Hurt…

Hurt is an interesting topic…

I felt hurt yesterday…

It’s not a nice place to be…

You know you’ve been “kicked in the guts” (this is the way it feels to you whether this is “all in your mind” or very real really isn’t the point – this is what you experience “inside your own skin” so it’s real to you) and you can’t quite get that out…

It’s like you’re trapped in that place and although you’re still there in the conversation it’s like you feel yourself turning numb and hardening up and not really knowing what to say anymore…

Trust is a hard thing for me…

I’ve been betrayed a number of times…

I’m slow to trust…

When I trust and then am betrayed (or feel that I have been betrayed – again this may be in my mind or may be very real – again this is not really that relevant as it’s very real to you at the time) or have things “turned on me” I find that I go into “hurt”…

To be honest it happens to me fairly infrequently these days but it happened again yesterday (it surprised me really that it happened)…

I saw it happening, there was nothing I could do about it, I let it happen – the Lord was observing it all – and I let myself “express” the pain which I was feeling (to the Lord, partially to the other person involved) – again the Lord heard it all (in my conversation with Him after finishing my conversation with other person) – and then out of myself I started to find forgiveness coming…

A broken heart – how do we get a broken heart?

Someone said of Jesus that He died of a broken heart…

“My God, My God, Why have You forsaken Me?”

I guess He knew what it was to be close to Someone – His Father – and then when this was taken away from Him, He was broken up inside…

The difference with Jesus was that He didn’t have any hurt (He didn’t “give way” to hurt – He didn’t have it inside Him) – yes, He had pain but He didn’t have hurt, yes, He had grief – great grief – but He didn’t have hurt…

Hurt is where selfishness dwells…

I suppose that it was a good thing that that happened to me cos it showed me that there was still selfishness in me…

Then the Lord started to speak to me – this morning – about trust…

When someone hurts me there’s a point where I “die” inside and “shut them out”…

I saw myself starting to go through that mechanism yesterday to see the Lord “arresting” me and teaching me these lessons about forgiveness and now this morning about trust…

We are to treat every person on the planet as if they were doing exactly what the Lord would have them to be doing…

i.e. we are to treat them as if they belonged to the Lord and were in conformity with His will…

This is trust, “love always trusts”…

If someone tells us something we are to believe them…

We are not to doubt them, we are not to be suspicious – always looking for the lies, always looking for the falsehoods – but we are to believe them…

When they hurt us, i.e. when they betray us or don’t tell us the truth or hide or aren’t completely honest or are even downright dishonest (or even if they’re not but it appears to us as if they are, even if we misunderstand them to be any of these things) – we are to forgive them and then treat them again with trust as if that had never happened…

In doing this we remain in the “love always trusts” position and can be “happy” “positive” people who are not “bitter and twisted”, or “suspicious” or “have our walls up” or are “protecting ourselves from getting hurt” – we can commit to relationships and even if they completely “turn to custard” we can have “no hard feelings” (literally) or “no hurt feelings” after the Lord leads us through the place of hurt and into the place of forgiveness (there is no expectation in this place of “love always trusts” – just trust, which is given to us by the Lord – Thank You Jesus 🙂 )…

I understand what Jesus said where He said, “Seventy times seven”…

True forgiveness forgives and forgives and forgives – I don’t believe it is true to say “true forgiveness forgives until it doesn’t hurt” (yes it is true that for past things we get to that place where it doesn’t hurt but each new thing hurts where there is still an old self to be hurt)…

I believe it will always hurt – until we don’t have an old self left to be hurt – but the Grace of God is to lead us through the hurt to the place of forgiveness…

And in doing this we also see our fault – our part in the problem – and get this right with the Lord…

I like to be a happy person…

People do things to me most days which are not naturally “happy” things – either at work, or at home or in my interaction with others wherever I might be (like biking to work and nearly getting run over 🙂 ) – this brings out the “flesh” in me but I find the Lord – because I am under His Blood – coming in in those times and “turning the tables” on the hurt and evicting it like He did with the money changers…

Praise His Wonderful Name…

This is the reason why I love the Lord…

Because He takes me in my weakness – in my susceptibility to be hurt or to be deceived or to be enticed – and He lets me go through it – He lets me feel the pain of it – even the hurt of it and then He sets me free (I am also guilty of enticing others – in fact when I think about it all hurt really comes from a position of unmet expectations – wanting something from someone that they don’t end up delivering – even if they’ve “promised” to deliver it when they don’t hurt comes in – if there was no selfishness, no expectation, then there would be no hurt – even a broken promise – there should be no hurt there if there is no expectation – no one can be our life other than the Lord)…

