I’ve really had a growing desire to have a Divine Encounter with the Lord Jesus very similar to the one which Paul had on the road to Damascus…
Paul literally – I believe – looked into Jesus’ Glorified Eyes and was blinded…
This is what I’ve been seeking…
To look into Jesus’ Glorified Eyes – which burn like a flame of fire – and have His Fire go right down into my very soul burning out everything which remains in me of “sin within me”…
The eyes are the window to the soul someone has said…
This is what I want – I started to get this at our first trip to Arthur’s Pass last year – I’m pretty sure it was the first trip in September – when we were seeking the Baptism of Fire – and I sensed my eyes were somehow blind or blocked from truly seeing in the spirit (spiritual realm) and I saw that Jesus’ Eyes blazed like fire and I needed to look right into His Eyes and just stay there…
I just couldn’t do it – I wanted it but it just didn’t happen (I was trying but my eyes just weren’t open – like I was blinded spiritually) – but the hunger has been building…
Anyone who reads this and wants to agree with me in prayer that I will have a visitation from Jesus in this very real – very practical – very physical manner – I’d really appreciate your “Amen”… 🙂
I really sense the Lord is building me up for this…
I’ve had encounters with Him where I know He was (Father, Son & Holy Spirit were) in my room (my prayer room) – I had two of these last week and was changed by them – but I want more…
Do we want more?
If you do I will pray for you to get more…
And I’d really appreciate your prayers for my wife, my children (their partners), my grandchildren and myself to be so immersed in the Lord that we truly forget about ourselves and flow together in unity for His Glory all the days of our lives…
This is my prayer (I’ve been experiencing the beginnings of this – and it is very sweet – and peaceful – but I want more)…
Love in the Lord,
Andrew
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amen brother Andrew.. I come into agreement with you, and pray I also recieve the same visitation and cleansing from within.. YHWH bless you. love conquers all
Amen, sister Ruth, I agree with you in prayer that you would have a revelation of Jesus Christ as Paul had on the road to Damascus and that the Fire of His Eyes would consume all that remains of “sin within you”, That He would fill you to all the Fullness of God that you could serve Him without fear all the days of your life knowing His Freedom in power upon your life – release this to our sister Ruth Lord in Jesus Name – come Lord Jesus and take Your Place, Love in the Lord, Andrew – not just one Encounter Lord – but over and over and over burn in Ruth until there is nothing left but You – gold, silver and precious stones – flowing from her heart – the Power of God – the Fire of Your Holiness and Love – Purity and Consecration – in the Mighty Name of Jesus – Thank you for your agreement sister… 🙂 Love in the Lord, Andrew
Father, Thank you that your mercies are new every morning. Thank you for your loving kindness. Thank you for my brother Andrew who encourages me to run hard after you. I thank you that you have given him spiritual eyes to see and spiritual ears to hear. I thank you that he will see Your Salvation. I agree with both him and Ruth that they shall experience you in reality, that they shall no longer know you after the flesh but after the spirit. That upon experiencing your glory they are undone. That all dross is consumed and that they will be flaming brands of your love and your glory, no longer conscious of self but of You alone. Filled with you holiness, love and power, displaying your divine nature here in the earth. To you be all the glory. Thank you Lord Jesus!
Amen Lord, I receive this prayer from our sister Julie, Praise You Jesus and on behalf of our sister Ruth – a three fold cord is not quickly broken – Praise You Lord… 🙂
I have been reminded of this post by my brother Kevin yesterday… 🙂
I am still seeking for this but have been experiencing it in a round about way through the marriage counselling which my wife and I have embarked on…
The counsellor is a believer and a friend of the leader of our local congregation…
The Lord has shown me control which was left in me and also self righteousness which was left in me in recent weeks…
To be honest when the counsellor mentioned that my behaviour – which I thought was “godly” was actually controlling – I was shocked and quite taken aback and I saw (I now know what it was) the self righteousness rising in me to “argue the toss” with him over it… 🙂
But the Lord used this – my understanding that I now do not “shut down” around my wife when she doesn’t seem to “get” me but that I keep sharing my heart with her not with an expectation for her to “get” me but just with a desire for her to “get” me – and I would add with the Perfect Patience of God that I will continue to share my heart without this expectation for as long as we are together, i.e. until one of us goes to be with the Lord… 🙂
This was the breakthrough for me…
The loss of control…
Control is linked to expectations…
Even what God has said He will do – we can’t expect another person to “get it” and “jump” when we tell them…
God must tell them directly…
Desire is different from expectation – the Lord told me that after my second counselling session this week…
The second lesson which I learnt was that “points of control” – scary experiences where we are “shut down” – can occur in childhood…
I had one of those occur to me when I was around 10 years old…
I won’t go into the details but the outcome was that I felt unprotected by the major authority figure in my life – or in fact quite a few of them all over a short space of time – and forced to apologise for something which I didn’t do – it just felt wrong and evil – I hated that experience so much – even thinking about it now – I hate it…
Anyway…
