myself on anyone again…

I will be free to give and to love with nothing else in between – Hallelujah Jesus!!! – You are Worthy!!! – You are Worthy!!! – the fear is gone, the joy has come – I delight to confess and I am protected by His Feathers in my confession – the spirit of rape is broken over me and I am free…

Hallelujah Lord!!!