I do not have to strive…

He is working in me…

He is working in each of His own…

We are precious to Him…

We don’t always understand what is going on – others may see us as the cause of the problem – and that might be true to them, i.e. they see things in us which we do not see in ourselves, but as we submit to the Lord to feel the hurt, to feel the pain and “go through” whatever it is that we are “going through” He comes through in the revelation of what He is wanting to teach us…

I am “thick” sometimes and the penny doesn’t “drop” for me on some things…

I am sorry to all who I have been “thick” towards (you know who you are and will probably be nodding at this point 🙂 )…

Not getting their “signals”…

Not understanding that they were not wanting to communicate with me…

I think sometimes I’m too literal a person…

I don’t see all the “signs” or the “subliminal messages”…

I’m getting that now…

I suppose I have to be more aware of where someone is really at and really give them a chance to express this before “launching in” and believing we have an understanding and can go “full steam ahead” in the direction in which I think we’re in agreement to go…

I can be “thick” sometimes…

Honouring others above ourselves is all about understanding where the other person is at…

What are they comfortable with…

Where they are at…

If they’re not comfortable with something we need to “back off”…

We cannot force ourselves or our beliefs or our convictions on other people…

This is wrong and this is not pleasing to the Lord…

He never forces His Beliefs or His Convictions on us…

He always makes us willing before sharing His Beliefs and His Convictions with us…

I love You Lord…

There is no expectation with God…

No expectation…

He makes us willing and then He gives us the instruction and the ability to follow it through…

Thank You Jesus…

There is no striving with God…

No striving with the Lord…

You are so Beautiful Jesus…

You are so Gracious Father…

You are so Gentle Holy Spirit…

You know what we need to hear at each instant and You do enough to ensure that we are ready at the time when it is time to hear Your Command…

Your commands are not burdensome because everyone who is born of God overcomes the world…

Thank You Jesus that at the right time – in the right place – we overcome the world…

Not when we are ready but when You are ready…

You overcome the world through us…

You overcome bitterness…

You overcome selfishness…

You overcome hurt…

You overcome resentment…

One step at a time…

And You give us Your Peace…

Your Protection and when we are getting hurt You let us feel it – we do not “fight it” – we let it happen and then watch You deliver us from the one greater than us – the one who used to “own” us – the one who You are going to destroy forever in the lake of fire and brimstone…

Our old selves are being destroyed…

This is a messy process but You have already won the victory – Praise Your Wonderful Name…

You are Worthy Lord Jesus – Thank You Father for Your deliverance of us – step by step – and process by process – situation by situation You are delivering us and You are preparing us to spend eternity with You – in Your Presence – in Your Place – the Place where there is no hurt and there is no pain – where there is no tears or no sadness – we look forward to a place where everything will be right – everything will be “understandable” – “upfront” and in a way which we can understand and not be mistaken in terms of what anyone is saying…

A Place like this makes me smile – A Place like this is where we are all going (those of us who know You – Praise Your Wonderful Name) – A Place like this is where You Dwell – wherever You are is a Place like this – Praise You Jesus whether we are with You in Heaven or when You return to earth whether we are with You as You Reign from Jerusalem or whether we are with You in the New Jerusalem at the end of all things – irrespective of the setting, we are with You and in Your Presence is fullness of joy and eternal pleasures at Your Right Hand…

Hallelujah Lord, You know us, You understand us, You care for us, You know us more intimately than we know ourselves, We owe our lives and our sanity to You and You are the One we love, Thank You Jesus – Thank You Father – Thank You Holy Spirit, Come Lord Jesus…

Pain, grief, hurt, dejection, discouragement, disillusionment, bitterness, resentment, apathy, shutdown…

This cycle can be broken by the application of the Blood of Jesus in our lives…

Pain, grief, forgiveness, trust, stepping out, loving, giving, expending ourselves for others…

This is eternal life – this is the opposite of shutdown…

This is what we want and this is Supernatural…

Thank You Jesus – work Your Supernatural Life in us in the Mighty Name of Jesus – Thank You Lord – and let us overcome all weaknesses of the flesh – let them be removed from us – and let us live in Your Provision – Your Overcoming Provision – in the Mighty Name of Jesus – Amen – So let it be Lord 🙂 Love You Lord, Amen and Amen

