It’s like I’ve kind of come to the end of what I can write about…

As I sat here tonight – everyone is now asleep (my wife and my three young children) – I thought, “What is there left which I haven’t written about?” and I thought about Leadership…

This is kind of what I’ve been going through for the last week and a half (or there abouts) now…

It’s quite a lonely feeling Leadership…

It’s a misunderstood feeling…

An awkward feeling…

You know you’ve been called to do something but you’re kind of hoping that you don’t really have to walk this alone for the rest of your life…

Kind of a “teetering on the brink” feeling…

You’re going on but you’re sad that you have to go on alone…

Jesus felt this…

A sister prophesied this over me around a week and a half ago after it had just started for me and I was able to share with her that it had just started with me…

Yes, it’s a weird feeling…

Jesus felt completely alone as He approached the cross…

He was God and yet He sought human support from Peter, James & John in prayer and yet His closest friends on earth were not able to give Him any support – sorrow had overwhelmed their hearts…

An angel came and strengthened Him…

He poured out His Heart to God – this is what I need to do in my present situation – pour out my heart to God – feeling alone is a gift from God so we can draw closer to Him – to spend that intimate time with Him…

Leadership is going into the Presence of God and bringing back what He has shown you through those times of pain or stretching when you truly have only Him…

We are given fellowship for a reason and we are given “solitary confinement” (you know what I mean) for a reason – to bring us nearer to the Lord…

When I feel a time of “solitary confinement” coming on (I think the Lord showed me this yesterday) it is my cue to come into His Presence…

There’s a flow of earthly fellowship and when it “wanes” that’s my cue to come closer to Him and really spend that time with Him – that’s His Sovereignty calling me to Himself…

More time with Him and then there’ll be more equipping of others through those times and then another period of more intimate time with Him, etc…

Leadership is being willing to “go with God” when it is just “you and God” – when no one else understands and even breaking the desire for anyone to understand – that is true Leadership…

Not seeking recognition or understanding – but going and doing without explaining – because He has told us to…

Did the disciples understand what Jesus was doing by surrendering to the cross?

No…

Did Jesus try to tell them to avoid them being confused?

Yes, He told them but He didn’t labour the point…

He knew they’d be confused and He didn’t try to stop it – He just “got on” with the task at hand trusting that the Lord would show them eventually – that He would give them insight eventually – which He did…

Perfect Patience is not forcing our understanding on others because we are feeling lonely being the only one who understands something… 🙂

It is hearing, as I heard the Lord say to me earlier this week regarding someone I’m waiting for (to really see something which I can see), that this is necessary for them – this waiting and that this is God’s Perfect Patience towards them – my waiting, no pressure, for as long as it takes – and this is the attitude which we should have towards all our brothers and sisters…

“Do not awaken My love until she pleases” – as per that other word I got some time back…

This is the Perfect Patience of God…

True Leadership waits and doesn’t try to force understanding…

True Leadership waits and lets God “install” in the individuals the truth which He needs to reveal to them – we can encourage this but we need to “step back” sometimes to let Him do it in His time and not interfere with this process as it progresses in His time…

His time is perfect and our “stepping back” shows His Perfect Patience…

In the same way though we ourselves continue on the path which He has shown us even as we wait for others to be revealed that path – we don’t “back pedal” because others haven’t seen it yet – we keep going (individually) “full steam ahead”…

This pleases the Lord – and maintains our Joy in the Lord… 🙂