To the Lord belongs escapes from death…

God is to us a God of deliverances; And to GOD the Lord belong escapes from death. (Psalm 68:20 NASB)

I am happy at this point of today… 🙂

I’ve been going through some pretty ‘dark’ times over the last few days…

Some of that ‘storm’ and it has been a really challenging time for me on the ‘inside’…

Waking up this morning and seeking the Lord and He has provided some clarity on the situation…

Waiting on the Lord means getting used to not ‘pulling any strings’ to orchestrate what He has said He will do…

Letting go of that innate desire to ‘assist’ God in bringing to pass what He has said…

I am glad that I’ve gone through these past few ‘dark’ days…

When I go through these times He seems to remind me of things I’ve blogged previously and I go back and again go, “Ahhaa…” and remember that I already knew this but have somehow seemed to practically forget it in the intervening time… 🙂

Shows there’s more deliverance to come…

Torment…

Think about your life and think about whether there are certain strands of it which torment you, things which go over and over and over in your mind…

These are the things which we haven’t surrendered to the Lord…

My latest ‘dark’ experiences clearly showed me this…

Torment is not from the Lord but from the enemy of our souls, the devil…

King Saul was tormented by an evil spirit after he refused to submit to the Lord’s word…

The Lord uses these experiences, for those of us who know Him, to bring out in us our new self which just ‘knows’ (after a while) – it just senses or perceives – that these patterns are not life-giving – they are actually death-giving…

This was the giveaway for me in this latest episode – the Lord sort of said, “Hold on a minute, this isn’t healthy”, through my new self and then I saw it…

Anything which we do to try and make anything happen, even if it is God’s will, is control…

Anything we try and do to manipulate or coerce someone into doing something, even if it is God’s will, is witchcraft…

Anything which the Lord has told us which we’ve believed but there’s been a part of our ‘sin which is within me’ which has also agreed with it because it just happens to look like that will benefit ‘sin which is within me’ also and then ‘sin which is within me’ goes about to try and make it happen for itself – keeping it on the ‘down low’ so our new self doesn’t notice – eventually we see it surfacing during one of these ‘dark’ times when everything seems to be falling apart and it is ‘exposed’ for what it is really trying to do…

The hardest thing in the world is to have heard from God that He is going to do something through you and someone else together, i.e. use you together to achieve something for His Glory, and then stand by powerlessly watching as this other person remains unwilling to participate in this activity, being unable to ‘touch’ them to try and ‘enlighten’ them…

The reason it’s hard is because there’s still a selfish motive in there for ‘sin which is within me’…

Once that selfish motive is removed and this is a pure submission thing where we trust the Lord explicitly that everything He puts us through is in love and for our good – then truly we are ‘all good’ and see that His timing is perfect and that He is enabling us to wait but that in our waiting He is preparing us to be ready to play our part in this partnership and He frees us from the delusion that we’re already ‘perfectly’ ready but the other party is not… 🙂

No matter what happens God still loves us, He is using everything to bring us into His likeness…

We must surrender to His truth because in aligning with His truth we practically experience His peace and are protected by His power to have our youth renewed and to live more and more and more escaping from death and experiencing His abundant life as we know Him on this earth – which is the greatest testimony to His Glory which we can give…

As we are enabled by the Holy Spirit let’s glorify the Lord by trusting Him with every sadness and anger, every disappointment and betrayal, every heartbreak and unfulfilled longing, let’s trust Him with all our ‘unknowables’ and let’s let His truth set us free on the inside… 🙂

And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28 NASB)

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Standing Tall on God’s Word…

The Lord doesn’t make it easy for those who believe in Him…

Why is this?

He is bringing us closer to Himself…

He wants us to go through the disappointments of not getting what we thought He’d told us so that we can understand the lesson behind what He was using that conversation to teach us…

God is more interested in understanding than knowledge…

God can tell us facts but sometimes when God tells us facts it is actually only to challenge our mindset and help us to see something deeper about ourselves…

When God told Hezekiah that he should put his house in order for he would surely die Hezekiah could have taken this as a fact and said, “Amen!” and he would have missed the lesson which the Lord was trying to teach him to pour out his heart before the Lord…

Hezekiah learnt from that experience that deep down in his heart he wasn’t ready to go home yet, he had more to do on earth…

Sure, he made some mistakes with his extra 15 years but I believe he was still better for it – he had an encounter with God where God very personally ministered to him as an individual and I am sure that his life and experience with the Lord was all the richer for it…

