When we don’t get our own way it really can be overwhelming…

Such deep desires which we as human beings have…

Such deep desires…

As God cortisones or quarantines these ideas we squirm and rub and kick and shake and resist and try to get free but we just can’t – He has His Hand on our lives and we just can’t resist, why?

Because we gave Him permission to do this to us – we asked Him to Baptise us in His Holy Fire…

So He goes to work – and He keeps going until He practically delivers us…

Delivers us from our deeply held desires which we want ‘now!’…

He does…

Even ‘His stuff’ we can demand ‘now!’ – our flesh can…

We flail about like a fish on the end of a hook resisting being reeled in…

I know we do – cos I do it…

I see Him doing this to me right now…

And I am flailing about on the inside resisting Him and yet see my new self calm and waiting for the Anointing of Waiting to be released to me…

To not get and to be told that you won’t get ‘right now’ what you’ve ‘always wanted’ – the deepest desire of your heart – be real, we all have them – is incredibly difficult for a human being with a practically un-crucified flesh remaining in that area – other areas may be yielded but that one – not so much…

It makes us feel overwhelmed…

And yet He has told me to wait…

To wait even for Him to come and ‘peace be still’ to this overwhelmed state…

‘Peace be still’ is an amazing word – I’ve had these experiences with God which is why I know He will do it again…

And again and again until there are no further ‘battles’ left outstanding…

Until the ‘white flag’ surrender is practically complete…

He will do it…