Unfortunately when I’m placed in situations today when I feel forced to “confess” things which I haven’t done or to “bow down” to an authority figure who is trying to “bully me” into a “confession” or to admit that I was wrong when I’m not – I really struggle to know how to handle it…
I respond often like a 10 year old – not like a 41 year old…
I do this – have done this – in my marriage…
My “shutting down” – or “freezing” has been a “self-defence” mechanism and my “lashing out” has been my way of “fighting back” for that time at the age of around 10 when I wasn’t able to “fight back”…
I see that now…
As the Lord unlocks these areas it is as if I am looking into His Eyes – I haven’t had this as an “experience” as such but I’ve been having it really practically through “real life” – “every day life”…
I have seen a change in me…
I have seen a loss of the control I had towards Nancy…
A silent control which just couldn’t wait for her to see certain things which I could see or to “get me” and “get on” with the call on our lives…
Now it’s great that I have that desire but not that expectation…
I can see the difference now and am just starting to “walk it” – this will be a process… 🙂
Our past pain – in those “points of control” which happened to us in our youth – “speaks” loudly to us in our emotions whenever we enter a situation which “triggers” those memories…
We need the Lord to go to the root of those memories and show us where it was that we went wrong – even in our childhood we are still responsible before the Lord for our responses – no one can shut us down – as the counsellor told me – I do that all by myself (ouch) – but he’s right… 🙂
My mistake – at age 10 (I knew the Lord then – I was saved at 5) – was not to welcome the Lord into that situation – I feared men instead of knowing that the Lord was with me and that I could just continue to say, “No, I didn’t do what you are accusing me of and forcing me to apologize for” – I could have done this but because of the silence of my major authority figure I didn’t – I feared man and their praise/acceptance instead of fearing the Lord who was right there – as He showed me He was right there when I asked Him about it earlier this week after the session – and would have supported me…
When I “got free” I prayed that everyone, everywhere who had had similar experiences would be set free to know that the Lord is always with them and they can stand as a majority of One – with just the Lord – in any situation or circumstance – I feel His Pleasure as I type – Praise You Jesus – later on He told me that He’d set me free from control – with respect to Nancy – this is very big for me…
Praise You Jesus…
We all (unbeknownst to us possibly) try to control others – especially our spouses as we are one with them and can’t “move” without them – it’s very hard not to be controlling with them but easier with others – but in marriage you can’t hide it – it comes out… 🙂
Praise You Jesus…
I just feel to share this – it is a breakthrough for me but more is coming…
Praise You Jesus…
Share your desires with your spouses…
“I’d like it if…”
“It makes me feel like this… when you do this…”
But leave it at that…
Say these things over and over as the situations arise – keep saying it – but without the expectations and without the “verdictive” (new word) responses which I know I always end up (or ended up) giving when I’ve reached “the end of my rope” (no matter how long that might be)… 🙂
Fester and then explode…
That’s been my “motto” (not that I think that is a good thing 😦 ) but my “motto” is changing… 🙂
Thank You Lord…
Misunderstanding is a big thing in marriage…
Nancy and I this morning agreed (I really believe we did) to speak back to each other what we each think we’re hearing the other to be saying…
This is a good start and will alleviate a lot of our problems – in terms of misunderstanding…
When we have these “trigger points” from our past where we’ve been shut down then we can’t truly “hear” what others are sharing with us – our hearing is “warped” and “twisted” by the pain of the past…
Love you all,
Andrew
Andrew Shalom
I admire your openness here on your website about your internal struggles. May others be released and blessed by your honest sharing. When we come to Jesus we are spiritually saved, but our souls not only need regenerating but many souls are fragmented and need healing.
It says in Hebrews 4:12. “The word of God is living and powerful and sharper than any two-edged sword piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart”.
I have discovered that we must come to a place when ministering to people and even when praying for people, where we have that supernatural discernment and knowledge, as Jesus did. It can save much time in counselling, because the right Word spoken can break the yoke off/over that person in an instant.
Back in the 1980s I was in a large meeting where a Scottish preacher was in attendance. He moved out into the crowd and gave words of knowledge over 5 people. I was one of them. The word he gave me completely broke a yoke that had been over me for 15 years and I was healed at that juncture! That is how powerful Hebrew 4:12 can be and we must embrace the supernatural power of God in our counselling.
At the same time many people will resist healing for whatever reason. Their hearts are hard towards God or if they are not saved their hearts have hardened. A heart of stone is comprised of walls that we have built to protect ourselves from hurt. These same walls block out the healing power of God, prevent restoration and form a stronghold for delusion and deception. Two areas that cause a heart of stone to develop are inner vows and bitter root judgments. Events that form the basis for these two areas usually occur in childhood, but the results can show up later in life. We must command those walls of defence to come down, so God can get in to do His restoration for that person. I have found we must always seek God for the “Strongman” and once that is exposed, healing comes quickly. The gift of spiritual discernment is a ‘must’ for counsellors and healers alike.