Abraham heard facts from the Lord, that he was to go to a certain mountain and offer his only son up as a sacrifice to the Lord and did take this as fact and went about doing it but the Lord didn’t speak it as fact – although He did – but He actually spoke it to teach Abraham about what Jesus would do for us all those years later so that Abraham could see ahead the sacrifice of Jesus and believe…

So we see that not everything which the Lord tells us – as those who believe in Him – as facts actually are facts – they are actually the beginning of a conversation which helps us to deepen our understanding of who the Lord is…

The Lord wants to know us…

He isn’t interested in our performance…

He has already accepted us in Jesus…

The Lord wants us to know Him…

He wants a relationship with us…

He wants to walk through life together with us where we know Him intimately in every aspect of our lives…

Where we know Him so well that we surrender – outright – to whatever He says to do and trust Him implicitly even if in so doing we look stupid or He changes His Mind or what He said doesn’t happen because He was actually telling us that to start a conversation with us about what we – deep down – still believe, to endeavour to change what we believe – to deepen what we believe – so it is reflective of what He believes – so we can know what makes Him tick…

Nothing is a test to break us, everything is a test to strengthen us and draw us closer to Himself  – remember that for all of us who know Him, we are already His children, we are already His Bride, He already loves us and just wants to deepen that relationship with us by removing our preconceived ideas about who He is…

He will smash down our preconceived ideas so that all we have left is childlike faith…

Childlike trust…

Childlike dependence…

This is what He wants…

And He is unscrupulous to get it…

Why?

Because He loves us…

This is what discipline looks like…

It’s not, struggle and try harder…

It’s not, punish yourself when you fail or fall short…

It’s the discipline of having your security blankets ripped out from underneath you and being left very exposed and very aware that you are standing in a place where you have no physical or practical means of support – where all the natural props are removed and you realise that God is your only support and that there is no other way than the way He said, the way He promised, that the thing which He has been telling you can come to pass…

And in this place, which you have been prepared for by all these preceding experiences or journeys or relationships with the Lord, you are able to stand tall on His Word – His Word to you and His Word about His Purpose for His Earth…

His Purpose for all who live in His Universe…

Even for those who have traveled to space and are not presently living on planet earth – He has a purpose for all – for every single human being to whom He has given the breath of life…

So embrace your sorrowful circumstances, your continued unanswered questions, the things which bring you pain in your heart, your quandaries and uncertainties and things which just don’t make any sense to you – give them all to the Lord and watch Him give you in return a deeper knowledge of and surrender to Him as Your Sovereign Father…

For He is our Sovereign Father – He has a Sovereign will – He makes ultimate decisions for each of our lives – and these decisions – these ultimate decisions – which He makes, cannot be changed…

We can talk to Him about them over and over and over but if He has made one of these ultimate decisions then we can rest assured that He will accomplish it and that the accomplishing of it is for our good – in fact that there is nothing better than Him accomplishing this decision because He is our Sovereign Father and everything He does for us is calculated to bring us closer to Him and the closer to Him we are the happier and freer we are and the more liberated we are and the closer we are to His image and likeness, the more we experience His Eternal, stress free approach to life…

Basically, as David said, who knew this journey,

But as for me, the nearness of God is my good;
I have made the Lord God my refuge,
That I may tell of all Your works. (Psalm 73:28 NASB)

Love,

Andrew

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When I look into Your Holiness…

My new fav at the moment… 😊

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Draw Me Close to You – Michael W Smith…

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For as truly as I live…

This song came into my head today while I was doing the dishes…

It’s based on a scripture,

But as truly as I live, all the earth shall be filled with the glory of the Lord. (Numbers 14:21 KJV)

I was on my long hill run yesterday and the Lord said something to me,

“The Holy Spirit is My Glory, When you seek My Glory you seek My Holy Spirit to live through you so that the world can see My Glory, for He is My Glory”…

And just now as I read that scripture above, it clicked,

“It will come about after this That I will pour out My Spirit on all mankind; And your sons and daughters will prophesy, Your old men will dream dreams, Your young men will see visions. (Joel 2:28 NASB)

For the earth shall be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the LORD, as the waters cover the sea. (Habakkuk 2:14 KJV)

“… He will glorify Me…” (John 16:5-15 NASB)

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“Look after those who no one else will look after and I will be with you forever”…

I was just at the supermarket buying some groceries and as I got back into my car the Lord told me the above in the context of the new business which I’ve recently started…

I’ve never been into competition in the workplace, i.e. trying to outdo others and ‘shine’ because it goes against my ‘nice’ nature…

I’ve seen in the industry that I’m in that there’s a lot of striving and to strive means that you have to overexert yourself and keep up that image…

It’s a treadmill of epic proportions…

You naturally end up serving the rich, those with money and completing work which doesn’t really benefit the majority…