To God be the Glory Great Things He has done… 🙂

About andrew james horton

Hi, my name is Andrew James Horton... I am a Kiwi (New Zealander), born in Christchurch (05 September 1971), now in my mid-forties (I feel so old saying that)... I am blessed to be married with five children and six grandchildren... :-) I am at present a Technical Director - Design, Director working in Christchurch, New Zealand... I am passionate about prophetic intercession and about revival both in New Zealand and throughout the world... I am passionate to pray that the Church, the Body of Christ, the Bride of Christ, will be all that He - the Lord Jesus Christ - desires her to be in our generation... I felt that the Lord gave me the name of this blog site, "a house of prayer for the nations - prophetic intercession for worldwide revival" and wanted me to "put it out there" and start recording the prayers which are on my heart to pray in the hope that others would also be encouraged to share the prayers which are on their hearts to pray and that in the unity of the Spirit we could participate together in this activity in different locations around the world as He leads us... If the Lord leads you, let's join in prayer for the Lord's will to be done on earth as it is in heaven in our generation... Love in the Lord, Andrew
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3 Responses to Hurt…

  1. gary says:

    Thanks Andrew. I believe that every person who lives and speaks the truth will go through times of being misunderstood, maligned or undermined. If it happened to Jesus, who are we [seeing and knowing only in part] to think we won’t experience it. It still hurts, but we can’t let it that stop us.
    Blessings, Gary.

  2. Amen brother…

    The Lord takes us through things to show us what remains in our hearts – our old hearts – it’s all part of the purification process and we can rejoice that “greater is He that is in thee than he that is in the world” – He is stronger in us than our old selves are – as we allow Him to “battle away” with our flesh and “stay out of it” – He conquers – He conquers all…

    That has been my experience…

    For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would. (Galatians 5:17 KJV)

    but praise God that as the Lord establishes a “beachhead” in more and more of our hearts through His Indwelling Holy Spirit that we are set free from “glory to glory”…

    All the pain and all the hardship which we go through are nothing when we come to that place of breakthrough…

    That’s the beautiful thing about God, For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. (Psalm 30:5 KJV) – joy cometh in the morning…

    He is so good…

    All things work together for good to those who love God to those who are called according to His Purpose…

    His word is true…

    He is so faithful…

    He delivers us from the one who is too strong for us – as a sister shared with me recently…

    Thank You Jesus…

    We love you Lord…

    It’s all in the timing…

    He knows what He is doing and He releases into our hearts the deliverance in His own time…

    He encourages us to “get out” whatever is in our hearts – “pour out your heart to God” and to anyone else to whom He leads us to “get out” things – if this is “two way” and everyone feels comfortable about this – as we get these things out He comes through and delivers us…

    If no one else is around or if we don’t have a peace to share things with anyone else then we can share them directly with the Lord – He will hear us and He will deliver us…

    When we get the deliverance we know cos we smile on the inside and it shows on our faces and we even laugh – as I was last night – that I’d overcome something which I honestly didn’t really believe that I ever would – that “hurt” thing was a big one for me – I can remember times in my childhood where I experienced “shutdown” in that same kind of way and also on into my marriage “shutdown” in the same sort of way – I am glad that I have gone through this – I also experienced this with a couple who I endeavoured to get close to over the internet back in 2010 – I shared my heart with them but they had an agenda to “take over” and control me and God’s plan for my life…

    I think the problem is when we believe other people in the flesh our flesh expects them to perform and then the “gun” is placed to their head to “perform” – there is none of this in the Spirit – there is unconditional acceptance and when there is a “lapse” or something happens which is incongruous with what has been “agreed” we forgive – there is no confusion in the Spirit – only in the flesh…

    If we find ourselves in a place of confusion – I’m not talking about what Jesus went through on the cross – but a place of confusion where we are going “round and round” in our minds trying to “figure things out” – yes, we will go through confusion in terms of not understanding what is going on but when we are in the Spirit we hand this up to the Lord without even a moment of “panic” or “trying to figure it out” – this is the way it is in the Spirit – this is Supernatural and this is “of God”…

    Love in the Lord brother…

    Now thanks be unto God, which always causeth us to triumph in Christ, and maketh manifest the savour of his knowledge by us in every place. (2 Corinthians 2:14 KJV)

    Paul went through some anguish in the preceding verses, Furthermore, when I came to Troas to preach Christ’s gospel, and a door was opened unto me of the Lord, I had no rest in my spirit, because I found not Titus my brother: but taking my leave of them, I went from thence into Macedonia. (2 Corinthians 2:12-13 KJV)