God bless
Hi Alison,
As we’ve kind of discussed before, I understand that at salvation – at regeneration I should say – God gives us a new heart – our righteous soul is part of our new heart – He also gives us a new spirit at regeneration – this – our new spirit and our new heart in conjunction with the gift of faith and repentance – is what enables us to “see” and “enter” the Kingdom of God – as Jesus says to Nicodemus… 🙂
We have (present tense) the Mind of Christ – in Romans 7 we see Paul exhibiting his righteous soul even in the midst of “sin within him” – he had righteous emotions, a righteous will and also a righteous mind…
But sin within me – all that I used to be and what I’m used to being before I came to Christ – is very used to living through me…
It is natural for “sin within me” to live through me – as the Holy Spirit within my new spirit teaches me the truth deep in my new heart – in my new soul – in my new mind – the Mind of Christ – I am like Christ was as He was growing up as a boy – increasing in wisdom – that’s what it says about Christ – fully God but increasing in wisdom – and that is like my righteous soul – fully righteous and yet being transformed from “glory to glory” as of by the Lord the Spirit…
So we have the Mind of Christ and are being transformed by the renewing (making better and better) of our minds – not to say it is bad to start with cos it’s not – our new mind – but it’s getting “better and better” as the Holy Spirit reveals more and more truth to it – He will lead you into all truth – as Jesus said…
So I have nothing to fear in this transformation process which is why I can be so honest about it – I’m not trying to impress anyone – I’m trying to get practically free and get as many as possible practically free along with me… 🙂
Love you sister,
Andrew
re divine encounters.
God had called Saul to become Paul, and nothing short of blinding him would turn him around. Saul was not even saved and he experienced a divine encounter. Of course he would not think being blinded was a ‘good’ God meeting, until later when his ministry was well under way and he was explaining himself to the Jews, who were suspicious of his ‘new’ intentions.
Nothing Saul did himself made that divine encounter occur. It was totally out of his control and at God’s bidding. Divine encounters are not dependent on us seeking him more earnestly or the location we are meeting in, but they are totally up to God. Usually they come for a good reason. God visits at any time, often in response to people is great distress or need, at the point of salvation, at the point of danger or near death, or at a transitional stage in one’s lives. Miracles of healing are really divine encounters.
Any time God speaks personally to us is a divine encounter, or speaks to us through other people.
Divine encounters do not look the same each time. The divine encounters I have experienced have
not been the same and I had no control over when it occurred or where. I did not seek any encounter at those times. I may well have been praying at those times, however we can’t control God, only surrender to His bidding and be blessed when He does reveal Himself to us, in a more ‘noticeable’ way. However I do know that God DOES want to meet with us more regulrly than
we allow time or oppprtunity for Him to do so. He loves to in fact have intimate fellowship with us.
God bless Alison
Hi Alison,
Regarding Saul turning into Paul – I believe that Saul was instantaneously regenerated when the Lord appeared to Him on the road to Damascus…
When he asked, “Who are You Lord and what would You have me to do?” He knew the Lord – he was saved – he knew the Lord – he knew that he was speaking to the Lord… 🙂
The experience I am seeking is the specific part where the Lord looked at him and he (Saul/Paul) was blinded…
Literally “sin within me” destroyed – I’m aware that this didn’t happen to Paul – but it’s the similar experience of looking into the Eyes of Jesus and being blinded which I’m seeking – not physically blinded but to have my “sin within me” burnt out…
What I’m seeing happening is that God is using every day life – people who “rub me up the wrong way”, “misunderstand me”, “falsely accuse me”, etc – to actually achieve this for me…
It is a “painful process” rather than a “one-off experience” (unfortunately)… 🙂
But this is His way (for me anyway) – this has been my experience and He is walking with me through this…
I’m excited about it whichever way He chooses to work in our lives – I’ve been experiencing His Presence with me as I walk through it and it’s precious – really precious to see Him walking with me…
I see that everyone who speaks to me is an opportunity for me to give up to the Lord what they are sharing…
I don’t have to receive anything – I am open to receiving anything but I give it all up to the Lord first before I receive anything…
It’s as if the Lord is standing between me and anyone who communicates with me…
So I can let it “go through Him” and receive it if I get His Peace or His Witness that what they’re sharing is the truth…
If not or if I just don’t sense that He wants me to receive it then I won’t receive it…
I’m not necessarily saying it’s wrong but that I just can’t receive it as being from the Lord or can’t receive it – if I sense it is from the Lord but still can’t receive it then I give that to Him also… 🙂
I’m not responsible to “jump” and try to respond – I’m responsible to wait for Him to enable me to respond – no pressure – but all in His timing – He knows my heart and knows what makes me “tick”… 🙂
Love you sister,
Andrew