I was just praying and I saw a beam of light coming right out of my belly region – that was the sense I had – and it happened as I let go completely of trying to resist evil…

My wife and I had been praying last night about the opposition we encountered when we got married (nearly 15 years ago) and how she’d seen a picture of me (a couple of weeks ago I believe) striving forwards towards God’s will for my life but all these ‘black hands’ trying to hold me back…

In front of me was light and I was striving forward, like leaning forward but the ‘black hands’ were trying to hold me back and behind my back was black…

I took to heart what she said and submitted to the Lord about not striving to resist the ‘voices’ which had opposed us at our wedding (or after) or trying to stop them from ‘winning’ in splitting my wife and I up…

I broadened this out to include anyone who had ever resisted me in my work and now as I type I include anyone who has ever resisted me full stop (there’s been quite a long list)…

Anyway, as I sat here at my desk at work (in my lunch hour) letting go of resisting evil and just trusting the Lord to release me – seeing that as I did this (earlier this morning I saw that as I cycled in to work) that if the Lord didn’t catch me I’d be completely ‘swallowed up’ – I suddenly saw this awesome, wide, strong beam of light emanating out of my belly region…

Like the Lord had instantaneously ‘taken it’ – my surrender…

I know His will for my life – my wife saw that in the picture she had for me – this is encouraging that He has shown her this but I need to ‘let go’ of any effort to try and ‘make it happen’…

I am happy with this – it goes with what He’s been telling me, to wait…

We – my wife and I – will pray more and we will – in His Presence – be released into what He has for us…

Finally – it’s been a long journey to get to this place but He is enabling us…