I told our team (at the previous company I was with) at a planning day we had late last year that I’d had enough of this and wanted to do something different…

A vision has been formulating as to what that might be…

This word from the Lord is the confirmation for that vision…

I am very excited…

It is the Lord who gives us our ‘place’ in any industry in which we are involved…

He will give the company I’ve started its place…

It’s a counter-intuitive place as we will be serving those who aren’t the rich but He will be with us…

🙂

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What we don’t know doesn’t matter…

I torment myself about what I don’t know…

I really do, there are some subjects which just go round and round in my mind and I find myself talking to the Lord about them over and over again…

Whenever I head out on my runs (which is six days per week) and I have that freedom to actually think without having anything else to do (starting your own business is really full on), I find my mind gravitating back to these topics, really just one topic with other options branching out from it and I just can’t seem to get it off my mind…

I ask the Lord about it and He answers me but then when I get back from my run what He says (or what I believe He has said) just doesn’t stick and I don’t know again what’s going on and then I seem to repeat this cycle over and over and over again every day…

It’s like Groundhog Day for me every day to the point where I actually dread going on my runs now because the same process will happen again and again and again…

When I talk to the Lord and ask Him to speak to me (which is all the time for me, I want Him to speak directly to me) I ask Him for three things, faith, absolute assurance, and peace…

I say to the Lord, “If You give me faith, absolute assurance and peace then I’ll believe anything You tell me”…

It seems during the runs that He gives me faith as I find myself believing and surrendering to what He is telling me (which is all according to His word, by the way, He never tells me anything contrary to His word) but then when I get home and by the time I’m hopping into the shower it’s gone and I’ve never had that assurance (that absolute knowing), the peace is gone too…

On the runs I feel good, I have no doubts, no nagging suspicions, I know what He has told me is true (or at least there is nothing saying it isn’t) but it just doesn’t stick…

While I was in Manila I had an experience where He told me something was going to happen and again I asked Him for those three things and He gave me that and even though there was doubt I had it and it was a miracle that He’d told me but it happened just like He’d said it would – He held me in that instance…

But in this present instance, it doesn’t seem like He’s holding me, it comes and then it goes…

And then we repeat the cycle over and over and over again (it’s actually getting boring now)..

Of late I’ve been telling the Lord, “Please don’t speak to me anymore unless You’re going to give me those three things”, cos it’s just torture for me to be given and then have it snatched away…

I’ll be heading off on my long hill run in less than an hour and I’m not sure where my mind is going to go or what He will tell me but the other night or morning as I was getting ready for bed (I’ve been working nights quite a bit and just sleep whenever I can) I felt He told me something, just whispered it to me, which really made sense out of what I’ve been going through…

If you don’t know something it doesn’t matter…

If He really wanted me to know what He was telling me then He’d give me that absolute assurance, faith, and peace that I’m pleading for Him to give me, He’d keep me even all through the day and night and I wouldn’t need to keep coming back begging for more information…

If He really wanted me to know and if I really needed to know then He’d tell me but if I’m just begging because there’s something in me that can’t handle the unknown of that issue ‘dangling’ and not being ‘concluded’ or ‘finalized’ or ‘closed out’ then that’s on me and maybe that’s why I can’t make what He tells me to stick…

I realise that I can’t make what He tells me to stick anyway, faith is a gift from God and so is the full assurance of faith and so is His peace – all these things are from God – perhaps He has let this happen to me to show me that there’s an anxiety or an untrust in me of Him looking after me and being enough, perhaps that’s what He’s trying to surface in me, perhaps…

I’ll head off on this run and see what happens… 🙂

Love You, Lord…

“I love you Andrew and I will never leave you nor forsake you”…

“Everything which you go through is for My Glory”…

“I will glorify you in your time”…

“It is for My Glory that you are humble and contrite of heart – that you are open about your faults and shortcomings”…

“I receive glory in your admitting of your inabilities and ‘unableness’ to do what I put in front of you”…

“Never fear, all will become clear – whatever you have to go through in your journey – all your unknowns – all your lonely valleys – all these things are for your glory and Mine and they will all bring You closer to Me for I have walked through all those valleys alone before, My Son has been there – He has experienced everything which you are going through – nothing is new in this my son, nothing is new – you are following a path to Me – closer and closer and closer you are coming to Me – I am drawing you closer and closer and closer to My heart – and you will need none other, none other but Me – in this place which I create for you there will be fellowship with Me and none other – the secret place of My Presence is open to you and none other with you at this point in time – come, come close to Me – as close as you desire to come and I will meet you there”…

“Love you”…

Jesus…

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