God wants to be known…

He wants us to know Him…

He came to earth as Jesus to make Himself known to us…

He created a world for us to live in to make Himself known to us…

He has let us experience life without Him so we know how futile life is without Him…

He is “out there” and He is “knowable”…

He wants to be known…

I have been experiencing this with God…

He has been pursuing me…

He has been “coming after” me…

He has been reaching out to me…

He has been reaching out to me…

I can honestly say this…

I am nearly 42 years old…

He has been reaching out to me…

My first memory of Him or His working in my life was when I was around 3 years old…

I remember that…

I was saved at 5 years old…

At 11 years old He told me that if I was going to be a Christian then I needed to live like a Christian…

At 15 years old He enabled me to be baptised and I felt a special closeness to Him after that when I had my first communion – remembering Him with the bread and wine…

At age 20 or 21 I offered my body – all my different body parts – to Him for Him to use them for His glory…

At age 24 – after reading and being hugely impacted by the book “Rees Howells Intercessor” the summer before – I went into a severe depression and thought I’d lost my salvation…

What I went through during that time I will never forget…

I owe the Lord my life…

I’m nearly crying as I write this…

When He brought me out He showed me that no matter what I did He loved me and that He wasn’t waiting to deliver me based on my performance but on my admittance that I couldn’t perform – that was when I first really understood – from experience – His unconditional love…

At age 28 I experienced the Baptism of the Holy Spirit in the sense of speaking in tongues…

That was what I’d been seeking – more and more and more – since coming out of the depression experience…

At first I didn’t notice that that really changed me but then the Lord showed me one day that as I spoke in tongues the strongholds in my life – more and more and more – were eroded and would eventually be destroyed…

At age 33 He sent me out into the wilderness to learn what true faith was – that was when I dropped all vestige of “Christian-ness” and just did whatever was on my heart to do (“the good, the bad & the ugly”) – He exposed a lot of wickedness in my heart at that stage – He was still with me – I experienced Him in my work – but I didn’t have any involvement with church or any form of ministry until I started “coming out” of the wilderness at around age 38…

When He called me out of the wilderness in 2010 He re-spoke to me the promises that He’d made earlier to me – which I’d released back to Him and let go of – I had let go of any effort or endeavour to “make happen” what He’d told me would happen in terms of my call along the way – He made it clear that He would fulfil them all (and I’ve been seeing Him prepare the way for this since)…

He delivered me from some deep bondages in my life in 2010 and following…

Covetousness (of which pornography was a big part) and Control (which He is still working on) being the two major ones…

My letting go of all control in terms of trying to live a godly Christian life had gotten me into debt and also into pornography…

He delivered me from the effects of both – I am still paying off one loan (back here in New Zealand) but He paid off another (through a gift from my parents) which enabled me to “come home” to New Zealand from working overseas and to be re-united with my family…

He has been healing my relationship with my wife and children – we are now beginning to experience closeness – and wholeness is coming back into our lives…

I now find that I naturally do a whole lot of righteous things that I was never able to do before and He has shown me that the secret is not to strive and not to “clamp down” on myself when I’m not but just to trust Him that He’ll “sort it out”…

I have been living this…

I have had a lot of joy…

I have had a lot of peace…

Recently He’s been showing me about self-righteousness – wanting to look good in front of people – this is a “dead end” – there’s no joy in it – it’s empty – I’ve experienced that – He’s been delivering me from this also – mostly this year, 2013 (in fact this has been on going for a number of years – but especially since 2010)…

Just today – yesterday evening actually I believe – He showed me what it was to know Him and asked me to complete a post on it…

This is what I’m doing – I suppose the above is just “setting the scene” – He’s shown me that people will read this – maybe years from now and be encouraged – it’s not up to me who reads it and when or how encouraged they get but I’m just to share…

To know Him is to allow Him to live through us (without any effort from ourselves – just to allow Him to live through us – in peace and in relaxation – on the inside – as we wait on Him)…

This is the Knowledge of God – a personal, experiential, knowledge of God as He lives through us – as we share His feelings – through the Holy Spirit who lives in us…

I surrendered to this today – to live to know His Heart – His Heart is what protects me – experiencing the pain which He feels for the world is what protects me from pride – is what protects me from self-righteousness – is what protects me from worshipping or focusing on myself…

To have Him living through me and to communicate with Him about “every little thing” which goes on in my life – as I am learning to do – is what protects me from striving or seeking the approval of men (or women) – or anyone else…

I am learning that His Love is better than life…

An experience of Him loving me – pouring out His Love on me – is freeing me naturally to be a more loving person to those around me…

He told me last night or this morning – this morning it was – that as I chose to know Him that everything else would fall into place…

My relationship with my wife, my relationship with my children, financial provision – everything else – all the worries and concerns I had would fall into place as I focus on knowing Him…

This is the truth…

I’ve been walking this today…

It feels like life has stopped again – I had another experience like this earlier on this year – “Eternity” (I blogged on this previously)…

Amazing…

The Knowledge of Him truly is Eternal Life and it truly does feel that time has stopped…

You don’t want anything…

Nothing…

You’re just happy with Him…

This must be what it was like for Adam and Eve in the Garden before the fall…

Beautiful…

Beautiful…

The Knowledge of Him is Beautiful…

He is enough – experientially He is enough…

Thank You Jesus…

Thank You Father…

Thank You Holy Spirit…

Thank You Lord…

Come and reveal Yourself to me – in me – reveal Yourself to the world…

Reveal Yourself to Your Church and let us know You living through us…

Living – painlessly and effortlessly – through us – yes, we will know Your pain but this won’t be as painful as the effort – the self effort and the pain of failure which we’ve known from our own efforts to know You or get to know You or try to please You or whatever other form of striving we’ve been involved with – come and make Yourself known to us and live through us – effortlessly (Your yoke is easy and Your burden is light) – to glorify Your Name in all the earth…

You are Humble God…

And I worship You in humility kneeling at Your Feet because of Your Humility which I’ve seen You show to me even though I am nothing…

You are everything and I am nothing except what You have made me…

Glorify Your Name in all the earth and let all the earth know You as You are able to be known – in all the depths that You are able to be known – to the deepest depth – let them know You and find in You all that they have ever wanted or needed – to find all their fulfilment in You – and in You alone…

Glorify Your Name in all the earth and let the Name of Jesus be lifted High above all others in Jesus Name I pray, Amen and Amen… 🙂