    But even though he went through some anguish the Lord pulled him through…

    On every side of any “conflict” between those who love the Lord there is “truth” for each individual – neither is “negated” by the Lord – He knows our hearts, He knows our histories – He knows what makes us tick – what might hurt me might not hurt someone else – someone else might be hurt by something which I do which I have no knowledge or comprehension of – we each must carry our own load in this case but when the Lord does give us brothers and sisters who we can walk in unity with there is great power in this – in His time we will see this in our world – brothers and sisters walking together in unity – Praise Your Wonderful Name Lord – we are all “works in progress” and we will be brought together under Him in greater and greater degrees as He purifies us by His Spirit…

    In His time…

    Love in the Lord,

    Andrew

  3. I just saw something beautiful in the Spirit – when Jesus was on the cross He was literally giving Himself for everyone in the whole world – He was giving Himself to each and every person in the whole world and He was stretching out His Hands and giving Himself and everything that He was to every person in the entire world – for all time…

    I was giving myself to the person who had hurt me in my post above – giving myself in the Lord – letting His Love flow through me towards the person who had hurt me in my post above and I saw that – I gave myself to this person and then to everyone in the entire world (not saying that I have perfect Love towards this person or towards anyone else in the entire world but I experienced what I experienced) – and I saw the Blood of Jesus flowing out from me to each and every one of them – in Love – His Love – not from me but from Him and then I saw that in the Spirit about Jesus – that this is what He did – additionally He carried our sin “in His Body on the cross” – obviously we don’t do this but we do “fill up in our bodies what remains of the suffering of Christ” and I believe this is what it means to lay down your life – to Love when there is nothing to receive in return…

    This is beautiful – what I have just experienced – and shows to me more than the “theory” that God really does Love people – Love me – unconditionally…

    If I can experience His Unconditional Love flowing through me so I can offer myself to anyone anywhere in the entire world to be whatever He would have me to be to that person even if they hurt me and reject me and hate me and even kill me – even if they were to do all those things – in this place – I would still Love them with His Unconditional Love…

    This is an amazing experience for me and one which shows me that His Love is real – I know this but I have just experienced it and in a way that I have never experienced it before…

    When our brothers and sisters are loving us in the Lord it is “easy” to love them back but we’re never really sure if that love is pure or if it is tainted in the sense that they’re being “nice” to us…

    When we’ve had an experience of being hurt and then we find that Love coming out of us – not in a “gushy” sort of way – but a very “even”, “been hurt”, “mature” sort of way, no real emotion involved but just coming out of our hearts – flowing through us – this is precious before the Lord…

    I love You Lord…

    You are Pure and You are Faithful…

    What You say in Your Word is True…

    You give us Your Unconditional Love and You break the bonds of bitterness and hurt and rejection in our lives…

    You are our Overcomer…

    And You Overcome all things…

    You are Real…

    And You are My Love – not in any sexual sort of way – but You are My Love in the sense that I love You for Your Faithfulness and for Your Righteousness – You say what You mean and You do what You say You will do – You are Faithful – You are all that I have been looking for…

    I have poured out my heart before You and You have heard me and responded as You did so many times in the scriptures to David who poured his heart out to You and You heard him and answered him – You are Faithful Lord – and Your Love is Strong…

    It overcomes all…

    Nothing can stand against Your Love…

    No rejection…

    No hurt…

    No pain…

    No intimidation…

    No condemnation…

    No fiery dart from the enemy…

    No attack from the enemy via deception – no “sucking up”, “being nice” and then “tearing down” – no “false friendship” – no deception – nothing can stand against the Blood pleading through us…

    I see this…

    I don’t have to “curl up” and “hide” or isolate myself or try and “protect” myself (hoping that nothing will “get through” and “hurt” me – I don’t have to be “defensive” or “cringing” or waiting for the “pain” to come – like waiting for an unexpected strike in the darkness – I don’t have to be this way – I don’t have to have “walls” built up to protect myself – I can stand and give and be “hewn down” and stand again and give and stand with my legs planted, stable, determined, sure – Praise You Jesus – You are Worthy Lord)…

    The Blood overcomes all…

    The Blood flowing through me in terms of the Love of God flowing through me is sufficient to protect me from anything “untoward” coming in my direction…

    Anything which “hits” me exposes further areas where the Blood needs to be applied to my life – the Lord will “sort this out” and again bring me to that “open”, “giving”, “hands out” in a giving pose, place towards the world…

    He is still standing Hands outstretched to the world – He will stand like this until their dying day – each and every one of them – He loves them and He wants them to come back to Him – including us who He has Bought – He wants us all to come back to Him – closer and closer and closer for those of us who know Him – Thank You Jesus, Thank You Father, Thank You Lord, Thank You Holy Spirit…

    I Love You Lord…

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