The Lord has been speaking to me of death recently…

You just know…

There are things which the Lord tells you which you just know…

You know that these things are OK…

There’s nothing wrong with them but the Lord is pulling at you, tugging at you and He’s wanting more…

He’s wanting you to let go of these things and choose something better – something which is more of Him…

There’s more of Him and it comes through death…

It comes through letting go…

He’s not asking us to strive to do better or to do more – He’s just wanting us to let go…

And let Him do better and do more through us…

Often more is less…

Often more is letting go…

Falling into the ground and dying…

I have had some of the most amazing experiences of breakthrough in prayer just recently…

And it was after I let go of trying to be the solution or even being involved in the solution when He said to me, “You’ve got that now”…

And I know…

And when I know I’m unstoppable…

I have a Divine confidence which can stand against any eventuality – any eventuality…

I don’t need prompts in the natural to prop up my faith – I have my prompt in the spirit (the spiritual realm) from the Lord Himself…

This comes with letting go…

He loves it when we trust Him…

When we leave it to Him…

Nothing worth having can be grabbed…

It must be waited for…

And in the waiting we learn so much about ourselves…

What used to be us and He practically removes it from us…

We see it – we see what we were – He instructs us through this process and shows us what we were – we see it in black and white before our very own eyes – we see it and we see Him overcome it…

All this happens in the waiting…

We don’t care whether we do it – the thing He’s told us or had us praying for – or whether someone else does it – as long as it’s done – it’s for His Glory – He creates this unification – this unity – this Kingdom Perspective – within us…

I have been holding a few things up before the Lord – I have stepped back from these things – and as I’ve stepped back the Lord is showing me that I have them – I may never get any pat on the back from anyone for these things and I don’t want one – but I will see them and I will smile to myself knowing that I played my part in their establishment – in their creation on this earth…

That’s a satisfying feeling and one which pulls me closer to the Lord – He and I share that moment – He knows – and I know – that’s enough for me…

That’s satisfying…

When we’re called away by the Lord – like the Prophet Elijah was to the Brook Cherith – it is a precious time with the Lord – He pulls us away to teach us more about ourselves and also more about Him – His Love for us – His Unconditional Love for us…

Praise You Jesus…

We are called to let go of, to lay down, the things, the people, which we love…

We are called to let them go…

We are called to give to them and we are called to let them go – to let them go – their futures – their destinies – to the Lord – to let Him be Sovereign – as He is – in their lives…

For He is Sovereign – and He is Lord…

Every single one of us have a mapped out plan which He has set for our lives – we cannot escape this – His Love is Perfect and His plan will be fulfilled – He has a purpose for each of our lives which He will fulfil…

Where sin abounds grace super-abounds…

Where we see gross sin in our lives His Grace super-abounds to the releasing and pulling down of strongholds – all this we see – if He will not release us on earth then He will take us home to be fully released with Him in heaven – grace super-abounds – sin shall not be our master for we are not under law but under grace – you see how compelling His story is…

You see how compelling His Love is…

He planned and created us to love Him…

Our new self was made to love Him…

He will never force us to love Him but He will work the willingness in us to love Him and He will remove sin within me from us so that we see the revelation clearly of who He is so that our new self will love Him…

He will be loved by us but love is not self seeking – He is not seeking our love but He knows that it is more blessed to give than to receive for that is what He is and that is what He has created us – our new selves – to be – the only thing which can satisfy our new selves is to be like Him – He knows this – so He knocks out our sin within me to get it out of the way so our new self can find fulfilment in being transformed in the image of its Creator – becoming more and more and more practically (through our bodies which are kept alive by Him and controlled and owned by Him – His Holy Spirit) like Him – to the praise of His Own Glory…

We are loved and we will know His love – whichever way it goes for us in life we will know His love…

Eternity is a very long time…

I often wonder why things take so long with the Lord – I am (well my old self is) very impatient…

Why do things take so long – it’s like pulling teeth…

And then I see that I’m going to enjoy intimacy – marital intimacy – with the Lord forever – no time frame – and I’m going to know Him fully forever – and then I forget that the Lord operates outside of time…

To Him this is nothing – this pain which I’m going through in groaning to be made like Him – seeking more – wanting more – wanting reality – wanting to move – wanting to see the miracles – to see the salvations – to see the deliverances – to see the fulfilment of the prophetic word which He keeps giving me and encouraging me to believe – all these things – the pain of the waiting – the waiting – the waiting – it is nothing to Him – compared to the vastness of the Glory which is to be revealed to us – as Paul says – when we are revealed complete in Him – which we will be – either here or in His Presence – we will be revealed complete in Him and will know Him fully even as we are fully known…

Wow…

I can’t comprehend eternity…

I can’t comprehend a good time which never ends…

All good things must come to an end…

That’s a common statement…

Deep down I (my old self) believe(s) that – when He shows me that eternity is forever and we’re just going to love each other forever – I can’t comprehend this – I know its true but I just can’t comprehend this – it shows me it’s true for it’s just so far in advance of what I can comprehend – but it makes the hard times – the falling into the ground and dying times – so much more bearable – this is just a small snapshot in time – just a small blip on the horizon of time – and His plan is so huge – there’s no rush – He’s been telling me this – He’s given me these huge, unattainable goals – which He’s made me promise to Him in the Holy Spirit and then He turns around and says there’s no hurry – wow…

He told me this back in Manila, “there’s nothing you can do to stop this from happening and there’s nothing you can do to make this happen” and I’ve been seeing recently – more than three years on – exactly what He means in this – it brings you to a complete standstill – a be still and know that I am God moment – or season – in your life…

This is the Awe of God…

Who else would say that?

Who else?

No one…

Try harder…

Strive…

If you don’t do this I won’t do that…

But not our God…

He wants it to be all about Him…

All about His Glory…

All about His Ability…

He wants to show us that we don’t want it when it’s not about us…

Unless He’s killed that part of us (our old selves) off practically…

When it all comes down to it – it’s all about Him…

The whole lot…

We don’t like being put on the shelf…

We don’t like being hung out to dry…

But He does this to us – it strengthens our character – it shows us His priorities – and it shows us eternity…

We’re on a very small stage but a very large one at the same time – we stand – each and every one of us – before our Creator – we stand in eternity before His Throne – we stand right in the throne room of Heaven – we stand before our Creator and we speak to Him with no intermediary, through the work of our Intercessor Jesus Christ – the Messiah – our Saviour – and we speak in His Presence and as we are weaned from ourselves – we begin to reflect His Likeness and when we speak to Him we speak to Him through the Power of His Holy Spirit and we utter things which were made in Heaven – made in His Very Presence – and when we speak these things – having come to a complete standstill – all Heaven takes notice – we have Power with God – power with our Creator – He hears us for He hears Himself speaking through us – this is where we come to – this is where He brings us to…

Unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground…